just lost a little love one ...

T-T todays is another painful day for me ... my cat who have been living with me for 15 year have just pass on ... my grandma , mum , bro , sis , and me are feeling very upset ... i am like totally feeling so upset ... earlier on i cubbled her as she breathes her last few breath before passing on ... before she passo n she vomited and look at me for the last time before she was gone from the waorld and gone to the far plane to meet my father and grand fathers ... i will really really miss her alot ... i will sure miss her gentle coat of fur and adorable face ... i feel so so so upset ... i cant believe she just pass on ... hoping she would live longer so she could have a more joyious life when time to come ... but who knows her life end today 22th July 2008 ... at 12. 15 pm 09 secs ... i could see that my grandma was really hoping she was alife cos when i went to answer a phone call ... she actually go and touch her and called out her names hoping she would meow for her the last time ... but my cat din ... as i see my grandma walking towards the kitchen will a sarrowful face ... i was kinda upset too but having to control myself from not crying afraid that she would cry too i held on and dare not cry afraid she would also cry ... i really cannot believe that my healthy little fat cat would die so soon ... i witness her last moments of living ... as she struggles to draw every of her single breath ... and soon she started to stiffen up and vomited and just stop breathing ... and it was the last time she drew her breath and look me in the eyes ... i am like why must she die so early ... why i just cant believe it ... hiaz .... guess today is a bad day for me ... hiazz ... now i am totally out of mood for everything ... from eating to sleeping to watch tv ... i feel totally very very down ... but thanx to my baba who tried to comfort me and cheer me up thanx ... love u mummy and dear ... and all my friends ... and thanx to the staffs of Paradise Pet Shop located at 232 Whitley Rd Mt Pleasant Animal Hospital Singapore 297824 for sponsoring the other half of my cats cremation when we are having some financial difficulties and also alice who was kind enought to console me even thought i am just someone over the phone who is feeling really down thanx alot alice ... thanx alot for the sponsorship ... and if i were much more well to do i will sure repay for u good deeds ... thanx a million ... when i am free i will sure take a trip down to thank the people there and also buy alice lunch ... thanx ...

Something iread and i think that i should share...

today i was kinda having runny nose so i cant sleep so i started to surf the net and i came across this article ... of Lawrence King a young boy aged 15 who was bold enought to admit that he is a homosexual and soon he was bullied , teased , pinpointed , being outcast and at the end was shot to death ... oh well the article is kinda long but after reading it ... i kinda pity him ... the article's which appeared on NewWeek titled "Young, Gay and Murdered" ... if u are curious bout the storey heres the link >>> http://www.newsweek.com/id/147790/page/1 (hope the article will never be removed)

oh well after reading the really really long article ... ther were alot of interesting facts that were stated in the article like ... "One study found that the average age when kids self-identify as gay has tumbled to 13.4" haha i found it quite true hahaha but any way ... i believe all of us wanna be like lawrence who dareingly tell people that "i am a gay" but cos we are in a homophobic society majority of us would rather keep it a secret amoung our group unless people finds out bout it ... but at least we are asured that what happen to lawrance will not happen to us ... but still having the entire society looking down at us once they know we are a homosexual it is kinda hard ... i cant imagine how lawrence felt when the entire schools even teacher who are suppose to help us students even outcast lawrence and also treated him in a bias way ... hiaz .... i wonder what would have happen to me if i were to be in lawrence shoes ... but lets hope that lawrence wil be give justice ...

oh well enought bout that and moving over to myself haha ... today was a rainy day and as u know when someone have flu they will hate the rainy weathers .... cos it will be cold and also when u go out ur feets will be wet and when u go to a shopping center with wet feet u will feel that u are walking on ice hahaha ... but anyway today i GOT MY CONTACT LENS hahaha ... i tried it on and wow !!! i could see things more clearly hehehe but sad to say first time i wear i can only wear for 4 hours but who knows i manage to wear only for 2 hours cos it kept moving and moving and i adjusted it back so frequently that it felt painful so i took it out haha ... oh well anyway later i will try putting it on again hehee and this time round i hope it will not be painful ... hehehe cos today i have to go to the bank to settle my school loan stuffs hahaha ... oh well ... i actually am very scare of something but i have to go for it this coming friday unless i am sick again and i see a dictor .. and guess what is it ? ... ns check up ... everything is fine but i am afraid of the blood test part cos i am afraid of needles T-T and also i will faint if i see blood being drawn from me sob sob ... so hopefulyl i am still having flu so i need not to go otherwise i would cry or end up in hospital if i faint ... but on well ... i have decided to reenroll myself in the poly again after withdrawing from my ex poly ... i am hoping for a near poly to my house hehehe ^^ anyway i am hoping to complete my studies before going into ns ...

after talking bout my fear ... i felt more nervous cos the last time when i took blood test in school i kinda almost faint if not for my friends who supported me i would have fainted ... but is there really a need for a blood test ? i am just wondering ... and why must we be force to go ns ? cant it be a option for us ? why must it be compulsary for guys to go ns ? how bout girls ? is it cos we guys have a dick and girls have pussy thats why we have to go ns ? or just cos they make babies to add on to the population of the nation thats is thier national service ? O.O i just wonder ... why cant we guys opp to go for ns or not to go for ns ... i just cant understand ... and furthermore i think ns is a waste of our time and youth ... why cant we decide weather to enlist ourself or to go work ? and i am just wondering ... i only have a mother left ... and my 2 brothers are like CANNOT MAKE IT and if i go ns ... who will look after my mum ? she will be totally alone right ? and further more the standart of living in singapore is like shooting higher and higher and my mum is drawing a salary which she may not be able to eat sometimes and hello ?!?!?!? she is 54 this year and i wanna spent more time with her ... she look after me since young why cant i stay with her ... look after her ... accompany her ? why ? and why should i be force to go for ns ? why ? i think even after alot of people go enquire bout the ns thingy the government just keep quiet and never say anything and from time to time they keep having those national servise advertisement and so on why ? for what waste money since u ALREADY pridicted for us to go in ler so why bother telling us the meaning and so on ? we have to repay the nation ?!?!?! my goodness i think the person we have to repay is our parents hao ma ... i just wonder those 2 guys who died in national service ... why must they day ? and what if they are the only son ? judt think how thier parents felt ? i dont wanna let my mum be sad again after losing her other half u know ... i dont wanna be dead and cant look after her ... and seriously one day i will try a wayy to tell her that i am a bisexual and i will intro her to my bf if i have one that is ... and we stay together as a family ... hiaz ...

I REALLY HOPE THE NS THINGY WOULD BE MADE OPTIONAL ... just cos our population is small it dont mean that we have to be forced to do something that we dont like to do ... it is like totally unfair for us guys ... hiazz but anyway i totally feel very upset bout it and i just wanna end my life ... why people from other country can have a colourful life from the day they were born till the day they die and why we singaporeans cant have that ? it is like standardise for us guys ... after study ns ... ns ... ns ... i rather spend the 2 years working studing and looking after my mum instead of going to ns ... IT IS A TOTAL WASTE PF TIME ! it is like totally unfair ... =(

OH WELL MY DAY HAVE BEEN RUIN ... guess i will go to bed and hope when i wake up i feel better and my runny nose is gone ... leave ur comments if u have any ... LOVE MY MUMMY ANDMY DEAR and also all my friend~~~~ OYASUMI NAHSAI ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ T3T

Down with flu~~~ and bad weather~~~

hi to all reader of my bloggy hahaha today i am having flu and i din wanna update my bloggy but since i cant sleep so might as well update it ... as i am typing my lastest posting ... i am wipeing my nose cos it is leaking ... hiaz ... i hate it when i have flu ... feel so sleepy and yet cant sleep ...

anyway ... when it was friday ... i thought it would be a long and nice weekend ... but who knows ... it pasted so fast ... oh well from friday till sunday ... all i did was wake up watch tv meet my bro nad go and stroll the pasa malum haha and when i thought that the pasa malum was ending there will be going to be another chain of stall hich is going to open under my block i am like OMG hahaha the pasa malum opposite the mrt station is ending on the 26 July which is next week hahaha ... oh well everyday i am only craving for the TAKOYAKI !!! hahaha i like it the most and it is like yummy yummy hahaha ... i have been like eating takoyaki for the pass 2 weeks hahah but i still like it alot ... hehehe and guess what i really hope there will be takoyakii when the pasa malum near my blocks open ^^

anyway ... one of my friend just got attach so oh well Congratulations to u for getting attach and i hope u and ur dear will be a happy couple hehehe ... now back to myself ... my bro and my dear told me to try contact lens and i am like OMG i dont dare haha but guess what ... i went for a eye check and my contact lens have arrive today ... hahaha so wish me good luck later when i go try it on haha i hope it is not painful when i put it on ... moooooo ... and after contact lens ... it will be a hair cut for me hahaha (BABA WHEN U GOING TO BRING ME GO CUT HAIR LIKE U PROMISE DE) kekeke oh well ... i dunno what will happen to my hair but i really hope that my hair would turn out to be scary to me hahaha .... i kinda like my curreny hair style but i think it need trimming if not my eyes will get infections and also my face will have alot of volcanic eruption *u know what i mean* haha ... oh well i am will to try all this since my baba wanted me to so oh well BABA FOR UR SEEK ... i will try ok hahaha but pls dont call me wear bright colour t-shirt and BRIGHT COLOUR SKINNYs i will die in front of u if u call me wear those hahaha ... hiaz ... my runny nose is kinda bad ... just sunday only and i have use almost 1 roll or toilet paper ... hiazz how bad is it going to be ... oh well it is going to rain so i guess i wanna go sleep ler hehe kinda cold even thought i on the fan and din on the air con ... and my mum is not home so i will just stick to the fan and the thick thick blanket hehehe ... thanx to all who have read my blog though it is less than a month old but it have been visited 500 times and counting ^^ MUACKS hehehe ... OH WELL ... GOOD NIGHT ALL ^W^ LOVE MY DEAR AND MY MUMMY MUACKS~~~~

the silly meeets the sexy again >.<

hahaha today was a long day lol ^^ it was kinda of a boring day haha and guess what a close pal of mine met me and we have a drink together and strolled the gombak area hehehe thought there was a pasa malum( dunno how to spell) ... so we walk the gpmbak area and soon i had to send him to the mrt cos he had many projects and report to do ... so sad hope could be with him longer so can chat with him more hahaha ...

but anyway meeting him was a happy thing but now coms to my bro darrick but some how he was troubled haizz ... it seems that someone he trusted alot had told him many many lies hahaha so oh well i cant blame him for being so troubled but at least he trust me alot and tell me his problems hahah oh well i actually do tell him my troubles too hahaha kinda fun when both of us together we can crap and could even say all sorts of things together hahaha anyway hehehe talking bout this i was so happy last night hehehe ^^ i manage to see my dear again hehe i met him together with darrick and my other bro ZJ hahaha (short form hehehe wanna know his true name ? ask him urself i call him jie jie) hahaha anyway my dear brought me for dinner and after that we all strolled the pasa malum and he bought many many food for me to eat and he bought durian hahaha but i wanted to bite my dear cos he actually eyed on other guys roar hahaha but anyway hehe i forgive him ler hehe but i enjoyed alot last night as my bros and my dear plus me gather and linger together hahaha

OH well anyway later my bro will be having his test ~~~ so gooood luck hahaha cannot fail argh cos u say very easy but at least 95 % pass other wise i skin u hahaha ^^

YAY anyway i was kinda suprise my bloggy have hit 400 reader hehe thanx alot ^^ I hope that some of my posting actually are similar to what u are in now and so u at least know that i am having the same problem as u hehehe well when u online u can chat to me about it too haha will be delighted tooo ^^ so cheers~~

anyway i heard this song from a friends friendster and so i added on my bloggy i find it kinda nice so i hope you readers would enjoy the songs ^^

guess thats all for tonight so good night to all and sweet dreams ^^ *yawns ~~~* time for me to shower relax abit and go to bed hahaha so CHEERS ~*thought i am no drinker* hehehe love all my friends ^^ especially my dear and MUM ~

Bisexual ??? or just Pure Gay ??? i wonder which am i ?

hahaha oh well by the look of the title of this posting u should have guess what i am thinking hahaha but anyway today i made a new friend and he is kinda confused i guess hahaha hi to my dear friend hehehe *dont worry i will keep u in my mind and not tell others who are you*

anyway i was thinking of the same thing and i met him tooo and we chat bout the same thing and so ya i thought might as well post it on my bloggy and see if how many of u agrees with my definition of bisexual and gay ?

Bisexual > have a like for the opposite sex and also the same sex ...

*LOL ... i feel that the bisexual definition is kinda ironic though hahaha ... whats the different between a half gay and a full fledge gay =x*

Pure Gay > like only thier own sex in another word homosexual ?

LOL ... any way i hope people who read this posting will help me on weather my definition is correct hahaha ....

anyway my new friend ^^ whose name start with a letter "v" ... i know u are confuse with weather u are a gay or a bi or a straight who is curious ... but not to worry ... as time past u will really know what u prefer to be and attach to who as in to a male or a female hehehe ... oh well ... if u are wondering how i found out that i am a gay hehehe ... heres my personal experience ...

When i was in primary school ... i tend to look at guys ... and i dislike gals ... and so most of the time i would be a loner and always minding my own bussiness , looking at cute guys around my age or even my senior hehehe ... but cos alot of my classmates hated gays so i din dare to tell people that i like guys and also at that point in time i was still young and so i alway think that i am just envy guys with good looks ... but still sometimes i would be attraqcted to cute looking gals ...

When i was in secondary school ... i am still the same ... looking around at guys and so on but this time round ... i started to fantasize on hugging on this particular guy in my class cos h is like so handsome and fit hehe and i am like always seeking a chance to peek at him naked ... but also there is always one fact that is around .. and this fact is that my classmates hates gays too ... and peeping at guys would be a very very gayish thingy and also let my classmate feel that i am a gay ... and still the same ... i dont believe that i am a gay ... and i continue to tell myself that i am not a gay and i still like gals ... but somehow when in secondary school i hated gals alot cos of the way they act and do thing cum the fact that they always like to whine and bitch around hehehe...
but also i know the fact that when u let people know u are a gay ... tyhey will start to boycot u and also start pinpointing u ... giving u nick names ...

When i am in poly ... i am still the same ... the quiet guy ... who like to be quiet and do my things and help my friends when they are in trouble ... for the first few weeks of the semester of my first year i hang out with the gals and the guys ofg my class started to few abit wield and so i tried to mixc up with the guys and soon i click with them ... and than again ... i fell in love with this cute little guy in my class hehehe ... i would always see him from a distance and alway hope to be with him alone and hug him ... but still i was afraid about letting people know that i a guy who likes guys which is adnormal ... and so i control and in my mind i always fantansize hugging him and having sex with him *eeks that time more mature hehehe so thing y y* but at that moment in time i thought very deeply and i told my self that i must never let people know that i like guys and dislike gals as i am afraid my classmates will boycot me ... and so i kept to myself ... soon one fine day my friends (the guys) commented that i dont look at gals at the moment in time i was so stun and i din know how to answer them ... but some how i manage to avoid to answer ... and till today i think they dunno that i like guys ... as time passes this question keep popping out of my head ... and i told myself that it is time where i should accept that i am a bisexual or a gay ...

haiz ... but thoughts after thoughts ... i could not believe i actually turn into a bisexual and finally and reluntantly i accepted that i am a bisexual ... and soon ... this question pop out in my mind ... " whats the freaking hell difference from a Bisexual and a Gay ???" ... hahaha and atthat very moment i am like so bloody confused and soon i came out with the definition of bisexual and gay haha but at the end ... the both definition still means that i am a gay .. and so finally i accepted that i am a gay ... and the day i accepted it was the day i created this blog ... 28th June 2008 ... thought i have break throught the ice barrier for admitting i am a gay ... but there is more ice barrier to be broken ... like what to do when any of my friends find out that i am a gay ? ... what if my mum finds out ? ... and many other possiblities ... hiaz ... oh well since i have chose this path i guess i have to be strong and strive along it ...

BUT HOPEFULLY ... NON OF MY FRIENDS, FAMILY MEMBER OR RELATIVE WILL EVER FIND OUT THE TRUTH THAT I AM A GAY ... AND AGAIN I WANNA APOLOGIZE TO MY MUM ... THAT I AM A DISGRACE TO U AND DAD ... AND I AM VERY SORRY ... BUT I REALLY DONT HAVE FEELINGS FOR GALS AT ALL AND I LIKE GUYS ONLY ... SORRY MUMMY ... I DONT MEAN TO KEEP IT FROM U BUT I REALLY DONT DARE TO TELL U COS U WILL BE EXTREME UPSET BOUT IT ... SO SORRY ...

HIAZ SUDDENLY FELT LIKE CRYING DUNNO WHY ... GUESS I CONFESS TOO MUCH ... BUT OH WELL I DIN SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT AND I AM MEETING MY DEAR LATER HEHE SO I GUESS I WILL WAIT FOR HIM TO COME AND CHEER ME UP ...

THANX FOR READING MY BLOG AND I HOPE U GUYS WHO READ COULD LEAVE SOME COMMENT IN THE SHOUT BOX ^^ LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS ESPICIALLY MY DEAR AND MY LOVELY MUMMY ^^ MUACKS

Boring saturday and guess what the silly and sexy did ?

hahaha... thought it was a saturday ... me and darick met up and we stroll to the mrt with a friend called lester hehehe ... and opposite the mrt there was a pasa malum hahahha there is this malay stall near the traffic light and to tell u the truth thier food id nice nice and superb nice hahaha i bought alof of it to eat and i was like i wanna eat more but i din bring enought cash out hahaha .... but anyway after that darick came my house awhile and we brough my dog to the stair and we sat there chatting to each other and play with my doggy hahaha ... darrick say my doggy very cute haha cos it has no tail and when it wag its tail it is like shaking its back side haha so cute ...

but anyway today we ate lotssa fooooooooooooood from the pasa malum and it was so nice hahaha but i scare were they clean when they prepared the food hahaha anyway it was kinda fun to hang out with my bro darrick and some how we can have many topics hehehe oh well it is kinda late hehehehe and my dear just got home ... u see la lol =P

ok la time for me to sleep *yawn*nites all ~ sleep well~ sleep tight ^^ Oyasumi nasai~~~~~ LOVE MY DEAR AND MY MUMMY ~~~~ I WISH THAT MY MUM WILL NEVER FIND OUT WHAT AM I AS I WANNA BE WITH HER ALWAYS ....

The Silly meets the MAD Diva ?

hehehehe ... dunno what to name my posting so i started to name my silly posting with this title ... anyway hehehe i meet my bro darick for prata hahaha and well who knows~~~ haha someone on a bike who was nice and pleasant came with us ... hehehe hi mr sweet guy nice meeting u " if u know who i am implying ~~~ *winks*" hahaha anyway we had prata and after that i suggested we go stroll and who knows mr sweet guy dont like to stroll and so i suggested to go to darrick house to see his doggy ... haha his doggy so cute ... but darrick says when ever his dog see me ... his dog so high and it like to HUMP me !!! i am like omg !!! hahaha like the day before i went to darick house ... his dog literally shave his nose at my butt i was like !!! OMG !!! hahaha and today it kept humping me from the moment it saw me and i was like OMG !!! hahaha and darick ask me WTH what smell do u have on you why my dog keep humping u haha and i say how the hell i know ...

Soon we left darrick house haha ... and i started to miss his dog but no choice we have to send this sweet little guy to get his bike and so we walk him to get hisd bike hahahaha and after that me and my bro went to the 7-11 to get ourself a drink haha and who knows when we were paying for our drink we say 2 guys ... they seems to be AJ but i dunno are thery or not ... but anyway we left 7-11 and walk to the fitness corner which was near my house and also daricks house and sat there and chat ... haha some how when we are together we have lots of thing that we two could chat about like BFs and many other stuff hahaha oh well i dunno why we just kinda click hahaha and we could talk from everything ... from gold to even shit hahaha !!! we sat there drink our drink and chat and soon we were tired and decided to go home and once i got home i showered and u should be able to guess what i did next hahaha ... which is ... putting up this post hahaha anyway it was nice to hang out with my bro and also the little sweet guy hahaha ^^

OH WELL ... it is getting late so OYASUMI NASAI ~~~~ hahahaha good night ~~~~ MUACKSSSSSSSSSSS hehehe >.<

TAKE GOOD CARE ALL MY FRIENDS ^^ AND LOVE U MY DEAR AND MY MUMMY ^^ MUACKSSSSSSSS hehehe feel free to comment in the shout box to those who read my bloggy ^^

The Silly meets the Sexy >.<

hahahaha silly title huh ? hahah anyway if u are thinking whos the silly and whose the sexy hahaha i will tell u ^^ ... i am the silly ..... who can eat hell lot and the sexy will be my bro hahaha darick *hahah if he sees me calling him sexy he will be high~~~* anyway ... just now we meet for coffee again hahha and guess what we hang out and soon i intro someone sweet by the name of daniel to my bro darick haha he he was like BLUSHING hao ma ... but any way affter chatting together for like almost to 1 hour ... daniel had to go meet his friend to collect something ... and so after daniel boarded thee bus me and my bro ... well same thing dwell around gombak as if we were the guardian there haha and we crap again ...

and soon we chat alot and some how we kinda talk bout religion ... sorry to those christian friends of mine but i dislike christian religion ... but i like u all ok hahaha ... anyway we touch on the topic abit ... and some how it link to my bro's personality ... some how the conversation links like no tomorrow haha ... but anyway imy bro of mine ... looks fierce and gigantic .. but he is super fragile hahaha so i tried to build him up hahaha but by the looks of it he is trying his best to build up so i am giving him all my support hahaha ... and i told him ... dont care what others think ... and dont get propagated so easily ... think of it deeply and than do it in actions hahaha ...

and soon it was late so we had to go home ... and who knows ... i ask my good friend ber ber how is he ... and he say ... not very goood cos his friend broke up lol ... isnt he silly hahaha but anyway it shows that he care ... but a advice to my good friends friend ... be strong ... pick up from where u fall ... in this world ... no one will help u ... cos u are the one who can help urself at times like this ... furthermore ... lasting gay relationship is hard to find ... and finding one is like finding a needle in the sea bed ~~~ haha ...

anyway ... i maybe a fool to u ... or i may be a craper , joker , idiot , stupid , silly and many others ... but when a relationship ends ... i will not be very upset or so ...cos ... some how since young i have gone throught too much painful thing and even lost someone so valueble to me ... therefore ... i have told myself i will never shed another drop of tears ... not say i dont treasure or so ...but when i am with anyone of my bfs i will treasure u give u all my love and care for as much as i can give u and even when we break i will still care for u and hope to be close friends but never be enemies ... but when i am in a relationship with u i will always put my mum first ... so dont u DARE to be jealous bout it ... hahaha dunno why but i guess it is my life and also my past which make me a very hard hearted person but have a soft heart for my family ... oh well it is running late so i guess it is time for me to orh orh ler hahaha SO OYASUMI NAHSAI ^^ hehehe

steven today i know u going to be enlist today ler GOOD LUCK AND JY hope to meet u for lunch or so when u book out over the week end !!!! JY OK !!! and tc ^^

GOOD NIGHT AND HAVE A PLEASANT DAY LATER ^^ and thanx for reading my bloggy ^^
LOVE MY DEAR AND ALL MY FRIENDS AND I LOVE U MUMMY ^^ hehe pls do leave ur comments at the shout box at ur own will

MUMMY I HOPE IF EVER U FIND OUT I AM A GAY I AM VERY SORRY BUT I HOPE U WILL ACCEPT WHO I AM AND WHAT I AM ... COS I FEEL THAT I DONT WANNA LET ANYONE TO BE LIKE U ... SO I AM VERY SORRY IF I LET U DOWN AS A SON WHO CANT MEET UR EXPECTATION TO BE A NORMAL GUY ... SORRY MUMMY I LOVE U LOTS

WAH LAO ~~~~~ (~*>3<*)~~(*^-^*~)

HAHAHAHA no title to put anyhow huntum title lol ... anyway haiz another night alone so sian ... and tomorrow is monday and my friend is starting school so sad la he just now so emo when i accidentally say the wor school lol ps la darick hahaha anyway hehehe i am so happy ^^ my mr right pass his final theory test hahaha CONGRATULATION MY DEAR MUACKS hehehe ... anyway today my and my mr right we went for lunch together hehehe and we had kinda of a interesting time together hahah i was commenting on his laksa and he say u cook la since u commetn so much and i dared him hehehe so fun ... the food was terrible ... at thew coffee shop the only nice food i find there is the soupy stall at the corner and the chicken rice hahah others re like CMI~~~ ho ho ho

anyway today ... after lunch with my mr right ~~~ i went to meet my friend darick haha he keep complaining hahah saying he salted vegetable life i was like wah ~~~ u not sway ka bah hahaha but anyway darick jyjy i will try my best to find a bf for u de if i can hohoho =P

*YAWN* so tired guess i will and rest early hehehe so good night to all sweet straw berry dreams and sleep tight ~~~~ LOVE my BABA and my MUMMY ~~~ hehehe and all my dear friends~~~~ hehehe and one more thing~~~~ BABA JIA YOU ON UR DRIVING TEST WHICH IS COMING SOON ~~~ MUACKS~~~~

yay ^^ hehehe

hahaha sorry to my blog readers ... was kinda busy hehe so din have time to update it ... anyway hahah i am very happy cos my mr right is going to stay over at my place cos my mum is staying at my grandma house hahaha so he can come over and sleep heheh ... so happy !!!!!!!

OMG my imagination is running wild LOL but anyway ... we can do anything cos my second brother is around hahaha so therefore we can only snuggle and sleep together hehehe but we are going to have supper together like that he say hehe MUACKS ^^ anyway that day i met my good buddy ... and he say he needs a bf hahaha am trying my best to help him find one keke ^^

Piggy ... i know who are u ... but i feel that we know each other not long only and i furthermore ... i have just decided to be attach to my mr right and see how things goes ... and furthermore ... we only know each other for like only 2 weeks plus which i think it is abit too fast for us to develope it into a relationship too ... but anyway ... we can be friends close once but tobe together ... maybe next time but ... it is still tooo early ... and it may just be puppy love ...

HAHAHAHA am so impatient !!! ROAR waiting for him to come >.<>3<

LOve all my friends and buddies and of cos my MUMMY ( real mummy) and my FUTURE HUBBY ^^

OMG OMG OMG

OMG ... today was a extremely boring day hahaha but oh well it has passed hahaha ... oh well at least today i met my goood friend darick hahaha we had coffee and we chat till almost 2 am hahaha was kinda fun hanging out with him and i guess i have found my mr right hehehe >.<>.<

anyway today i got a silly sms from a friend ... and he say "i wanna see ur dick" i am like WTH ? u send me such a sms ... i got stunn when i read that sms and my friend ask what happen ... i was like OMG ... and he said that my friend told him i got a nice sick i was like HUH !?!??!?!?!??!?!? i was like completely stunn ... but oh well at least i got the things iron out hahaha and it have past haha not in my mind i always think of my mr right and my goood buddy darick hahaha ^3^ i wish to meet them every day so nice to hang out with them haha oh well hope to be with my mr right together forever and ever ^^

anyway ... just now when i was peing my mr right to wait for his bus home together with my friend darick haha my mum called me suddenly and i have to answered the call ... and who knows his bus came and he came to me while i was talking to my mum and he kissed me on my lips and i was completely stun i was like OMG !!! and i was afraid that my mum will hear it lor but lucky she din hahaha .... but she kissed me in public and i hope people on the bus din see it hahaha >3<>

Stressed on relationship~~~

hi to anyone who visit my stupid blog lol .... anyway i really dunno what to write tonight but and suddenly something came to my mind ... how to u reject someone's proposal to be ur bf and yet not hurting thier feeling ? hahaha i dunno how and i have tried a few ways ... some i tried hinting but they never give up ... some i told them flat on thier face and yet he was upset ... so i really dunno how haizz ... i thought of many ways and method and tried all ... i even tried to change the topic when someone propose to me but it did nothing ... sooner or later the question is back again but in a different way hiazz ...

Oh well, while typing this posting i was chatting with this cute fellow ... but i was kinda upset ... i was trying to meet him out for a meal than hang out watch tv at my place chat know each other better ... and tried to cheer him and disturb him by calling sweet sweet cos he was kinda cute ... but ... somethings happen ... he said i got on his nerve and he thought i meet him cos i wanted to only have sex with him and dump him ... i just really cant understand why everyone will thing that we meet each other just for sex ... why cant we meet each other cos wanna be friends ... i wonder just why i cant really think of a reason ... well i know there are some black sheep who is outside saying we wanna be friends ... than meet ... than go to bed ... have sex ... and than disappear ... i know some are like that but that dont mean all are the same ... it is the same as the left hands prints are different from the right ... hiazz ... oh why maybe i am just being naive ... hiazz guess people really think differently ... oh well ...

SHIT MAN that really made me moody ... zzz was kinda of a nice night or infact already early morning ... thought it was a nice yesterday and maybe will have a sweeter today but see what just happen OH GOSH ... cant believe it just happen ... haizz was hoping that today am going to meet this cute guy for a meal and hang out with him ... but it seems like 90% u am going to spend the day alone again by myself ... oh well am used to it already so i guess i will be prearing to be on sgboy finding people to chat and hangout hahaha thats why i do during my free time anyway ... oh well since i am kinda moody i guess i will go do my stuff and go "emo" hahaha cya all ~~~

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