all i wanted to do was to keep quiet hoping for that someone to really think of what he did was wrong and apologize. But this person din ... and he did the worst thing ever ... he posted about me on his blog ... and well well welll guess what ? what he type is all what i did but he never type what he did ? cute huh ? his posting was a one sided one and he still have the cheek to ask me to read ? wonderful ... so lets talk about things here .... lets beginning on msn ?
i have afew msn account y ? becos i have alot of friends ... and it just so happen that u are in 3 of them ? i have afew msn account to separate the str8s and the gays .. and i dont wanna mix them up thats all ? lets put it this way ... when one account is at it maximum and i cant add people in any more ... how ? of cos i create a new one right ? i am not sooo heartless as to delete people off my msn ... it is sooo simple if u think i am just creating it for the sake to hide my identity sorry i am not...
next let talk about what we chat on msn ?
On msn i ask what was his name ? and he told me a name ? (in the beginning i take it as a real name and i trusted him ? but soon i find out about his real name ... and he din even initiate to tell me that the name he told me was not his real name) ... it is ok .... we continued the chatting .... and when i ask him to meet ? he say i was a sex manic ??? and i din even mention saying to come my house ... i said lets meet for supper and slack and if it is too late u can stay over if u wanna ... ( see his power of assuming ? ) nvm .... i tolerated cos i believe it is not nice to just shelve them just becos they like to assume things as it is a nature of a human ... so i continued to believe it is alreight but i told him i dont like people to any how assume things ... come on who would like it ?
i admit i knew him from IRC ...but this guy just got worst as mins past after i met him .... we chat on msn and soon i decided to meet him .. so i ask him over to slack chat and know more about each other... he ask me if i stay alone ... and i told him i have my own room ... and i din say i was staying alone ? and i did tell him i was staying with my granny and tenant but they will not be bothered about it. So i met him ...
On our first meeting .... he saw me and i know he was shock cos i i do not look like how i appeared in my pic ... but it is a fact ? come on which person will style their hair just becos of supper and slack further more i just came home from a long day or work ? u will but i will not i am not soooo attention seeking .... but it is ok ... i dont wanna say much ... subsequently we ended up at my place and got into alittle romance chat alitttle and soon we talk about what we wanted from each other ... all i said was care, love and concern .... now guys let me ask u a question ... CONCERN means what ? Look after one and other and help each other right ? but guess what ? his concern is DIG ON UR PAST RELATIONSHIP ... I TOLD MYSELF SAID IT IS OK TO TELL HIM SINCE THERE IS NOTHING TO HIDE ABOUT? BUT THE PART THAT REALLY FLARE ME UP WAS HE FORCEFULLY WANTED TO KNOW THE NAMES OF MY EX AND OTHER INFORMATION ? U WAN PEOPLE TO RESPECT UR PRIVACY BUT U KEEP FORCING ME TO TELL U THE NAME OF MY EX IS IT CALL AS RESPECTING OR OTHERS PRIVACY ?
GUYS KINDLY TELL ME YES OR NO ?
to me it is NO ...now how about another issue a more recent one ...
Last week when we met ... he told me that he wanna go to lady gaga night with his close buddy name "B" i said ok ... since u are going on a Saturday night so i said we meet on friday ... he said ok .... afew days later he called me and said "hubby i am going to "b's" house on friday night ... and when i told him din we agree on meeting that night ? u know what was his reply ? u got tell me meh ?? ( NOW GUYS ... IF U WERE ME HOW WLL U FEEL ? WILL U GET ANGRY ? DO I HAVE THE RIGHT TO EVEN GET ANGRY ?) WHEN EVER I CALL HIM ... HE WILL JUST TALK FOR THE SAKE OF TALKING AND WHEN WE SAY BYE BYE , HE WILL JUST HANG UP WHEN I TELL HIM GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS ?? WHEN I TALK TO HIM THINGS ... U CAN HEAR THAT IS IS NOT EVEN PAYING ANY ATTENTION TO WHAT I AM SAYING .... LIKE FOR EXAMPLE THE ISSUE WHERE I TOLD HIM TO MEET ON FRI HE DIN EVEN HEAR IT AT ALL .... SO NOW GUYS TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? SERIOUSLY TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? AND SHOULD HE BE SAYING SORRY IF HE EVEN OVER LOOK IT ?
Now adays he is even more classy .... with all this issue it is obvious that who is in the wrong ... but sad to say ... he dont wanna admit IT and tell me what i wan from him ? isn't it obvious ? and worst he say i am jealous of him to be with "b" LOL ? Wow ? pretty obvious situation but he just point the mistakes at me ? Coool huh ? Now he is just point all the mistake at me and feels that is is sooo perfect ? But seriosly after thinking the issue for so many times i dont feel that i am in any wrong ..... and worst ... i tolerated his non sense again and again and he just take it for granted .... i gave in soooo many times and he say what ? I SHOULD UNDERSTAND HIM ? WOW ?
THE OTHER ISSUE I WANNA COMMENT AND I WILL BOLD IT ... I SMS HIM GOOD MORNINGS AND ALL WE SMS CHAT ? AND IN A DAY WE CAN SMS CHAT FOR LIKE MAYBE 10 PLUS TO 20 SMSES ?HE TOLD ME IT WAS EXPENSIVE I SAID OK ... AND TRY TO REDUCE I SAID OK ... SUBSUQUENTLY WE REDUCE TO 10 PLUS SMS AND HE SAID SMS HIM WHEN IT IS IMPORTANT ONLY ? IF U GUYS WERE TO BE IN MY SHOE ... HOW WILL U FEEL ? FIRSTLY I WILL THINK WHAT AM I TO U ? IT IS OK NVM I TOOK IT JUST AS A "BAD JOKE AND SUCK THINGS UP" I DIN WANNA SAY ANYTHING MUCH ...
Soon he had to attend a training i said ok ... first day of his training i was worried he cant wake up and i sms him ... worried and anxious about things i sms him afew times and finally he replied ... he told me he was late ... and i ask than cant u tell me u are already up ? he told me what ? aiya i was preparing mah no time to reply u ? ( i got angry but i controlled ) and that was the last sms i got from him till later part f the day ... after smsing him soo many times ... and i din even see a word sorry and he told me this ... aiya i doing important things mah and was not free ... i was like WTF WHAT U DOING IS IMPORTANTANT AND U ARE BUSY ... CANT U JUST TELL ME SMS ME LATER ? RATHER THAN LETTING ME GET WORRIED OF WHAT HAPPENED TO U ? ( GUYS TELL ME WHAT DID I DO WRONG ?? )
guys after reading all that has happen ? stunning right that there are such people in this world ? and till now all the facts is pointing that he is in the wrong ? and he still have the cheek to tell me that " TILL NOW U ARE THE ONLY GUY THAT I HAVE TREATED U THE BEST ???????? " WHAT IS HE IMPLYING ?? TELLING PEOPLE THAT U HAVE BEEN ILL TREASTING UR EXs ? LIKE WHAT U HAVE BEEN DOING TO ME ? AND WHAT EVER U DO WRONG I MUST ACCEPT AND THINK IT IS OK ? WOW SORRY MAN BUT I AM NOT LIKE THAT .. WHEN U ARE WRONG I EXPECT U TO LEARN FROM IT SAY SORRY AND NEVER REPEAT IT .... BUT I GUES U CANT DO IT ... U ARE TOO SPOILED ... AND THINK TOOO HIGHLY OF URSELF ... IF U STILL WANNA THINK THAT U ARE IN NO WRONG GO AHEAD .... NOW GUYS PLS COMMENT ON WHO IS IN THE WRONG I REALLY GAVE UP TALKING TO HIM FACTS ... AND ANSWERING TO HIS STUPID QUESTION OF " WHAT U WAN ME TO DO THAN U WILL BE SATISFIED ? " REALLY ALL THE ISSUE ABOVE IT IS PRETTY OBVIOUS RIGHT ? MUST I ELABORATE MORE ? AND TILL TODAY I STILL REMEMBER WHAT HE TOLD ME " U ARE A VERY HARD TO SATISFY GUY ?" WOW ... ASKING ONLY FOR CARE CONCERN AND LOVE VERY HARD MEH ? OR RATHER ARE U JUST FEELING THAT U ARE AT THE LOSING END AND JUST TRYING TO COVER UR LOSES ? I REALLY WONDER ... I AM RTIRED AND I AM OFF TO BED .... WHEN U ARE READY TO APOLOGIZE TELL ME BAH ... NITESSS
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
14 Days Together and still going stronger
Today is the 14th day we have been together. I feel excited and happy. Till today my baby and i have been as sweet as ever. Cant stop from thinking of each other every single moment .He maybe a playful and naughty little boyfriend of mine. But still he is the cuties and the sweetest. MUACKS !! Though my baby maybe stubborn but still i love him alot. At times when he knows that he is in the wrong, he will apologize and not give me ill attitudes that i dislike. He is alway treating me so sweet . i am so happy that i have him as a boyfriend. Last week , we went to catch the 3D movie called Caroline( i forgot how to spell it but i think is this way) it was a fantastic show and we both enjoyed it. While watching the show, we just simply cant resist the temptation of holding hands. We held to each other hands from the start of the movie to the end of the movie and definitely love was in the air. What i love about my boyfriend is the pureness in him and cheerful attitude he has and the best thing is you could see that he is real sincere about relationshi and not getting into the relationship just for the sake of one word and that word is non other than SEX. It is kinda hard to find such a boyfriend now. Now a days, the definition of boyfriend is no longer someone you love, care and share every single happy or sad moments together but rather the definition of a boyfriend now a days is all about sex and more sex. Dont you guys agree ?
And the final result was, letting me have a lovely Boyfriend like you. I am so lucky. Therefore 25th October 2009 will be the day, where i will forever remember. MUACKS ! I Love You Baby !
Sorry my dear blog readers , i rarely have time to update my blog now .... NS sux and i cant comment on it. But still i will try to update for you guys to read.
LOVE YOU MUMMY AND BABY !!! MUACKS !!
A very special occasion to remember is the day 25th October 2009,
Moon and stars was shining brightly on that lovely night sky,
On that night was when we first met,
Shy and excited when i first saw you when we both met.
I fell in love with you at first sight.
Looking at you quietly and being nervous was inevitable.
Overcoming my nervousness and shyness.
Violating the law of nature was already bad.
Entering into a forbidden relationship was even worst.
Yet i still decide to be with you.
Overcoming my fear and nervousness with only 1 intention.
Ultimately wishing to be with you.
For once i targeted and intended to make things work.
Overcoming all odds.
Remaining calm.
Eager to know more about you.
Venting all my interest and concentration totally on you.
Eagerly gathered my confidence and bravery at that moment.
Related my feeling to you.
Moon and stars was shining brightly on that lovely night sky,
On that night was when we first met,
Shy and excited when i first saw you when we both met.
I fell in love with you at first sight.
Looking at you quietly and being nervous was inevitable.
Overcoming my nervousness and shyness.
Violating the law of nature was already bad.
Entering into a forbidden relationship was even worst.
Yet i still decide to be with you.
Overcoming my fear and nervousness with only 1 intention.
Ultimately wishing to be with you.
For once i targeted and intended to make things work.
Overcoming all odds.
Remaining calm.
Eager to know more about you.
Venting all my interest and concentration totally on you.
Eagerly gathered my confidence and bravery at that moment.
Related my feeling to you.
And the final result was, letting me have a lovely Boyfriend like you. I am so lucky. Therefore 25th October 2009 will be the day, where i will forever remember. MUACKS ! I Love You Baby !
Sorry my dear blog readers , i rarely have time to update my blog now .... NS sux and i cant comment on it. But still i will try to update for you guys to read.
LOVE YOU MUMMY AND BABY !!! MUACKS !!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
4th Day with my Mister Right
Hahaha today is the 4th day we are together and it felt greater than ever. We just cant stop thinking of each other and we are looking forward to meet each other tomorrow hahaha !!!
So nice that i can finally get to settle down with someone as perfect as him. But still we still have alot of work to do to drive our relationship deeper.
Oh well we can say that things now are working fine and we both accepted who we are and what we both are and it is a good starting point for the both of us. Further more a relationship dont just work one way rather more of a 2 way thing and from how things are going now. It is going 2 way without any traffic jams. We both aim to develope this relationship more and be together with each other for as long as we can. Thought it may sound as thought it is impossible. But we believe if we both try hard. It will be the way we wanted.
The date that i will remember will be 25 Oct 09. It is the date we first met after chatting to each other for a long long time and on that day we got together and decided to be together. So BABY that date will be a special day for both of us.
It is a pleasure to have u as my bf and i am really lucky to have someone like u to be with me. Thanx for caring and loving me so much and i promise i will love u back as much. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS ONE.
So nice that i can finally get to settle down with someone as perfect as him. But still we still have alot of work to do to drive our relationship deeper.
Oh well we can say that things now are working fine and we both accepted who we are and what we both are and it is a good starting point for the both of us. Further more a relationship dont just work one way rather more of a 2 way thing and from how things are going now. It is going 2 way without any traffic jams. We both aim to develope this relationship more and be together with each other for as long as we can. Thought it may sound as thought it is impossible. But we believe if we both try hard. It will be the way we wanted.
The date that i will remember will be 25 Oct 09. It is the date we first met after chatting to each other for a long long time and on that day we got together and decided to be together. So BABY that date will be a special day for both of us.
It is a pleasure to have u as my bf and i am really lucky to have someone like u to be with me. Thanx for caring and loving me so much and i promise i will love u back as much. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS ONE.
Thanx for reading my blog.
Wish me luck.
I will try to update my blog as frequent as i can hehe !!!
Love u mummy and my little Hubby ~~
Wish me luck.
I will try to update my blog as frequent as i can hehe !!!
Love u mummy and my little Hubby ~~
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
YAY ~~ MY MR RIGHT HAD APPEAR~~
HEHE SORRY GUYS I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TO UPDATE HERE ~~ BUT I AM REALLY HAPPY THAT MY MR RIGHT HAVE APPEAR ... AND TODAY IS HAS BEEEN 3 DAYS THAT WE ARE TOGETHER HEHEE ~~~ WILL KEEP U GUYS UPDATED ABOUT US HEHE !!! WISH ME GOOD LUCK ~~ LOVE U MY BABY AND MUMMY ~~~
Sunday, October 11, 2009
lifes getting pretty lonely ..
Good day to all my reader ( if there is any), it has been sometime since i have updated my blog. Sorry i cant update it as frequent as i did last time because of my Ns which is taking up alot of my time and also i have been think realyl deeply about things.
Now a days my life is getting really bored. Tried to find someone to settle down but is either not his type or not my type. Otherwise will be just wanna be together just for "sex-sual" pleasure and next moment you will see him going missing. I guess it is like that in the gay circle. To find one that love for who you are and what you are is like searching for a needle in the hay stack.
All i want is someone sweet and really do care for each other and not someone who just wants sex and than disappear. Yes i know everyone need to have sex. But do they need to do it in such extend till they start a relationship just for that ? i dont think so right ? last few times i have dated some people. i told them i am not into just sex, what i want is to find someone who will care for me and who i can care for. One of them after dating me afew times gave up on me. why ? he ask me to have sex with him afew times. but at the end i refused to and end up he just disappear.
the other ? also the same.
I know sex is important and it also shows how much we love one person. But dont u think if everytime we meet and do it. Dont it mean it is like so meaning less?
I agree i would like to have that everytime to express my love. Bu when i think things throught again and again. why sex ? i dont see my mum and dad having sex everyday ? but why us gays ?
All i expect is have a bf, love each other look after each other. Maybe once in a while have sex that is like agreeable . But not like everytime we meet and we have to have sex . sometimes i m really tired about life . really dunno how and why.
Anyway i just really hope to find someone i really love and settle down with. Someone who can make me melt for him and also he melting for me. I dont want a guy who just wanna come and find me have sex chat to me have dinner and next moment going off and i really find it meaningless.
i like a bf who like to travel and who will to come pick me and go out together sometimes. But usually for the start. I will prefer him to travel because i believe if he really love or like you alot he will take the initiative to start.
But from what i can see majority who wanna meet me will fail this round. they will usually say why dont you come over ? And time after time even if i tell them i hate going to town. They will still ask me to go to town ? Funny huh ? i am the type of person who will not anyhow go to peoples place. Usually after we have date for like for a weeks or when we are together for sometime and i feel comfortable. i will go and find him when he ask me to.
Seriously speaking i dont mind to travel. But for the start, i would like him to come over stay at my place a couple oftimes and than i will also go over to stay at his place. But not forgetting that staying at his place may not be a very bright idea.
i know you guys will think why. Let me tell you why. For some of us , our parents may know that we are gay. For my case, my mum do know that i am so it is like less drama around. Secondly if i go stay over and his parents dunno that his son is a gay and suddenly we are hugging and kissing and they enter his room. Imagine the mess i am in and worst he is in. More drama will happen. lets put it this way i am a person who dont mike alot of drama and mess so i would rather my bf to stay at my place occasionally rather than staying over at his occasionally.
Oh well. I dunno. Further more, usually people get the impression that i dont like to go out. Seriously i like to go out. But if you ask me to go out to places i have never gone before i will be really reluctant to go. therefore here comes the part where i prefer him to meet me at places i know a little about and familiar with so that i will not feel uneasy thats all.
Oh well i guess thats all i wanna write about today. Kinda bored .. but cant fall asleep haha.. guess i will just go and game and atch tv. Love you guys and i love you mummy. Muacks !
Now a days my life is getting really bored. Tried to find someone to settle down but is either not his type or not my type. Otherwise will be just wanna be together just for "sex-sual" pleasure and next moment you will see him going missing. I guess it is like that in the gay circle. To find one that love for who you are and what you are is like searching for a needle in the hay stack.
All i want is someone sweet and really do care for each other and not someone who just wants sex and than disappear. Yes i know everyone need to have sex. But do they need to do it in such extend till they start a relationship just for that ? i dont think so right ? last few times i have dated some people. i told them i am not into just sex, what i want is to find someone who will care for me and who i can care for. One of them after dating me afew times gave up on me. why ? he ask me to have sex with him afew times. but at the end i refused to and end up he just disappear.
the other ? also the same.
I know sex is important and it also shows how much we love one person. But dont u think if everytime we meet and do it. Dont it mean it is like so meaning less?
I agree i would like to have that everytime to express my love. Bu when i think things throught again and again. why sex ? i dont see my mum and dad having sex everyday ? but why us gays ?
All i expect is have a bf, love each other look after each other. Maybe once in a while have sex that is like agreeable . But not like everytime we meet and we have to have sex . sometimes i m really tired about life . really dunno how and why.
Anyway i just really hope to find someone i really love and settle down with. Someone who can make me melt for him and also he melting for me. I dont want a guy who just wanna come and find me have sex chat to me have dinner and next moment going off and i really find it meaningless.
i like a bf who like to travel and who will to come pick me and go out together sometimes. But usually for the start. I will prefer him to travel because i believe if he really love or like you alot he will take the initiative to start.
But from what i can see majority who wanna meet me will fail this round. they will usually say why dont you come over ? And time after time even if i tell them i hate going to town. They will still ask me to go to town ? Funny huh ? i am the type of person who will not anyhow go to peoples place. Usually after we have date for like for a weeks or when we are together for sometime and i feel comfortable. i will go and find him when he ask me to.
Seriously speaking i dont mind to travel. But for the start, i would like him to come over stay at my place a couple oftimes and than i will also go over to stay at his place. But not forgetting that staying at his place may not be a very bright idea.
i know you guys will think why. Let me tell you why. For some of us , our parents may know that we are gay. For my case, my mum do know that i am so it is like less drama around. Secondly if i go stay over and his parents dunno that his son is a gay and suddenly we are hugging and kissing and they enter his room. Imagine the mess i am in and worst he is in. More drama will happen. lets put it this way i am a person who dont mike alot of drama and mess so i would rather my bf to stay at my place occasionally rather than staying over at his occasionally.
Oh well. I dunno. Further more, usually people get the impression that i dont like to go out. Seriously i like to go out. But if you ask me to go out to places i have never gone before i will be really reluctant to go. therefore here comes the part where i prefer him to meet me at places i know a little about and familiar with so that i will not feel uneasy thats all.
Oh well i guess thats all i wanna write about today. Kinda bored .. but cant fall asleep haha.. guess i will just go and game and atch tv. Love you guys and i love you mummy. Muacks !
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Saddening day ..
Today was a normal yet quiet day. Reach home late. wanted to go get a keyboard as my old one was kinda spoil. Proceeded to get one .. and who knows i over spent and someone who care for me alot got upset worring that i dont or never save for a rainy day.
this is how my new keyboard looks like >
I apologized to that person and he was upset.. i know i was too much to over spent thought. i felt terrible and i dont wan the same thing to happen again from now on.Therefore from now on i will control the way i spend again and must not repeat my mistake ... i guess i must really reflect on what i did ... guess i have to take what happen yesterday as a lesson learn ... and i am really sorry for what i have done...
But come to think of it, i was unlucky too as all my things are beginning to spoil ... and one shot alot of my things is spoilling at the same time ... hiaz ...
but anyway, this coming 21st is that someone's birthday and i am thinking of getting something for that person, something i can afford thought . i thought of getting for that person a pen which that person will be able to use everyday. What do u think guys ? Pen or other things ? Give me some idea ok ? pls pls pls thanx alot hehehe ~~
Ok now is really late and i have to wake up at 530 AM ... i guess i better be off to bed already ... Nites all ~~~ love u guy and i love u mummy ~~
this is how my new keyboard looks like >
I apologized to that person and he was upset.. i know i was too much to over spent thought. i felt terrible and i dont wan the same thing to happen again from now on.Therefore from now on i will control the way i spend again and must not repeat my mistake ... i guess i must really reflect on what i did ... guess i have to take what happen yesterday as a lesson learn ... and i am really sorry for what i have done... But come to think of it, i was unlucky too as all my things are beginning to spoil ... and one shot alot of my things is spoilling at the same time ... hiaz ...
but anyway, this coming 21st is that someone's birthday and i am thinking of getting something for that person, something i can afford thought . i thought of getting for that person a pen which that person will be able to use everyday. What do u think guys ? Pen or other things ? Give me some idea ok ? pls pls pls thanx alot hehehe ~~
Ok now is really late and i have to wake up at 530 AM ... i guess i better be off to bed already ... Nites all ~~~ love u guy and i love u mummy ~~
Monday, August 24, 2009
Chat box
Harlo all, how have u guys been. Recently i have found this very interesting little thingy and i have decided to put it on my blog. Hehehe, it acts like a msn and many people can chat there together . Cool right.Hope u guys will use it more frequent ~~ ^^ love u guys ~~
Monday, August 10, 2009
wah la ~~~ ps for super long time never update
hello dear readers, sorry i din have time to even update my blog cos of stupid national service now i have barely enough sleep too. But anyway. I just thought of something, and i just really wanna share abit.
U see, all of us sure have been in such a situation before where u like someone but that guy just like another person. u try to show ur feeling towards them and show him care and concern. But they treat u as a irritant.
Seriously, i myself get into such situation before. What i did was to try harder but not push over the limits. But still after trying and trying further and it fails i will just tend to give it all up and stop so call wasting my times on a tree that will not bear any fruits even after hard work.
Today i called myself stupid, for what i have done. I like someone knowing it is impossible. After spending so much effort and time and at the end, the guy i kinda like and curious to know about, decided to meet someone else who he met later than me. And worst he decided to even develop a relationship with. Hahahaha.
I am so silly. But i believe it is time for me to give up. Becos as such things keep repeating itself, i have been thinking about things. Even if i could force the thing to happen what is the use ? I am just leaving a chuck of meat beside me while his heart is with someone else. That was why i decided to leave him alone and never to contact him nor delete him from my msn. I even told him if u wan u can sms me or pm me on msn to chat if u wanna. But u can at the end of the day jolly well know that they will never do that.
Thats is why now a days when i am in such situations. i will usually lets thins go the way it is. and do the same thing again and again if it happens. Becos i always tell meself this :
" To really love a person. it dont mean the person have to be with u. To love a person is to see that the person u love is happy, enjoying with who he is with and also well taken care of. "
thats why, whenever such things happen. i will always tell them tc and good luck. cos it is all what i can do and hope for. Is not becos of anything. But is it becos i really love that person and hope he will be happy thats all.
haha guess it si getting late so i am off to bed. I just hope u guys who read this posting will just comment on whether u agree with it or not ^.^ thanx and good nite
AND ONE MORE THING HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!! Happy 44th Birthday SINGAPORE !!!
U see, all of us sure have been in such a situation before where u like someone but that guy just like another person. u try to show ur feeling towards them and show him care and concern. But they treat u as a irritant.
Seriously, i myself get into such situation before. What i did was to try harder but not push over the limits. But still after trying and trying further and it fails i will just tend to give it all up and stop so call wasting my times on a tree that will not bear any fruits even after hard work.
Today i called myself stupid, for what i have done. I like someone knowing it is impossible. After spending so much effort and time and at the end, the guy i kinda like and curious to know about, decided to meet someone else who he met later than me. And worst he decided to even develop a relationship with. Hahahaha.
I am so silly. But i believe it is time for me to give up. Becos as such things keep repeating itself, i have been thinking about things. Even if i could force the thing to happen what is the use ? I am just leaving a chuck of meat beside me while his heart is with someone else. That was why i decided to leave him alone and never to contact him nor delete him from my msn. I even told him if u wan u can sms me or pm me on msn to chat if u wanna. But u can at the end of the day jolly well know that they will never do that.
Thats is why now a days when i am in such situations. i will usually lets thins go the way it is. and do the same thing again and again if it happens. Becos i always tell meself this :
" To really love a person. it dont mean the person have to be with u. To love a person is to see that the person u love is happy, enjoying with who he is with and also well taken care of. "
thats why, whenever such things happen. i will always tell them tc and good luck. cos it is all what i can do and hope for. Is not becos of anything. But is it becos i really love that person and hope he will be happy thats all.
haha guess it si getting late so i am off to bed. I just hope u guys who read this posting will just comment on whether u agree with it or not ^.^ thanx and good nite
AND ONE MORE THING HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!! Happy 44th Birthday SINGAPORE !!!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
BORED lol !!
Like have been as bored as ever. Time have passed and i have serve 2 months plus of ns ... It sux to a certain extend but i have gave some really nice Boss and upper studies ^^
But since time have passed i notice i have quite a comfortable life and i really like to continue to work with my current bosses and upper studies haha.
Anyway, this monday, LOL i was being send home cos i had a fever of 37.7 lol .. i was send to the medical center and they screen my temperature lol it was 38.2 LOL and i was send home with a 1 week MC haha !!!!!!! funny huh ? but i guess it is to prevent the soread if H1N1 if u have it LOL .. but sad to say i dont have IT hahaha !!! i have fever but no flu so i cant be having it unless u tell me it is possible that i dont have Flu and still can get the SWINE FLU than why is it called as a stupid flu siak !
But anyway i am now trying to count down to my ord LOL which is 1 year and 10 months more LOL still a long way more to go LOL.
Hiaz i am really bored and i dunno what to talk about T^T
anyway yesterday i quarreled with someone regarding the importance of looks. Is it really that important or till a certain extend ? or rather the personalities of one is more important ?
We had a long arguement regarding this matter. But my stand is still, Looks is not the most important thing in this world. Becos no matter how good looking are u but u have a lousy personality no one will still like you. It is as good as a extremely nice vase that can even be use to hold flowers for display. Or rather when u go for a interview, with just ur looks the "boss" will hire u just becos of u looks or ur qualifications and ur experience ?
but oh well i hope u guys who read my blog will comment about it ^^ thanx so pls do leave comments on the shout box ^^ muacks love u guys and i love u mummy !!
But since time have passed i notice i have quite a comfortable life and i really like to continue to work with my current bosses and upper studies haha.
Anyway, this monday, LOL i was being send home cos i had a fever of 37.7 lol .. i was send to the medical center and they screen my temperature lol it was 38.2 LOL and i was send home with a 1 week MC haha !!!!!!! funny huh ? but i guess it is to prevent the soread if H1N1 if u have it LOL .. but sad to say i dont have IT hahaha !!! i have fever but no flu so i cant be having it unless u tell me it is possible that i dont have Flu and still can get the SWINE FLU than why is it called as a stupid flu siak !
But anyway i am now trying to count down to my ord LOL which is 1 year and 10 months more LOL still a long way more to go LOL.
Hiaz i am really bored and i dunno what to talk about T^T
anyway yesterday i quarreled with someone regarding the importance of looks. Is it really that important or till a certain extend ? or rather the personalities of one is more important ?
We had a long arguement regarding this matter. But my stand is still, Looks is not the most important thing in this world. Becos no matter how good looking are u but u have a lousy personality no one will still like you. It is as good as a extremely nice vase that can even be use to hold flowers for display. Or rather when u go for a interview, with just ur looks the "boss" will hire u just becos of u looks or ur qualifications and ur experience ?
but oh well i hope u guys who read my blog will comment about it ^^ thanx so pls do leave comments on the shout box ^^ muacks love u guys and i love u mummy !!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Sad, Unhappiness, Moodless. Tried failed and now doubt ... whats next ? Ill treatment ?
Hiaz, i was actually kinda upset today by what had happen in camp. First, i was ill for a period of time and totally was weak and sick. Thanx to my close friend, when ever i needed him, he will accompany me to the polyclinic to see a doctor and if i am alone and really cant travel i will go to the nearest private clinic to see a doctor. But to my horror, my camp thinks that i am "faking to be ill". I was like omg and so on. But so be it . At the end i really got tired of things and when my last visit to the polyclinic i ask the doctor to prescribe me with Anti Biotics since my flu was like more than 2 weeks and it has cause me unable to sleep. So finally, the following monday i was so so much better though the Flu like symtoms was there i still "forced" myself out of bed and headed to my camp.
Once when i was back in camp i saw my officers and majority of them was kinda nice. I literally felled in loved with my officers and i thought it is ok i will try my best. And try my very best at what ever task i am given. But to my horror. This was what they told me. " From today onwards u are only allowed to report sick at Tuas or Changi otherwise Only Government Structured Hospitals"> Come on man i am staying at bukit Gombak ... the nearest hospital is like 30 mins ride aways from my house ... Isnt that abit too much ? I told myself nvm ... One of my officers is so nice that he now offered to give me a ride to work everyday. I was so happy and all of my officers are nice except for a few, the few is like really few, i was so touched by my few caring officers that even thought this 2 weeks i have force myself to report to work even when i am feeling unwell . But in office i just tried to put on a smile and also acted cheerful as though nothing was happening. I tried my best to tolerate any discomfort, even when there was a few occation when i was feeling very dizzy that i almost fainted i still kept quiet and work with what ever task i was given. I still kept quiet.
But today, i have tolerated more than enough. Even after they give me some very UNREASONABLE guide lines to follow AND i just followed it and kept quiet. The UNREASONABLE guide line was to report sick at only SAF medical center which was located at Tuas or Changi otherwise only Government Stuctured Hospital. Iwas fine with it i give and take. But to my horror, today they said this to me.
" Since u have not been back to the office for a period of time, it is only fair that u be the duty clerk. (i was still fine about it) The task of a duty clerk was to open the office by 8am ,man the office during lunch, draw news papers and open mail box. I was still ok. ( Since i am able to reach the office by 8 am if my officers gave me a ride). but there was a few problems :
1 ) i can never reach the office by 8 am if i were to travel on my own sdince the entire ride from my home to my work place is like more than 2 hours ride.But i told my Chief Clerk that i may not be able to reach the office by 8 if i were to travel by myself by mrt. So i told her if that was the case i can only reach at about 830 am or slightly later she said ok.
2 ) Next was manning the office, Well this part i was ok with it thought since manning of he office was nothing much. All i have to do was to look after the office when my officers was having lunch.So i was still pretty fince with it.
3 ) The other problem i was really quite angry was, when they told me this, they said that i have another option, which was if i was playing PUNK , and i just admit that i was playing PUNK. All those unreasonable guide lines and so call PRIVILEGE will be reinstated and i will have to go though what ever punishment needed. AND I WAS LIKE !@#$%^&* WTH PEOPLE IS LIKE SUFFERING ALL THE WAY AT HOME AND U THINK I AM JUST PLAYING PUNK ?!?!?!??!?
> do u think this was fair to me ?
4 ) the was the last and the final problem that also really pissed me off was that " I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS EXTRA DUTIES TILL ALL THE FURTHER INVESTIGATION IS COMPLETED AND HAVE COME TO A END" meaning ? if the investigation goes on for 1 year i do 1 year extra duties ?
> So at the end they mean is to literally make me suffer, giving my stress which i am already very very stressed and also treatening me to say that if i wanna stop all this UNFAIR TREATMENT I MUST ACTUALLY ADMIT ???? WHEN I DID NOY EVEN LIKE FAKE ?
After all this happened, it was a nice day for me but after lunch, when all this was told to me. My day was totally spoiled, destroyed and ruined. I was totally moody all the way. I controlled my emotion. I almost cired at my upper studies cubicle. But i din i endured all of it till i reached home. I cried for literally 2 hours. I tried my best and this is how i get treated. I EVEN LITERALLY ENDURED WHAT EVER DISCOMFORT JUST TO GO BACK TO CAMP COS I REALLY LOVED MY NEW UNIT.
WHY JUST NORMAL HEALTHY PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND US PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAKER IN OUR HEALTH ? JUST BECOS WE KEEP GETTING SICK THAN U JUST TREAT US AS SOME PUNKSTER OR FAKER ? HOW THEY WAN US TO PROOF TO THEM ? LET THEM INVESTIGATE ? THAN AFTER THAT WHEN WE ARE REALLY SICK I NEED TO TRAVEL BACK TO CHANGI REPORT SICK, BUT SOME HOW DURING HALF WAY OF THE TRIP TO CHANGI I KICKED THE BUCKET ??
I am like OMG all the way u know ? I know it is by law for us Singaporean guys to serve National Service. But we are human also u know ? We are born in Singapore as human being NOT SLAVE and further more i dont think i owe ANYONE ANTHING ONLY THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE TROUBLE TO TEACH CARE AND LOVE ME, ENDURED THE PAIN AND LOSE LOTS OF BLOOD TO BORN ME and that person is no one but my mum. What is there for me to repay to the country ? They are not even helping us in anything. Thye just implement the structures and used our money to start the thing moving thats all. I am fine with NS but come on at least treat us like some HUMAN not dog or animal. But what ever it is. I am just gonna keep cool and keep quiet. BUT I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE CONTINUING ... I JUST REALLY HOPE NOW TO BE WITH MY FATHER ... BUT I ALSO CANT BEAR TO LEAVE MY MOTHER .... I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED .... AND UPSET ... AND THE QUESTION THAT IS STILL LINGRING IN MY HEAD NOW ... IS IT JUST BECOS IT IS A WHAT EVER POLICY AND MAKING IT A COMPULSORY ISSUE AND THEY CAN JUST IMPLY AS AND WHAT THEY LIKE COS THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE ? EVEN WHEN IT IS UNREASONABLE ? FURTHER MORE WITH THE H1N1 THING. IMAGINE IF I AM H1 N1 POSITIVE AND I AM STILL DO NOT KNOW AND I TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TILL I REACH CHANGI THAN I KNOW I AM POSITIVE WITH IT. HOW MANY PERSON AM I GOING TO GET INVOLVED ? THOUSANDS ?
AM I THE ONLY ONE OR ARE THERE PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEM OUT THERE ? BUT BEING SILENCED ??
Once when i was back in camp i saw my officers and majority of them was kinda nice. I literally felled in loved with my officers and i thought it is ok i will try my best. And try my very best at what ever task i am given. But to my horror. This was what they told me. " From today onwards u are only allowed to report sick at Tuas or Changi otherwise Only Government Structured Hospitals"> Come on man i am staying at bukit Gombak ... the nearest hospital is like 30 mins ride aways from my house ... Isnt that abit too much ? I told myself nvm ... One of my officers is so nice that he now offered to give me a ride to work everyday. I was so happy and all of my officers are nice except for a few, the few is like really few, i was so touched by my few caring officers that even thought this 2 weeks i have force myself to report to work even when i am feeling unwell . But in office i just tried to put on a smile and also acted cheerful as though nothing was happening. I tried my best to tolerate any discomfort, even when there was a few occation when i was feeling very dizzy that i almost fainted i still kept quiet and work with what ever task i was given. I still kept quiet.
But today, i have tolerated more than enough. Even after they give me some very UNREASONABLE guide lines to follow AND i just followed it and kept quiet. The UNREASONABLE guide line was to report sick at only SAF medical center which was located at Tuas or Changi otherwise only Government Stuctured Hospital. Iwas fine with it i give and take. But to my horror, today they said this to me.
" Since u have not been back to the office for a period of time, it is only fair that u be the duty clerk. (i was still fine about it) The task of a duty clerk was to open the office by 8am ,man the office during lunch, draw news papers and open mail box. I was still ok. ( Since i am able to reach the office by 8 am if my officers gave me a ride). but there was a few problems :
1 ) i can never reach the office by 8 am if i were to travel on my own sdince the entire ride from my home to my work place is like more than 2 hours ride.But i told my Chief Clerk that i may not be able to reach the office by 8 if i were to travel by myself by mrt. So i told her if that was the case i can only reach at about 830 am or slightly later she said ok.
2 ) Next was manning the office, Well this part i was ok with it thought since manning of he office was nothing much. All i have to do was to look after the office when my officers was having lunch.So i was still pretty fince with it.
3 ) The other problem i was really quite angry was, when they told me this, they said that i have another option, which was if i was playing PUNK , and i just admit that i was playing PUNK. All those unreasonable guide lines and so call PRIVILEGE will be reinstated and i will have to go though what ever punishment needed. AND I WAS LIKE !@#$%^&* WTH PEOPLE IS LIKE SUFFERING ALL THE WAY AT HOME AND U THINK I AM JUST PLAYING PUNK ?!?!?!??!?
> do u think this was fair to me ?
4 ) the was the last and the final problem that also really pissed me off was that " I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS EXTRA DUTIES TILL ALL THE FURTHER INVESTIGATION IS COMPLETED AND HAVE COME TO A END" meaning ? if the investigation goes on for 1 year i do 1 year extra duties ?
> So at the end they mean is to literally make me suffer, giving my stress which i am already very very stressed and also treatening me to say that if i wanna stop all this UNFAIR TREATMENT I MUST ACTUALLY ADMIT ???? WHEN I DID NOY EVEN LIKE FAKE ?
After all this happened, it was a nice day for me but after lunch, when all this was told to me. My day was totally spoiled, destroyed and ruined. I was totally moody all the way. I controlled my emotion. I almost cired at my upper studies cubicle. But i din i endured all of it till i reached home. I cried for literally 2 hours. I tried my best and this is how i get treated. I EVEN LITERALLY ENDURED WHAT EVER DISCOMFORT JUST TO GO BACK TO CAMP COS I REALLY LOVED MY NEW UNIT.
WHY JUST NORMAL HEALTHY PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND US PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAKER IN OUR HEALTH ? JUST BECOS WE KEEP GETTING SICK THAN U JUST TREAT US AS SOME PUNKSTER OR FAKER ? HOW THEY WAN US TO PROOF TO THEM ? LET THEM INVESTIGATE ? THAN AFTER THAT WHEN WE ARE REALLY SICK I NEED TO TRAVEL BACK TO CHANGI REPORT SICK, BUT SOME HOW DURING HALF WAY OF THE TRIP TO CHANGI I KICKED THE BUCKET ??
I am like OMG all the way u know ? I know it is by law for us Singaporean guys to serve National Service. But we are human also u know ? We are born in Singapore as human being NOT SLAVE and further more i dont think i owe ANYONE ANTHING ONLY THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE TROUBLE TO TEACH CARE AND LOVE ME, ENDURED THE PAIN AND LOSE LOTS OF BLOOD TO BORN ME and that person is no one but my mum. What is there for me to repay to the country ? They are not even helping us in anything. Thye just implement the structures and used our money to start the thing moving thats all. I am fine with NS but come on at least treat us like some HUMAN not dog or animal. But what ever it is. I am just gonna keep cool and keep quiet. BUT I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE CONTINUING ... I JUST REALLY HOPE NOW TO BE WITH MY FATHER ... BUT I ALSO CANT BEAR TO LEAVE MY MOTHER .... I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED .... AND UPSET ... AND THE QUESTION THAT IS STILL LINGRING IN MY HEAD NOW ... IS IT JUST BECOS IT IS A WHAT EVER POLICY AND MAKING IT A COMPULSORY ISSUE AND THEY CAN JUST IMPLY AS AND WHAT THEY LIKE COS THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE ? EVEN WHEN IT IS UNREASONABLE ? FURTHER MORE WITH THE H1N1 THING. IMAGINE IF I AM H1 N1 POSITIVE AND I AM STILL DO NOT KNOW AND I TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TILL I REACH CHANGI THAN I KNOW I AM POSITIVE WITH IT. HOW MANY PERSON AM I GOING TO GET INVOLVED ? THOUSANDS ?
AM I THE ONLY ONE OR ARE THERE PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEM OUT THERE ? BUT BEING SILENCED ??
Sunday, June 21, 2009
SOme fuckers whom i treat him as a friend but treat me as a mere tool !
Sorry to those who read my blog but today i have reach my bloody limit. I am really pissed off with this guy whom i really treat him as a friend. YES WE ARE GAYS BUT WE ARE NOT BLOODY BITCHES. I tried to meet him out for lunch and he is like asking me to go to places he wanted. Nvm. I mean come on u call me to go to the place u wanted but also must see if i wanna go to the place or not right ? Nvm. Once he was working in clementi, he stays in woodlands and i mean come on we said lets meet for dinner. And u know what he say ?" Hmm lets go woodlands eat." I was like erm. Since u are passing by my area might as well we settle it at my area. Instead of me going to travel and waste my fair righT ? Since it is only dinner why make me travel so far ? and the place he choose so conviently is around his area. Come lor.
Nvm, today i was seeking for some people to chat on sgboy chat room. so some how, i saw he(not knowing it was him) wanna chat so i mean hey come on maybe lets hook up and chat right. So the conversation started as a decent one. as usual we ask each other age, height, weight and race. And hey kinda can click since same age group right ? so i ask hey whats ur msn. So he started to give me his msn. After copying and attempt to add him on my msn, i found out he is already on my msn and he was someone who i wanted to meet in the past but he kinda like those "ai mai ai mai" and give alot of stun those type. All along he is like on the edge of my good list and almost into the black list.
Last week or so, he was kinda feeling down so i thought hey lets chat to him and we chatted for a while. After that i thought just as friend i thought u wanna meet for breakfast since it was like 6 am in the morning. He said nah he wanna sleep cos he was tired. So i was fine with it. So i thought nvm there will be a next time. But in my mind i know this fellow there will not be a next time. So nvm.
But today he is like over board. After i told him who i was and so on i said hey lets chat on msn. U pm me and we chat there . He like din even bother to reply. So i waited and waited and finally i aid nvm. i pm him since he may be busy. But come on, what is more bastard than him. I pm him on msn he is flooding on the sgboy chat room. Nvm i pm him on sgboy chat room and he like din even reply and yet he can spam ! i was like omg. Trying to like find out what happen what i did wrong and so on he dont wanna even reply. And after so long i blew my top u know what he reply me ? this is what he said.
"no la why u say like that ?"
"i din see my msn"
"i am spamming here" ( on sgboy which i also kept asking if he was there )
to tell u the truth he was there ! and yet he ignored me. OMG i ask u guys out there. Is he like treating me as a friends or a tool ? when in need of someone to tlak to he will contat me and when no he will startt to ignore me ? FUCKER RIGHT ??
LET ME TELL U THIS U BLOODY SON OF THE GUN TEO L~F~~ ! I HAVE BEEN TREATING U LIKE A REAL FRIENDS AND WAS REALLY WORRIED ABOUT U AND NOW U WANNA BE LIKE THAT FINE ! GO TO HELL ! IT SHOWS ALOT ABOUT U ! ALL UR BLOODY RELATIONSHIP DIN WORK OUT IS NOT BECAUSE OF UR EX-BOYFRIENDS IS BECAUSE OF UR BLOODY CHARACTER ! GET IT ! GO AND BANG THE BLOODY WALL AND SUCK UR OWN BLOODY DICK ! AND DUMP UR BLOODY BRAIN AWAY !
Sorry to my reader out there that i am so violent here cos i am like really pissed off. I never like to have friends who do that to others. So sorrym, am off to bed ~~~ nite nite all love u guys.
Nvm, today i was seeking for some people to chat on sgboy chat room. so some how, i saw he(not knowing it was him) wanna chat so i mean hey come on maybe lets hook up and chat right. So the conversation started as a decent one. as usual we ask each other age, height, weight and race. And hey kinda can click since same age group right ? so i ask hey whats ur msn. So he started to give me his msn. After copying and attempt to add him on my msn, i found out he is already on my msn and he was someone who i wanted to meet in the past but he kinda like those "ai mai ai mai" and give alot of stun those type. All along he is like on the edge of my good list and almost into the black list.
Last week or so, he was kinda feeling down so i thought hey lets chat to him and we chatted for a while. After that i thought just as friend i thought u wanna meet for breakfast since it was like 6 am in the morning. He said nah he wanna sleep cos he was tired. So i was fine with it. So i thought nvm there will be a next time. But in my mind i know this fellow there will not be a next time. So nvm.
But today he is like over board. After i told him who i was and so on i said hey lets chat on msn. U pm me and we chat there . He like din even bother to reply. So i waited and waited and finally i aid nvm. i pm him since he may be busy. But come on, what is more bastard than him. I pm him on msn he is flooding on the sgboy chat room. Nvm i pm him on sgboy chat room and he like din even reply and yet he can spam ! i was like omg. Trying to like find out what happen what i did wrong and so on he dont wanna even reply. And after so long i blew my top u know what he reply me ? this is what he said.
"no la why u say like that ?"
"i din see my msn"
"i am spamming here" ( on sgboy which i also kept asking if he was there )
to tell u the truth he was there ! and yet he ignored me. OMG i ask u guys out there. Is he like treating me as a friends or a tool ? when in need of someone to tlak to he will contat me and when no he will startt to ignore me ? FUCKER RIGHT ??
LET ME TELL U THIS U BLOODY SON OF THE GUN TEO L~F~~ ! I HAVE BEEN TREATING U LIKE A REAL FRIENDS AND WAS REALLY WORRIED ABOUT U AND NOW U WANNA BE LIKE THAT FINE ! GO TO HELL ! IT SHOWS ALOT ABOUT U ! ALL UR BLOODY RELATIONSHIP DIN WORK OUT IS NOT BECAUSE OF UR EX-BOYFRIENDS IS BECAUSE OF UR BLOODY CHARACTER ! GET IT ! GO AND BANG THE BLOODY WALL AND SUCK UR OWN BLOODY DICK ! AND DUMP UR BLOODY BRAIN AWAY !
Sorry to my reader out there that i am so violent here cos i am like really pissed off. I never like to have friends who do that to others. So sorrym, am off to bed ~~~ nite nite all love u guys.
Friday, June 12, 2009
woots stuck at a friends plac and could do nothing
Today was a normal day ad yet it had a funny night ~ haha
This was what happen. Was hungry so i thought maybe i should go supper with my friend since he ask me to go with him. He was nice and he came and pick me up and he drove me to eat at west coast. The nasi lemak stall there which belong to my friend. o only we ate there but i also met my friend. Hahaha wow iwas surprised that after so long he is still the same as ever. Hahaha LAO HERO. But anyway after the supper we had a short chat. And he suggested that maybe we shold go to his place. Thinking that maybe i should just pay a visit since he ask me to so i said ok and i ask him but later are going to send me home right, he siad ya he will but 5 plus. So i was cool about it. Bt who knows after reachi his place we watch 2 episode of 24 lol ! He was tired and he said he wanna sleep. I was like lol ...... and looking at his mac book i was lost lol, but lucky i had use before so i was not so noobie towards it. But at first he told me to come lie and close my eyes to rest. But the problem is that i am suffering from insomia and i cant sleep. LOL . He kept asking me to lie down close my eyes to rest but the problem i cant cos i dont feel like sleeping or i should say i cant sleep lol. But at the end he was really nice and knew that i cant sleep and allowed me to use his mac book. I was kinda got touched by him as he was nice enought to lend me his mac book. Hahaha guess i gave him a hard time and yet he accomdated me. So sweet of him. Hehehe but i could i see he had never allowed anyone to use his com before. But ayway sometimes it s really nice to have friends like that and also care so much for one and other ^.^
Hahahah but oh well today this posting was posted sing a back boook ^.^ hehehe kindafun thought but i guess alot of mistake so pls bear with it ^.^ Hahahaha but dunno why for some reason the msn keep disconnecting LOL !!!!Bt who care is better than i have nothing to do right ? Oh well good night all hehehe i am now waiting for thi nice guy to wake up at 5 am and send me home hehehe ^.^ So good night and take care everyone, and one more thing the flu thing is on so u guys better take care out there ^.^
This was what happen. Was hungry so i thought maybe i should go supper with my friend since he ask me to go with him. He was nice and he came and pick me up and he drove me to eat at west coast. The nasi lemak stall there which belong to my friend. o only we ate there but i also met my friend. Hahaha wow iwas surprised that after so long he is still the same as ever. Hahaha LAO HERO. But anyway after the supper we had a short chat. And he suggested that maybe we shold go to his place. Thinking that maybe i should just pay a visit since he ask me to so i said ok and i ask him but later are going to send me home right, he siad ya he will but 5 plus. So i was cool about it. Bt who knows after reachi his place we watch 2 episode of 24 lol ! He was tired and he said he wanna sleep. I was like lol ...... and looking at his mac book i was lost lol, but lucky i had use before so i was not so noobie towards it. But at first he told me to come lie and close my eyes to rest. But the problem is that i am suffering from insomia and i cant sleep. LOL . He kept asking me to lie down close my eyes to rest but the problem i cant cos i dont feel like sleeping or i should say i cant sleep lol. But at the end he was really nice and knew that i cant sleep and allowed me to use his mac book. I was kinda got touched by him as he was nice enought to lend me his mac book. Hahaha guess i gave him a hard time and yet he accomdated me. So sweet of him. Hehehe but i could i see he had never allowed anyone to use his com before. But ayway sometimes it s really nice to have friends like that and also care so much for one and other ^.^
Hahahah but oh well today this posting was posted sing a back boook ^.^ hehehe kindafun thought but i guess alot of mistake so pls bear with it ^.^ Hahahaha but dunno why for some reason the msn keep disconnecting LOL !!!!Bt who care is better than i have nothing to do right ? Oh well good night all hehehe i am now waiting for thi nice guy to wake up at 5 am and send me home hehehe ^.^ So good night and take care everyone, and one more thing the flu thing is on so u guys better take care out there ^.^
Saturday, June 6, 2009
sweetsness for life ends but bitterness is always never ending
Today i am actually kinda moody, it seems like bad thing do come one after another, one of it is ns , than my health got worst. when i thought my life started to spice up alittle cos i found my love one, it started to crumble right before my very eye. Guess destiny for my love life with the guy i like have never been able to substain for long.
Let me share with u my little story that happen to me twice.
I met this guy on a certain chat room, we became friends and met. When we met, we felt that we can be together and slowly we developed it into a relationship, but soon, he was ask to go to malaysia cos his sister found out about him being a gay but not knowing about us being together, and started to brain wash him , though he is a malay mix chinese but he dont abit seems to be a malay to me. In my eye he was an ideal boyfriend to me, sweet , loving and caring. Thought he is in malaysia, he attemp to sms and even tried to call me everyday. It was very expensive but he din mind and he continued to contact me. Finally, he tried to fixed his internet and it succeedm And soon when ever he is free and when his sister is not home he will logo n his msn and try to chat to me and we will like chat and laught at all silly things that he and me can think off. Otherwise i will come up with stuns to make him stun for a moment and after that he will laugh.
Sad to say, soon his sister found out about us being together. His sister told his parents about it. Now, everything seems to be a mess for him in his life. While for me, i am all but just waiting and waiting. Hoping that it was just a mere dream that would be gone when i open my eye. But sad to say it is not a dream but it is reality. Now i guess his parent are already getting on him and already starting to ban him even to step out of his house and also cutting off all forms of contact for him till he get enlisted to ns. Hahaha, guess it is the way it is suppose to be for me in life. Hahaha last time my ex and now my latest date. Hahaha sometimes in life certain jokes are really painful. Lost of a love one, get looked down by people, get bullied, worry about my own health and now time and time again failure to a fruitful relationship. Maybe it is fated for me that nothing is sweet. Even when i was young i have a sad, lonely and bitter childhood. And now when i am already in my twenties it is still the same. I cant really imagine what will happen in the years to come. Hope everything will be fine.
So i guess like what he suggested, maybe it is time to let go and continue with each of our life. But to me i still stick to my moto :
" What we are is who we are, Who we are is what we are. Be it u try to be another person or not. We are born to be like this and this is fate. Destiny has already been arrange for us therefore we cant do anything but to be the follower of the path that have been paved for us"
To the person who i maybe talking about. Take care of urself, thought we may be together for just a short period of time. I guess it is like what u say, time to let things off the dangling string and continue with our life. But when things settle down i hope u will still contact me and still be friends. And for the last time . Take Care and Farewell ^.^ Though i maybe a normal person and not a person of wisdom and knowledge but i hope u guys who are reading this posting will understand to those out there who have the same situation as me and also help them ^.^ So i guess it is all for now ^.^ Bye Bye
Let me share with u my little story that happen to me twice.
I met this guy on a certain chat room, we became friends and met. When we met, we felt that we can be together and slowly we developed it into a relationship, but soon, he was ask to go to malaysia cos his sister found out about him being a gay but not knowing about us being together, and started to brain wash him , though he is a malay mix chinese but he dont abit seems to be a malay to me. In my eye he was an ideal boyfriend to me, sweet , loving and caring. Thought he is in malaysia, he attemp to sms and even tried to call me everyday. It was very expensive but he din mind and he continued to contact me. Finally, he tried to fixed his internet and it succeedm And soon when ever he is free and when his sister is not home he will logo n his msn and try to chat to me and we will like chat and laught at all silly things that he and me can think off. Otherwise i will come up with stuns to make him stun for a moment and after that he will laugh.
Sad to say, soon his sister found out about us being together. His sister told his parents about it. Now, everything seems to be a mess for him in his life. While for me, i am all but just waiting and waiting. Hoping that it was just a mere dream that would be gone when i open my eye. But sad to say it is not a dream but it is reality. Now i guess his parent are already getting on him and already starting to ban him even to step out of his house and also cutting off all forms of contact for him till he get enlisted to ns. Hahaha, guess it is the way it is suppose to be for me in life. Hahaha last time my ex and now my latest date. Hahaha sometimes in life certain jokes are really painful. Lost of a love one, get looked down by people, get bullied, worry about my own health and now time and time again failure to a fruitful relationship. Maybe it is fated for me that nothing is sweet. Even when i was young i have a sad, lonely and bitter childhood. And now when i am already in my twenties it is still the same. I cant really imagine what will happen in the years to come. Hope everything will be fine.
So i guess like what he suggested, maybe it is time to let go and continue with each of our life. But to me i still stick to my moto :
" What we are is who we are, Who we are is what we are. Be it u try to be another person or not. We are born to be like this and this is fate. Destiny has already been arrange for us therefore we cant do anything but to be the follower of the path that have been paved for us"
To the person who i maybe talking about. Take care of urself, thought we may be together for just a short period of time. I guess it is like what u say, time to let things off the dangling string and continue with our life. But when things settle down i hope u will still contact me and still be friends. And for the last time . Take Care and Farewell ^.^ Though i maybe a normal person and not a person of wisdom and knowledge but i hope u guys who are reading this posting will understand to those out there who have the same situation as me and also help them ^.^ So i guess it is all for now ^.^ Bye Bye
Monday, May 25, 2009
alliance ? hostile ? peace ? war ? which is the best out of this 4 ?
Someone use to tell me this that everyone's life is like a piece of plain paper where u will have to draw and colour it. i do agree with it, but some how , not always the piece of plain paper can be beautifully coloured as some colours cant be match with each other. Same thing are applied when it comes to friendship too. There are some who are just really out to make friends, some is out to prey on others, some are out to be jealous of others because of who they are and what they are, some literally is out to just create chaos and of cos some is just out to be a puppet master who trys to make people into their puppet.
Some how, now adays i notice, when friends always get really close, alot of us will think that we know alot about them, but seriously, i dont think so. but the best part is, some of them u do really know them inside out and yet they still try to deny the fact and try to make themself a very mysterious person, trying to change themself or should i say reform themself into someone else so as to let people never know about their true personality. Some are just literally stubborn, so what can we do, just suck thumb and see how that silly person continue to be a full fledge fool.
There are times where i always have a thought in my mind such as "why do i have friends who are like that ?" and i do question myself further,
1) heavens will ?
2) Just my bloody luck ?
3) testing my patience ?
4) or just a puddle of water which have to pass by ?
i keep asking and asking myself, and today i kinda found out the answer by myself, like i always say in this world there are different kinda people, thats why this world is form. There are always people who go against each other and there are some where they can never be friends ? and in some cases there are some where they do become friends and slowly conflicts starts to happen.
Showing them concern and care is just like a waste of time after the person keep trying to make u agitated and unhappy, but i just let him continue his nonsense, sad to say, the tolerance for such attitude is wearing off, and the best part was he told me to search my soul and think of my attitude and he just cut off the phone, but lets put it this way who should be the one ? that person should know where his stands are as compared to mine. He maybe a bussiness man but in my eyes he is just a over grown person with no realistic attitude. A attitude which minority maybe able to endure but not to the majority. One who dont face reality, running away from reality , grabbing to what he wants but never accept what people see or say, even when we tell him that it is not just piece of rock is piece but it is a piece of unrefine jade. he will still stand on his points and say it is just a piece of rock.
Thats why now a days, i cant really be bothered with him, and feel like i should slowly fade aways and not contact him any further, talking to him without the slightest interest was a volunteering action without even me noticing. Now a days when we speak even the smallest issue we can get into a arguement, so to me whats the use of maintaining a friendship which is already a plate of rotten food. i strive not to give and try to maintain the friendship but my effort is not very effective, and worst he say that i always wanna win and never think of him. but did he do the same thing which he said ? but giving him the benefit of doubt i still take it as thought he was joking but still it is abit too much.
But looking at how things goes naturally for a rabbit and chicken , a rabbit can never be friend with a chicken, as the character of the both clashes. it is just like the water and the fire, where one will try to over rule the other and will never be good friends. one is the element of starting a life while the other is the element which leads to destruction.and without fail one will try to rule against the other naturally.
After thinking again and again over this issue and what have happen in the past few days, even after he and me have been friend for 1 year plus or even more, i believe and thinks that it is time. I guess since he dont wanna face the fact that our friendship is not working very well, and now a days we are starting to get distances as "brothers" i guess it is time. it is not a issue of who is the one who is in the wrong and who is in the right cos each of us have our point of view of the situation. when there is a argument each of use tend to be more unreasonable furthermore now a days the situation got worst. so thats is why i said it is just that our character dont match and cant be friends. since now a days u like to agitate me and want to make thing slimy for us. go ahead. my heart is already dead. as i have told u before, i am not a nice person , i am a guy with a dead heart who can just give and take and forget about everything just like that. and even when u are begging me on ur knees, i will not turn back on my decision and will still stick to my decision. i am a very cold hearted person cos i was trained to be like this since young. So dont say i take for granted for whatever things i have in life. But u should be the one who should not take advantage of the things in life. the quality of life u have as compared to mine u should know who is the more fortunate one. so dont say that i am the one taking things for granted.
So on this memorable date 26th May 2009 with this posting on my blog, i have decided that i think we should not waste anymore time, u take ur path in life and i will take mine, wish u all the best with ur soon to be boyfriend. Enjoy urself and dont get hurt, think twice as hard when u do something. It is time where we should part and never contact each other anymore. Becos i feel that it is better for us to lead our own life and dont make things so complicated anymore. Dont bother to contact me anymore, i feel there is no reason to keep in contact. so good byw my good friend. i wish u happiness and health.
Some how, now adays i notice, when friends always get really close, alot of us will think that we know alot about them, but seriously, i dont think so. but the best part is, some of them u do really know them inside out and yet they still try to deny the fact and try to make themself a very mysterious person, trying to change themself or should i say reform themself into someone else so as to let people never know about their true personality. Some are just literally stubborn, so what can we do, just suck thumb and see how that silly person continue to be a full fledge fool.
There are times where i always have a thought in my mind such as "why do i have friends who are like that ?" and i do question myself further,
1) heavens will ?
2) Just my bloody luck ?
3) testing my patience ?
4) or just a puddle of water which have to pass by ?
i keep asking and asking myself, and today i kinda found out the answer by myself, like i always say in this world there are different kinda people, thats why this world is form. There are always people who go against each other and there are some where they can never be friends ? and in some cases there are some where they do become friends and slowly conflicts starts to happen.
Showing them concern and care is just like a waste of time after the person keep trying to make u agitated and unhappy, but i just let him continue his nonsense, sad to say, the tolerance for such attitude is wearing off, and the best part was he told me to search my soul and think of my attitude and he just cut off the phone, but lets put it this way who should be the one ? that person should know where his stands are as compared to mine. He maybe a bussiness man but in my eyes he is just a over grown person with no realistic attitude. A attitude which minority maybe able to endure but not to the majority. One who dont face reality, running away from reality , grabbing to what he wants but never accept what people see or say, even when we tell him that it is not just piece of rock is piece but it is a piece of unrefine jade. he will still stand on his points and say it is just a piece of rock.
Thats why now a days, i cant really be bothered with him, and feel like i should slowly fade aways and not contact him any further, talking to him without the slightest interest was a volunteering action without even me noticing. Now a days when we speak even the smallest issue we can get into a arguement, so to me whats the use of maintaining a friendship which is already a plate of rotten food. i strive not to give and try to maintain the friendship but my effort is not very effective, and worst he say that i always wanna win and never think of him. but did he do the same thing which he said ? but giving him the benefit of doubt i still take it as thought he was joking but still it is abit too much.
But looking at how things goes naturally for a rabbit and chicken , a rabbit can never be friend with a chicken, as the character of the both clashes. it is just like the water and the fire, where one will try to over rule the other and will never be good friends. one is the element of starting a life while the other is the element which leads to destruction.and without fail one will try to rule against the other naturally.
After thinking again and again over this issue and what have happen in the past few days, even after he and me have been friend for 1 year plus or even more, i believe and thinks that it is time. I guess since he dont wanna face the fact that our friendship is not working very well, and now a days we are starting to get distances as "brothers" i guess it is time. it is not a issue of who is the one who is in the wrong and who is in the right cos each of us have our point of view of the situation. when there is a argument each of use tend to be more unreasonable furthermore now a days the situation got worst. so thats is why i said it is just that our character dont match and cant be friends. since now a days u like to agitate me and want to make thing slimy for us. go ahead. my heart is already dead. as i have told u before, i am not a nice person , i am a guy with a dead heart who can just give and take and forget about everything just like that. and even when u are begging me on ur knees, i will not turn back on my decision and will still stick to my decision. i am a very cold hearted person cos i was trained to be like this since young. So dont say i take for granted for whatever things i have in life. But u should be the one who should not take advantage of the things in life. the quality of life u have as compared to mine u should know who is the more fortunate one. so dont say that i am the one taking things for granted.
So on this memorable date 26th May 2009 with this posting on my blog, i have decided that i think we should not waste anymore time, u take ur path in life and i will take mine, wish u all the best with ur soon to be boyfriend. Enjoy urself and dont get hurt, think twice as hard when u do something. It is time where we should part and never contact each other anymore. Becos i feel that it is better for us to lead our own life and dont make things so complicated anymore. Dont bother to contact me anymore, i feel there is no reason to keep in contact. so good byw my good friend. i wish u happiness and health.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
OMG POSTING ORDER OUT AND IT SUX ~
today is a shocking day for me as today my new camp called me to go and report in tomorrow, but to my horror, they said that my new camp is no different from where i am .... it is stilll located still at changi area, and guess where am i staying ? batok area .., imagine my job is 8 to 5 and every day i have to travel like nobodies bussiness .. u just imagine my goodness. even my platooon commander said it was abit too much. but anyway, it is ok bah since my Platoon commander is trying to change for me my posting, and lucky me i still have 12 more days of mc to allow my asthma to get better.
So i hope by the end of the 12 day, i will get my new posting and it will be like NEAR to my home and now one end to the other end of singapore again. i find it rather stupid that they did such stunning thing, for example my friend who stays at pasir ris, they gave him a posting at Gombak camp which is like so near to me and for me i am given changi one of thecamp there, why cant they just give me the gombak camp and than that guy the changi area camp right ?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, 2 weeks of enlistment only and i am staying to turn mah .... OMG pls some one help me before i go mad again ~~~ and pls IMG pls pls pls leave me a nice room with the city view, * wonder will i still know whats is outside when i am already mad*. but anyway today when i left my old camp i said good byes to my sgt and platoon commander, if i go back i sure wanna et my platoon sgt number hahaha
Oh well it is getting really late, so i guess i will head to bed and rest tooo tired and my eye are shutting itself , so good night all and love u guys . MUmmy i love u the most~~~ muacks ~~~ love u mummy and a happy mothers day ~
So i hope by the end of the 12 day, i will get my new posting and it will be like NEAR to my home and now one end to the other end of singapore again. i find it rather stupid that they did such stunning thing, for example my friend who stays at pasir ris, they gave him a posting at Gombak camp which is like so near to me and for me i am given changi one of thecamp there, why cant they just give me the gombak camp and than that guy the changi area camp right ?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, 2 weeks of enlistment only and i am staying to turn mah .... OMG pls some one help me before i go mad again ~~~ and pls IMG pls pls pls leave me a nice room with the city view, * wonder will i still know whats is outside when i am already mad*. but anyway today when i left my old camp i said good byes to my sgt and platoon commander, if i go back i sure wanna et my platoon sgt number hahaha
Oh well it is getting really late, so i guess i will head to bed and rest tooo tired and my eye are shutting itself , so good night all and love u guys . MUmmy i love u the most~~~ muacks ~~~ love u mummy and a happy mothers day ~
Saturday, May 9, 2009
PINK DOT EVENT
THOUGH THERE IS NOTHING MUCH I CAN DO, THEREFORE I WILL ONLY HELP TO SPREAD ABOUT THE PINK DOT EVENT WHICH IS GOING TO HAPPEN SOON~ FOR PEOPLE OUT THERE BE IT YOU ARE STAIGHT , GAY , LESBIAN OR BI SEXUAL , PLS SUPPORT , THIS EVENT I NOT A PROTEST NOR A PARADE IT IS JUST A SIMPLE CALL OUT TO OPEN MINDED SINGAPOREANS OUT THERE, TO TELL PEOPLE LIKE US THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN THE SOCIETY WHO ACCEPT US FOR WHO WE ARE AND WHAT WE ARE ...SO PLEASE DO GO THERE AND SUPPORT ~~
Venue: The field at Hong Lim Park
Date & Time: May 16 (Sat), 4.30pm
What to wear: Pink (caps, hats, glasses, sunglasses and accessories are recommended)
SORRY GUYS THATS ALL I COULD DO ~~~ JY
Venue: The field at Hong Lim Park
Date & Time: May 16 (Sat), 4.30pm
What to wear: Pink (caps, hats, glasses, sunglasses and accessories are recommended)
SORRY GUYS THATS ALL I COULD DO ~~~ JY
ahhhhhhhh almost ot admitted to IMH~~~
Omg... people told me going ns is going to be physically stressed up and also total lost of freedom .... i agree with the lost of freedom part but omg the physiclly stressed up part is kinda true but the worst is the part where we get metally tortured ~~~~ omg ~~~~~ go in on the24 april (friday ) than on the 27 April (monday ) after medical review knna oot .... once the oot thing started ii was the start of mental stress .... omg completely doing nothing ... sit there .... initially we wereallowed to read new papers and soon after "someone" said wha u trerat here as a holiday resort is it and soon we were like statue and staring at each other doing nohing ..... i am like so sick .... and further more the weather thre was causing my asthma to get from bad to worst ..... anyway when i say the mo he said i needed to get a appointment to see the asthma doctor and lucky i went to see and i found out that it was kinda serious ...
hiaz well going to ns has it pros and con ....... the pros are as followed ~~~
Pros :
1 ) see all kinds of people
2 ) have alot of free stuff
3 ) free food
4 ) lots of free things
5 ) cheap hair cut
6 ) make new friends
7 ) learn that going into tekong is a stressful things for straight guys but a "paradise" for us LoL
8 ) nice scenes~~~~
( hahhaa my bunk is like a resort to me cos i can see air planes landing and taking off from my bed )
the cos are as followed ~~~
Cons :
1 ) waste alot of time
2 ) kenna treated like not a human
3 ) hear alot of vulgarities
4 ) no freedoms
5 ) always get confused by who to listen to ...
6 ) alot of idiots who like to spoil markets and keep trying to chao keng ...
7 ) lose contact with main land
8 ) book out only reach main land will totally bcome mountain tortise
Lol anyway, when we were in there we were told that we are not allowed to say anything negative or blog anything negative about SAF so i guess what i siad is not considered as negative and it will not spoil SAF name i guess ( as the reputation of SAF out there is kinda bad liao ). Any way when i was in there for 1 week , i notice i have very nice superiors and there were alot of nice people around ^.^ lucky me ~~~ anyway ns is kinda fun in some way and also bad in some ways , but who cares, my moto is to remember the happiness and forget the unhappiness, but for me when i go in i suffered alot cos the effort i spent to control for my asthma have totally gone down to the drain due to the weather there, i spent 2 years controlling it and at the end of the day it got worst after i got enlisted for 3 days, so i guess i have to start from scratch again ....
anyway iwas really shock when i attended my appointment on the 4th of may at a government hospital, i collected my medicines for 2 month and it cost me SGD 600 plus ~~~~ omg lucky i was on the plan by the goverment where my medicine was all on 50 % off the original cost and on top of that it is paid by my "BOSS" via the universal credit card (11 b ) lol ! anyway,when i was in tekong, i as lucky to have the best OC , PC , storeman m clerk and DIs~~~ hahaha from what i list you should know the whole company dont really like who huh hahaha ~~~~~ but anyway, i wish all my buddies and all my company line people all the best an jia you in all what u guys do and have a grand POC haha guys jy ~~~ as for me i guess i will be down pes ~~~ and than i will not be going back for recourse i hope cos of my medical lol !!!!!!!!!! but the thing that i will never forget in tekong will be my company line , my PCs ~~ OC ~~ DIs ~~ OOTS buddies ~~ storeman ~~ clerk ~~ company buddies ~~ and of cos my bunk mates hahaha ~~~
Anyway , i will miss all my buddies and my company line people ~~~ i wish everyone in my company line ~~~ good luck ~~~ all thebest ~~~ may the goddess of war Athena , a greek goddess well known for her strong character and wisdom, be with u so u can conquer every hardship u face with wisdom and confidence. but of cos when the goddness of war is there her best companion the goddessof victory , nike will be there too ... so my buddies jy ~~~ !
hiaz well going to ns has it pros and con ....... the pros are as followed ~~~
Pros :
1 ) see all kinds of people
2 ) have alot of free stuff
3 ) free food
4 ) lots of free things
5 ) cheap hair cut
6 ) make new friends
7 ) learn that going into tekong is a stressful things for straight guys but a "paradise" for us LoL
8 ) nice scenes~~~~
( hahhaa my bunk is like a resort to me cos i can see air planes landing and taking off from my bed )
the cos are as followed ~~~
Cons :
1 ) waste alot of time
2 ) kenna treated like not a human
3 ) hear alot of vulgarities
4 ) no freedoms
5 ) always get confused by who to listen to ...
6 ) alot of idiots who like to spoil markets and keep trying to chao keng ...
7 ) lose contact with main land
8 ) book out only reach main land will totally bcome mountain tortise
Lol anyway, when we were in there we were told that we are not allowed to say anything negative or blog anything negative about SAF so i guess what i siad is not considered as negative and it will not spoil SAF name i guess ( as the reputation of SAF out there is kinda bad liao ). Any way when i was in there for 1 week , i notice i have very nice superiors and there were alot of nice people around ^.^ lucky me ~~~ anyway ns is kinda fun in some way and also bad in some ways , but who cares, my moto is to remember the happiness and forget the unhappiness, but for me when i go in i suffered alot cos the effort i spent to control for my asthma have totally gone down to the drain due to the weather there, i spent 2 years controlling it and at the end of the day it got worst after i got enlisted for 3 days, so i guess i have to start from scratch again ....
anyway iwas really shock when i attended my appointment on the 4th of may at a government hospital, i collected my medicines for 2 month and it cost me SGD 600 plus ~~~~ omg lucky i was on the plan by the goverment where my medicine was all on 50 % off the original cost and on top of that it is paid by my "BOSS" via the universal credit card (11 b ) lol ! anyway,when i was in tekong, i as lucky to have the best OC , PC , storeman m clerk and DIs~~~ hahaha from what i list you should know the whole company dont really like who huh hahaha ~~~~~ but anyway, i wish all my buddies and all my company line people all the best an jia you in all what u guys do and have a grand POC haha guys jy ~~~ as for me i guess i will be down pes ~~~ and than i will not be going back for recourse i hope cos of my medical lol !!!!!!!!!! but the thing that i will never forget in tekong will be my company line , my PCs ~~ OC ~~ DIs ~~ OOTS buddies ~~ storeman ~~ clerk ~~ company buddies ~~ and of cos my bunk mates hahaha ~~~
Anyway , i will miss all my buddies and my company line people ~~~ i wish everyone in my company line ~~~ good luck ~~~ all thebest ~~~ may the goddess of war Athena , a greek goddess well known for her strong character and wisdom, be with u so u can conquer every hardship u face with wisdom and confidence. but of cos when the goddness of war is there her best companion the goddessof victory , nike will be there too ... so my buddies jy ~~~ !
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
time is getting limited ad the air is also getting thinner
Soon , it is time for me to lose my freedom and face my worst night mare, something where everyone have to go through. something i dislike and never wanted but i guess i have no choicebut to go unless my life is ended efore i could even join "it".
but anyway what i worried most is my mum, grandma my sweety. this are the important things i am worried about hahaha, other tha that nothing else. but i relly still can understand why it is compulsory. hiaz, anyway i really wish and hope that it will wuickly get pass and gone with it i dont wanna suffer the pressure and lose of freedom. as the get lesser my fear grew more, i am like so worried and up set, and yet nooneever understands me, i am so upset but no one could even tell. haha guess it is my face that is foolng people i guess.
hiaz i wanna go rrest liao so have a good day to all my bloggy reader and love u guys
but anyway what i worried most is my mum, grandma my sweety. this are the important things i am worried about hahaha, other tha that nothing else. but i relly still can understand why it is compulsory. hiaz, anyway i really wish and hope that it will wuickly get pass and gone with it i dont wanna suffer the pressure and lose of freedom. as the get lesser my fear grew more, i am like so worried and up set, and yet nooneever understands me, i am so upset but no one could even tell. haha guess it is my face that is foolng people i guess.
hiaz i wanna go rrest liao so have a good day to all my bloggy reader and love u guys
Friday, March 13, 2009
GUYS AND GAYS OUT THERE BEWARE !!
today my posting is about a disgusting guy who called me bro when i dont even treat him as one. he is like a idiot asnd he thought i am a fool, my good ness i only know him at the beginning of 2008 and he say that i knowhim for 4 years ! PUI ! it is so unlucky of me to have such disgusting friend ! anyway this person i called kenneth and i wanna tell u what happen afew days ag, what he dod to my 2 friends. so please read on.
Afew days ago, my friend named A (will ot state his name)met this guy by the name of kenneth. than this guy by the name of kenneth made the worst things ever. after meeting him he told that i would go for the orgy party he organise on the 16 to 18 may. But in fact i din even promise or even said i am going. after hearing about it i confronted him on msn in a mass conversation and he said that i would eventually go, and i said nope i will not means will not . i am like totally pissed off. after i left the conversation and he pmed me trying to be nice and called me bro and so on. i told him no, i am ot ur bro and i dont like people to just know that i am goign and at theend i am not there.and i dont lik people to p ut words in my mouth. after scolding him, he told my friend A that i am a i like to play with people body and i dont care about him. haha i feel like u are the one righT ? and further more when he meet me and when i meet u, he dont seems to be scare of me but he is scare of u. So please la ok ? i dont disturb u and dont step on my tail dot come and step on mine for nothing.
After afew days later, this kenneth met up with anothe of myfriend. Name B, my friend Named B went to his house, and u know what ? this was what happen, typed personally by named B himself:
I WENT TO KEN HOUSE TO TALK ABT THE CHaLET
*THEN HE OFF THE LIGHT SAY WANT TO TRY ON A BLINDFOLD ON ME
*THEN HE TIE SO TIGHT
*THEN HE USE HIS BELT TIE MY HaNDS BEHIND MY BACK
*SAY WAN TRY IF THE BELT IS A GOOD TIE-ING THING
*THEN ASK ME SIT DOWN
*ON THE BED
*I CANT SEE OR DO ANYTHING
*HE PULL DOWN MY JEANS AND SAT ON ME
*CUM ON HIS DICK AND PUT ON MY LIPS
*ITS DAMN DISGUSTIONG
*FORCING ME TO DAO THINGS WICH I DID NOT EXPECT WOULD HaPPEN
*DO*
*UNDERSTAND NOW
*I SCREAM TO HIM TO STOP
*THEN HE PUT HIS HaND TO COVER MY MOUTH
see what he did, isnt itdisgusting ?!?!? my goodness pls la ok i din even do such things. and behind my back u told people i am a flirt ? a PAEDOPHILE ? now whose the one being a paedophle ?!!?? my goodness i dont scare people u are the one who scare people ok ?
Now people whoread my blog, u may take my advice or not is up tou, since now this person have gone over board i feel it is time for e to warn u guys ok. he told my friend Named A this:
say that if Named B going to chalet he were eat away Named B
and he told me this thing if Named B going to the chalet then he were use something that very strong to let Named B smell it then he were love to have s e x with other people and he were f u c k Named B
My goodness, now people out there u will all be the one to judge, is he even a human being worth to be trusted ? believed ? or even called a friend ? this KENNETH only like to lie and than smear ur name if he have to just to get someone on his side. Now come on if u are really a nice person u will have friends naturally do u need to do such low things ? am i right ? so pls guys, this fellow is having a orgy party on the 16 to the 18 of may at Hometeam Ns club. will u wanna go after what he had done to this to people ? i fact this guy is a PAEDOPHILE so beware of him ~~
His name is Kenneth he is a malaysian and he stays in Bukit Panjang his msn is kennethcyc@hotmail and his hp numbers starts with 9103 XXXX so guys pls beware of him and dont be a prey for his cheap thrill cos he is asking for alot of trouble not from people like us but the government.
Afew days ago, my friend named A (will ot state his name)met this guy by the name of kenneth. than this guy by the name of kenneth made the worst things ever. after meeting him he told that i would go for the orgy party he organise on the 16 to 18 may. But in fact i din even promise or even said i am going. after hearing about it i confronted him on msn in a mass conversation and he said that i would eventually go, and i said nope i will not means will not . i am like totally pissed off. after i left the conversation and he pmed me trying to be nice and called me bro and so on. i told him no, i am ot ur bro and i dont like people to just know that i am goign and at theend i am not there.and i dont lik people to p ut words in my mouth. after scolding him, he told my friend A that i am a i like to play with people body and i dont care about him. haha i feel like u are the one righT ? and further more when he meet me and when i meet u, he dont seems to be scare of me but he is scare of u. So please la ok ? i dont disturb u and dont step on my tail dot come and step on mine for nothing.
After afew days later, this kenneth met up with anothe of myfriend. Name B, my friend Named B went to his house, and u know what ? this was what happen, typed personally by named B himself:
I WENT TO KEN HOUSE TO TALK ABT THE CHaLET
*THEN HE OFF THE LIGHT SAY WANT TO TRY ON A BLINDFOLD ON ME
*THEN HE TIE SO TIGHT
*THEN HE USE HIS BELT TIE MY HaNDS BEHIND MY BACK
*SAY WAN TRY IF THE BELT IS A GOOD TIE-ING THING
*THEN ASK ME SIT DOWN
*ON THE BED
*I CANT SEE OR DO ANYTHING
*HE PULL DOWN MY JEANS AND SAT ON ME
*CUM ON HIS DICK AND PUT ON MY LIPS
*ITS DAMN DISGUSTIONG
*FORCING ME TO DAO THINGS WICH I DID NOT EXPECT WOULD HaPPEN
*DO*
*UNDERSTAND NOW
*I SCREAM TO HIM TO STOP
*THEN HE PUT HIS HaND TO COVER MY MOUTH
see what he did, isnt itdisgusting ?!?!? my goodness pls la ok i din even do such things. and behind my back u told people i am a flirt ? a PAEDOPHILE ? now whose the one being a paedophle ?!!?? my goodness i dont scare people u are the one who scare people ok ?
Now people whoread my blog, u may take my advice or not is up tou, since now this person have gone over board i feel it is time for e to warn u guys ok. he told my friend Named A this:
say that if Named B going to chalet he were eat away Named B
and he told me this thing if Named B going to the chalet then he were use something that very strong to let Named B smell it then he were love to have s e x with other people and he were f u c k Named B
My goodness, now people out there u will all be the one to judge, is he even a human being worth to be trusted ? believed ? or even called a friend ? this KENNETH only like to lie and than smear ur name if he have to just to get someone on his side. Now come on if u are really a nice person u will have friends naturally do u need to do such low things ? am i right ? so pls guys, this fellow is having a orgy party on the 16 to the 18 of may at Hometeam Ns club. will u wanna go after what he had done to this to people ? i fact this guy is a PAEDOPHILE so beware of him ~~
His name is Kenneth he is a malaysian and he stays in Bukit Panjang his msn is kennethcyc@hotmail and his hp numbers starts with 9103 XXXX so guys pls beware of him and dont be a prey for his cheap thrill cos he is asking for alot of trouble not from people like us but the government.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
what have past have past, what have been done have been done,what should be gone , should forever be gone
Oh well, thought things that have been happening have been cleared up, but it seems to have a mist covering everything, making thing impossible to be seen clearly. each of us now is like a king, holding to his fort while unwillingly letting people to enter his fort even if they are alliance. As each of us have totally lost trust in each other. As time pass by this trust shall be regain, but the time taken will be much longer, thought now i have no trust doe my allince but i will still believe them in some ways.
I hope that time shall guilde as through this hardship and let mistake be corrected through this period of time. If not, the alliance shall just crumble and the trust will be totally gone.
Oh well, people comment that my posting is alwayts long, but come one f i have short posting, what much is there to read about right ? but anyway thought people who read this posting may not understand what it means, but read closer and understand whats is beyond it and u will get what i mean ^^anyway u guys rest well and tc hehe it is time for me to turn in ~~ i am tired ~~~ orar ~~~ so thanx for reading ~~~ lvoe u guys muacks ~~~
I hope that time shall guilde as through this hardship and let mistake be corrected through this period of time. If not, the alliance shall just crumble and the trust will be totally gone.
Oh well, people comment that my posting is alwayts long, but come one f i have short posting, what much is there to read about right ? but anyway thought people who read this posting may not understand what it means, but read closer and understand whats is beyond it and u will get what i mean ^^anyway u guys rest well and tc hehe it is time for me to turn in ~~ i am tired ~~~ orar ~~~ so thanx for reading ~~~ lvoe u guys muacks ~~~
Sunday, February 22, 2009
The last and the final time i am gonna repeat this~~
Whoever u are who i am saying about u should know. this is my last and final "HINTING" to u. Stop whatever u are doing, cos i am not gonna forgive u anymore if u wanna continue. I have said once and i am going to say this the last time. Enought is enought. Losing a friend like u is totally nothing at all. Cos i would rather lose a friend like u than to let people know that i have such a disgraceful friend. If it was not for ur childishness and foolishness we would have been great friends, but it seems like u wanna continue on so i am fine with it.
Guys who read my blog, why dont u all be the guys to come and see whose in the wrong or should i have the right to get angry with this particular person or not, I meet whoever i want and go out with whoever i want, is it related to this person ? am i of any harm to this person ?is it i meeet a guy u will lose a piece of meat or a part or ur body ? is it right for "IT" to dig into my personal life when i din even do that to him ? is it really right to do that? Dont u think u are abit too much ? U guys who read my blog, pls be the person to judge and pls comment on my shout box, i am reaching my limit and i am about to blow my top and i have the thought of stomping to this particular persons house and confront him. I cant be bother anymore, cos this person i trying to take my kindness and respect as just a joke.But sad to say this, "Once bitten, Twice shy" ok ? No more means no more. AND I AM REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT IT.
Anyway i just wanted to post this thats all cos i am really out of moood today, so pls whoever i am "HINTING". This is the last and the final, and mark my words. I MEAN IT NOW. I let u have a chance but u take it for granted and still thought that i am joking. Treated me as a paper tiger it is ok.But I am saying this again and for the final time. STOP WHATEVER NON SENSE U ARE DOING. ok ? i take u as a friend so i tell u and hint u. but when there comes a point when i say it, it means it is the end and i really i mean it is the end END and this is my final hinting. So hope u are thinking wise enought and stop what u are doing, now no one is gonna help u, cos u totally made a wrong move in what u are doing now.
Anywa, love u guys who read my blog and read whats is happening now and what i am getting fed up about. Thanx for reading and PLS KINDLY COMMENT IT IN MY SHOUT BOX PLS~~~~ THANX (^o^)
Guys who read my blog, why dont u all be the guys to come and see whose in the wrong or should i have the right to get angry with this particular person or not, I meet whoever i want and go out with whoever i want, is it related to this person ? am i of any harm to this person ?is it i meeet a guy u will lose a piece of meat or a part or ur body ? is it right for "IT" to dig into my personal life when i din even do that to him ? is it really right to do that? Dont u think u are abit too much ? U guys who read my blog, pls be the person to judge and pls comment on my shout box, i am reaching my limit and i am about to blow my top and i have the thought of stomping to this particular persons house and confront him. I cant be bother anymore, cos this person i trying to take my kindness and respect as just a joke.But sad to say this, "Once bitten, Twice shy" ok ? No more means no more. AND I AM REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT IT.
Anyway i just wanted to post this thats all cos i am really out of moood today, so pls whoever i am "HINTING". This is the last and the final, and mark my words. I MEAN IT NOW. I let u have a chance but u take it for granted and still thought that i am joking. Treated me as a paper tiger it is ok.But I am saying this again and for the final time. STOP WHATEVER NON SENSE U ARE DOING. ok ? i take u as a friend so i tell u and hint u. but when there comes a point when i say it, it means it is the end and i really i mean it is the end END and this is my final hinting. So hope u are thinking wise enought and stop what u are doing, now no one is gonna help u, cos u totally made a wrong move in what u are doing now.
Anywa, love u guys who read my blog and read whats is happening now and what i am getting fed up about. Thanx for reading and PLS KINDLY COMMENT IT IN MY SHOUT BOX PLS~~~~ THANX (^o^)
Monday, February 16, 2009
Time has come ... for the final confrontation ... it is either nor or never
I just thought it is time for me to say some things.Thats why i took the trouble to come here to post it thought it is already 5 am in the morning, but anyway all i wanna say is this. Being a human being and go around toying with other human being is wrong. Once someone trust u and u play with others trust is just as bad too, because at the end of the process u will just create another traitor. If u are going to continue,it inventually just cause our friendship to just turn sour.
One person who always do bad thing will get their retribution one day, and whatever u do, there are sure to be someone watching u.Be it is human or spritual. But when u are too engross with playing u will just unintentionally show people what u are doing. Though at the beginning whatever is happening is just as u plan but at the end now u are losing the control of the situation making u restless. One we were friend, and just because of jealousy, ill intention and also to proof of ur existance u did all this. Yes, u did prove u exist but sad to say u proof ur existance neither a friends nor a human. But a devil with a rotten heart.
There are ways to proof ur own existance and to proof ur own existance there is no short cut to it. U can be a human being but people can treat u as just a normal object. But with ur own expression and speciality naturally born in. It u make u unique and outstanding which will attract thier attention. But not to do such things and to attract thier attention. Because at the end of the day, u proof ur own existance as just moron and let be people dislike u thats all and worst u will be treated as air.
So let the things end and past. Dont continue playing such games already. Now the matter is already bad at where it is but still can be manage. But if u wanna continue to play such games on, at the end of the day the person who will suffer the most is not us but u who is the game master and making u lose all ur friends.
Now the situation is like u are trapped in a cave with 2 sleeping tiger at the entrance of the cave. where u can just sneak off with out risking anything. But if u wanna just make more mistake and wake the tiger up to kill u. Let it be ur choice. But rememer one thing, good friend dont always come around easily. To me, to lose a ill mannered friend is better than to lose more friend in the furture. Therefor to whoever u are. U know i am talking about u.It is time to give up already. No use to continue playing such childish games and admit u are in the wrong thats all.
Sorry my friends who are reading my bloggy, but i have to post this posting to just warn my this friend. But i do take friends really seriously, when they have problem i will help but once u use me once as a tool. U will know what i will do already. But first and fore most i love all of u. But pls dont ever do things till i have to give up the friendship that we have. Cause when i am serious about the situation. i am really serious about it. Thats why i say, "What have to be done> MUst be done even if it there is blood to be shed or worst death "
HAHAH never see my serious and get angry before ? Just an advice ^^ dont it is not gonna be pleasant ^^ Anyway thanx for reading my bloggy and hope u will continue to do so ^^ love u guy and i love u mummy ^^ MUACKS~
One person who always do bad thing will get their retribution one day, and whatever u do, there are sure to be someone watching u.Be it is human or spritual. But when u are too engross with playing u will just unintentionally show people what u are doing. Though at the beginning whatever is happening is just as u plan but at the end now u are losing the control of the situation making u restless. One we were friend, and just because of jealousy, ill intention and also to proof of ur existance u did all this. Yes, u did prove u exist but sad to say u proof ur existance neither a friends nor a human. But a devil with a rotten heart.
There are ways to proof ur own existance and to proof ur own existance there is no short cut to it. U can be a human being but people can treat u as just a normal object. But with ur own expression and speciality naturally born in. It u make u unique and outstanding which will attract thier attention. But not to do such things and to attract thier attention. Because at the end of the day, u proof ur own existance as just moron and let be people dislike u thats all and worst u will be treated as air.
So let the things end and past. Dont continue playing such games already. Now the matter is already bad at where it is but still can be manage. But if u wanna continue to play such games on, at the end of the day the person who will suffer the most is not us but u who is the game master and making u lose all ur friends.
Now the situation is like u are trapped in a cave with 2 sleeping tiger at the entrance of the cave. where u can just sneak off with out risking anything. But if u wanna just make more mistake and wake the tiger up to kill u. Let it be ur choice. But rememer one thing, good friend dont always come around easily. To me, to lose a ill mannered friend is better than to lose more friend in the furture. Therefor to whoever u are. U know i am talking about u.It is time to give up already. No use to continue playing such childish games and admit u are in the wrong thats all.
Sorry my friends who are reading my bloggy, but i have to post this posting to just warn my this friend. But i do take friends really seriously, when they have problem i will help but once u use me once as a tool. U will know what i will do already. But first and fore most i love all of u. But pls dont ever do things till i have to give up the friendship that we have. Cause when i am serious about the situation. i am really serious about it. Thats why i say, "What have to be done> MUst be done even if it there is blood to be shed or worst death "
HAHAH never see my serious and get angry before ? Just an advice ^^ dont it is not gonna be pleasant ^^ Anyway thanx for reading my bloggy and hope u will continue to do so ^^ love u guy and i love u mummy ^^ MUACKS~
Saturday, February 14, 2009
It is time for the fallen one to be awaken ~
Well time having been passing like nobodies bussiness, as time pass there are a group of people who are jealous of u, felt inferior to u or just trying to step u under their feet. Recently, there are people who have been releasing fake rumours of me hahaha ! but oh well i cant really be bothered but as time passes again and again, it came clearer and clearer of whats happening, but all i have to say is, time for u to give up and just remain silence or u will just get the worst part of it in ur life. Like i say, i may just be keep low and making friends all along, but if u wanna make me wake up and bring u down i will, those rumours that u spread are so facinating but it have make me really enjoyed it but the fact is that it is not true but still it facinates me well.
I always believe one thing, it takes a weakling to do such thing so that they feel that they are really in power but the thing they dunno is that, alot of people are laughting at his stupidity of what he is doing, here is something for u :
" Those who goes around telling tale about others are the once who will be the laughting stalk of the issue. As what older generation like to say each person who do things with their heart and soul that have no ill intention will be granted help and will not be punish but those who go and do things to spike someone will suffer the most painful and harshest punishment in life, thats why they say "Lets the very skies that over see us be the eyes and let the very ground that we step on be the ears". Dont think what u say people dunno. "
But any way times have past and a few of my friends have told me about the rumours and have questioned me if it is true but i have ask them to ask themself have i dont such things or not hahaha ! But anyway I cant really be bothered bout wwhats happening or being spread around as those who knows me i believe they will clarify things out for me cos they know i am not such a person ^^ and those who have done that thanx alot hehe u are always my treasured friends. But liek i like to say spread whats real and not fake. OH YA MOST IMPORTANT HAPPY VALENTINE TO EVERYONE OUT THERE ^^
I always believe one thing, it takes a weakling to do such thing so that they feel that they are really in power but the thing they dunno is that, alot of people are laughting at his stupidity of what he is doing, here is something for u :
" Those who goes around telling tale about others are the once who will be the laughting stalk of the issue. As what older generation like to say each person who do things with their heart and soul that have no ill intention will be granted help and will not be punish but those who go and do things to spike someone will suffer the most painful and harshest punishment in life, thats why they say "Lets the very skies that over see us be the eyes and let the very ground that we step on be the ears". Dont think what u say people dunno. "
But any way times have past and a few of my friends have told me about the rumours and have questioned me if it is true but i have ask them to ask themself have i dont such things or not hahaha ! But anyway I cant really be bothered bout wwhats happening or being spread around as those who knows me i believe they will clarify things out for me cos they know i am not such a person ^^ and those who have done that thanx alot hehe u are always my treasured friends. But liek i like to say spread whats real and not fake. OH YA MOST IMPORTANT HAPPY VALENTINE TO EVERYONE OUT THERE ^^
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