HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ~

hello everyone ~~~ today is the first day of the year of the Ox. yup the Ox ~~~ so i wish every one a happy and prosperous new year ~~~~

first day of the chinese new year is such a boring day, last night i din have a reunion dinner, today only visited my grandma and than went home haha well got used to it since every year is like that. anyway today when i was on my way to my grandma house, i saw2 person at 2 different place which when i see i was like OMG ! one of them is this teenage guy when i see the way he was dressed, i was like OMG !!!! imagine a tanned lean guy bout 170 in height wearing pink tee shirt , pink skinnys ,pink belt , pink bag , pink glasses and pink ear studs !!!!!!!! i was like OMG !!!!! and it is obviously a guy cos only guy have adam's apple right ? and the second guy, also a teenager ... i think he is bout 170 too but plum ... wearing a bright red skinnys revesaling his butt crack ... with a lime green top !!!! i felt so gross bout it.... i was think "are younger people now adays so scary ? than in afew years down are they going to wear swimming trunks and swim suit on the street ?" oh well thats something that spoil my day .

today, i got really pissed off by someone, i dont wanna say who but i tell u he is getting on my nerve as time pass , i just wonder why is he so childish zzzz.... anyway i am very pissedwith him .. he say he wanna love me wanna look after me but we are not even attach to each other and he wanna bother who i go out with, i go out with my mum he also ask i go out with my god ma also bother ... i told him i go out with friends he will starting questioning me.... i am like omg if i am fully attached to him i sure die one zzzz but anyway today i told him off and i told him never to contact me any more ... but for ur information to whoever that person i am talking about , when i am attached i am loyal to my bf and my bf alone and i will belong to him only .. and i dont sleep around ok ? but whatever happens my mum is the most important person of all ok ? thats all

geez chinese new year day 2 and my mood is already so bad !!!!!!!!!! arghh i go chat to my friends on msn and mirc ler cya all any comments leave it at the shout box ^^

first chinese and english posting

thanx to this web site where it helps me to translate english to chinese i can finally post something where the chinese educated and the english educated can read ^^ sorry if there is some error with the chinese translation cos my english is not really strong ^^

由于这个网站，可以帮助我把英语译成汉语我最后的东西后的中文教育和英文教育可以阅读^ ^抱歉，如果有一些错误的中文翻译产地来源证我的英语不是非常强大^ ^

our mother is the world most important person, you must treasure your mother never like no other, love her like you never love anyone before, be it you are married or not, because you can remarry for another wife but once your mother is gone she is forever gone and you can never find another mother

我们的母亲是世界上最重要的人，你一定要珍惜你的母亲从来没有像其他，爱她爱你一样从来没有任何人面前，无论你是已婚或没有，因为你可以为另一个妻子再婚，但一旦你母亲走了，她永远过去了，你永远无法找到其他母亲.

we have only one mother, without her there will not be us, once she is gone , we cant find just anyone to replace her so lets appreciate her when she is around with us lets take care of her forgive for her mistake and accept for who she is. as we are her bone flesh.

我们只有一个母亲，没有她就不会有我们，一旦她已经一去不复返了，我们不能找到任何一个人来取代她，以便让欣赏她时，她是与我们周围可以照顾她原谅她的错误，并接受了谁她是。因为我们是她的骨肉

Thanks all for now i am kinda tired i will continue tonight muacks love u guys and i love u the most mummy =D good night all and good morning at the same time..

OMG this is the song the one and only song

hi guys... it have been awhile before i have updated my blog ... today while i was watch money i came across this song... and went to youtube and found it. when i hear it, my tears started to roll down and i cried and i started to think of the past ...

this song is so touching, it reminds me of when my father was around where i was a small little boy who have a complete family till the age 5 ... when my father pass away because he was gravely ill ....

this is the one and only song which gravely made me think back of the time when i was so young and was showered with love... whenever my family go out, my mum will hold me on the left hand and my father will hold my right hand ... but after my father pass away my family fell apart ... and totally my family became nothing , till today i love my mum alot and she is the one and only woman i will love so much ... dunno whether or not i will get married but still i will love my mum the most ... my friends envy me because when i told them that my mum knows that i am a gay and yet she did not scold me but just told me to try and change with a smile ... i also felt that i am lucky to have a great mum who will support me no matter what ... thats why i love her the most ... till today, my family is still broken, my mum trying he best to make ends meet, my elder bro not bothering about anything and my second brother with a wife who is like OMG ( dont want to soil my mouth ) i sure miss the time when we were young where we go out in a complete family, where everyone will smile. but now, the family is like a piece of mirror , broken and useless. why cant my bros be more thoughtful, why cant they think that mummy is also in a hardship ? yes she may gamble off but dont u think it is reasonable ? now she knows it is her mistake and she is trying to change dont u think we should give her a chance ? when we are young she look after us, we give her money or let her take our money got wrong ? i dont think it is wrong... yes i may not work but still i have never take alot of money from her ... i know i am useless and soemore i am a gay, but you 2 who are elder and more capable help mum ? mummy is suffering, dont u think it is time you should forgive mummy and help her ? we are a family after all , we should help her i dont want our family to be broken any further, do u know mummy is really hurt till she dont wanna come home ? partially it is me cos i know she is upset about me being a gay, but also she is hurt and upset because of u guys ... all along i have been keeping it as a secret, last time when mummy needed money , i gave her money , how i get so much money ? i gambled and won and i gave her, i try my best and give her what ever she wants but i know mummy is a heavy spender but still no matter what i will still give what she wants if i have the money. but kor kors, if u ever come across my this blog and find out that i am a gay, dont go blame on mummy, mummy have nothing to do with it, it is my own choice and i chose it on my own. so PLEASE i really beg u all forgive mummy ... she have suffered enought, far enought i dont wanna see mummy to collapse .. if that happen it is too late ler ... mummy have sufffered long enought far enought it is time for her to enjoy ... dont forget when we were young , we all did alot of wrong things and mummy forgive us.. why cant we forgive mummy ? i already forgive her and i know she is trying her best to change ... so i beg u all to forgive her ...

she may look strong but i know she is sad when ever she see a couple outside holding hand ... i know she felt hurt but dont worry mummy i will be here for you, forever and ever . what i am worried most now is my mum ... when i am going for ns who will look after her ? what if something happen to me ? who will look after her ? she is the one and only most important thing to me ... i love her the most ... i hope that all the gods will protect my mum and look over her for her wellness and health pls ... i beg all the gods pls do so ...

mummy sorry that i am a gay, and i am sorry for what i have done in the past ... i love you mummy ... i will always be there for you whenever i can, though you may not be at home but everyday i am thinking of you ... thought papa have left this world earlier but i will still be there to love u and care for you ... i love u mummy please rest well and take care of your health~~~~ i know u dunno anything bout blog but i will leave ur initials ( Y.M ) here so at least u know that it is me, your unfaithful son ...

interesting logic by a person called myself =p

wat comes around goes around, what turns still have to turn , what have to come sure have to come, but when time to die ^^ u ownself go die first i die later =p

Count down for a new year have passed and now preparing for a count down for the Lunar new year ~~~~

hello everyone~~

happy new year ~~~ and soon happy lunar new year ~~~~ it has been sometimes i have updated my bloggy cause was kinda busy ^^ but oh well soon it is gonna be time for the big occasion and my 22th birthday i am like so happy but also kinda sad, my army letter is gonna come soon and i can feel the vipes of it thought is is strong but i cant really tell when it is gonna come. Anyway dont say bout it ler, thought it is kinda sad but there is no way for me to avoid it i guess, but mark my words am not gonna ber a government doggy. so now lets ignore the painful andd sad feeling about the ns thingy and look forward to the lunar new years. ^^ well 16 more days and the lunar new year is coming, though it is kinda of a bad year but come on lets celebrate it and hope that after the festive season it would make a 180 degree change.

anyway recently i have been thinking throught bout things, i feel that thought things are kinda hard to do in life but if we try and give it our best shot it is gonna work out just fine. though it maybe tough but we can still make it cos we humans can do anything we want as long as we strive hard for it and work for the target we plot ourself. though plotting the target tooooo high may also make things hard for us. like people like to say, reach for the skys if u casnt reach for the stars. but the higher u climb the more it hurts when u fall. well it is realistic and a facts is always a facts. though it is wat i always tell myself but in the past sometimes i try to avoid it and making myself happy by illusinating and dreaming, but now when i have reach my current age, i felt that it is kinda silly of me to think like this cos what ever is to happen will happen, be it big or small it will happen. like us human, starts with just a sperm and ovary and slowly develope into a baby taking 9 months long and later we are been delivered. We slowly aged and learn things along the way every minutes and second. soon when it is time for use to leave this world and go to a better place we will just pass on.

it is a normal process of life, thought i am kinda upset bout the ns thingy but i thing i have no choice bout it. i guess there is somethings we have to surrender in life in order to exchange for our own freedoms. just like our parents, when i was young i always think that making a child is kinda easy, but wrecently when i think back, imagine how much they have to sacrifice just to give birth to us, not only the money but also the times and many other factors. thought i really have to admit i really let my parents down because i am a gay first of all and than also i am a total failure to them. thats why i have been trying my very best to patch up whatever it is and make my mum and my pass on dad happy. though i have told my mum about me being a gay and i was prepared for the worst where she would disown me and throw me out. but at the end, she accpeted me for being a gay smiling at me and told me that she really hope that i would try to change back for her sake. i told her i will try though. knowing that she is deeply hurt and upset makes me feel very down because she din even show any expression that she was sad but she smiled at me instead.

oh well, no matter what i am not gonna give up on myself and also what ever is gonna happen ^^ thought life is like always up and down but i believe i can get through it. my godma bao zhu is so cute and also not a normal lady, she could see the gods and reads people fortunes , though she knows that i am a gay she still accepted me. but when i told her bout my worries she say that i need not worry because someday i will become someone with a very good life and also very rich, i was like you must be joking right but oh well i just accepted it with a smile. but somethings she say bout me is really true. like the part she say, no one knows whether i am sad or not because i never show it on my face, and when i am upset i will just smile things off. outside i dont think of things but when i am at home alone lock up in my own room i tend to think of alot of things. so i guess i really hope what she say is gonna be true.

oh well it is getting late, so i guess i am gonna go off and slack haha .... u guys out there be it u are my friend or not, take care and enjoy ur lifes with ur dear once, each person only lives once and experiences everything once, each have only 1 mum and 1 dad so treasure them much no matter how they treat u or hate u but still we have to love them ^^ thought we are gays and already being dislike by the public but we are still humans. dont care bout what people call us and be strong ^^ tc all my friends ^^ love u guys. LOVE U MUMMY and MY DEAR