alliance ? hostile ? peace ? war ? which is the best out of this 4 ?

Someone use to tell me this that everyone's life is like a piece of plain paper where u will have to draw and colour it. i do agree with it, but some how , not always the piece of plain paper can be beautifully coloured as some colours cant be match with each other. Same thing are applied when it comes to friendship too. There are some who are just really out to make friends, some is out to prey on others, some are out to be jealous of others because of who they are and what they are, some literally is out to just create chaos and of cos some is just out to be a puppet master who trys to make people into their puppet.

Some how, now adays i notice, when friends always get really close, alot of us will think that we know alot about them, but seriously, i dont think so. but the best part is, some of them u do really know them inside out and yet they still try to deny the fact and try to make themself a very mysterious person, trying to change themself or should i say reform themself into someone else so as to let people never know about their true personality. Some are just literally stubborn, so what can we do, just suck thumb and see how that silly person continue to be a full fledge fool.

There are times where i always have a thought in my mind such as "why do i have friends who are like that ?" and i do question myself further,

1) heavens will ?
2) Just my bloody luck ?
3) testing my patience ?
4) or just a puddle of water which have to pass by ?

i keep asking and asking myself, and today i kinda found out the answer by myself, like i always say in this world there are different kinda people, thats why this world is form. There are always people who go against each other and there are some where they can never be friends ? and in some cases there are some where they do become friends and slowly conflicts starts to happen.

Showing them concern and care is just like a waste of time after the person keep trying to make u agitated and unhappy, but i just let him continue his nonsense, sad to say, the tolerance for such attitude is wearing off, and the best part was he told me to search my soul and think of my attitude and he just cut off the phone, but lets put it this way who should be the one ? that person should know where his stands are as compared to mine. He maybe a bussiness man but in my eyes he is just a over grown person with no realistic attitude. A attitude which minority maybe able to endure but not to the majority. One who dont face reality, running away from reality , grabbing to what he wants but never accept what people see or say, even when we tell him that it is not just piece of rock is piece but it is a piece of unrefine jade. he will still stand on his points and say it is just a piece of rock.

Thats why now a days, i cant really be bothered with him, and feel like i should slowly fade aways and not contact him any further, talking to him without the slightest interest was a volunteering action without even me noticing. Now a days when we speak even the smallest issue we can get into a arguement, so to me whats the use of maintaining a friendship which is already a plate of rotten food. i strive not to give and try to maintain the friendship but my effort is not very effective, and worst he say that i always wanna win and never think of him. but did he do the same thing which he said ? but giving him the benefit of doubt i still take it as thought he was joking but still it is abit too much.

But looking at how things goes naturally for a rabbit and chicken , a rabbit can never be friend with a chicken, as the character of the both clashes. it is just like the water and the fire, where one will try to over rule the other and will never be good friends. one is the element of starting a life while the other is the element which leads to destruction.and without fail one will try to rule against the other naturally.

After thinking again and again over this issue and what have happen in the past few days, even after he and me have been friend for 1 year plus or even more, i believe and thinks that it is time. I guess since he dont wanna face the fact that our friendship is not working very well, and now a days we are starting to get distances as "brothers" i guess it is time. it is not a issue of who is the one who is in the wrong and who is in the right cos each of us have our point of view of the situation. when there is a argument each of use tend to be more unreasonable furthermore now a days the situation got worst. so thats is why i said it is just that our character dont match and cant be friends. since now a days u like to agitate me and want to make thing slimy for us. go ahead. my heart is already dead. as i have told u before, i am not a nice person , i am a guy with a dead heart who can just give and take and forget about everything just like that. and even when u are begging me on ur knees, i will not turn back on my decision and will still stick to my decision. i am a very cold hearted person cos i was trained to be like this since young. So dont say i take for granted for whatever things i have in life. But u should be the one who should not take advantage of the things in life. the quality of life u have as compared to mine u should know who is the more fortunate one. so dont say that i am the one taking things for granted.

So on this memorable date 26th May 2009 with this posting on my blog, i have decided that i think we should not waste anymore time, u take ur path in life and i will take mine, wish u all the best with ur soon to be boyfriend. Enjoy urself and dont get hurt, think twice as hard when u do something. It is time where we should part and never contact each other anymore. Becos i feel that it is better for us to lead our own life and dont make things so complicated anymore. Dont bother to contact me anymore, i feel there is no reason to keep in contact. so good byw my good friend. i wish u happiness and health.

OMG POSTING ORDER OUT AND IT SUX ~

today is a shocking day for me as today my new camp called me to go and report in tomorrow, but to my horror, they said that my new camp is no different from where i am .... it is stilll located still at changi area, and guess where am i staying ? batok area .., imagine my job is 8 to 5 and every day i have to travel like nobodies bussiness .. u just imagine my goodness. even my platooon commander said it was abit too much. but anyway, it is ok bah since my Platoon commander is trying to change for me my posting, and lucky me i still have 12 more days of mc to allow my asthma to get better.

So i hope by the end of the 12 day, i will get my new posting and it will be like NEAR to my home and now one end to the other end of singapore again. i find it rather stupid that they did such stunning thing, for example my friend who stays at pasir ris, they gave him a posting at Gombak camp which is like so near to me and for me i am given changi one of thecamp there, why cant they just give me the gombak camp and than that guy the changi area camp right ?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, 2 weeks of enlistment only and i am staying to turn mah .... OMG pls some one help me before i go mad again ~~~ and pls IMG pls pls pls leave me a nice room with the city view, * wonder will i still know whats is outside when i am already mad*. but anyway today when i left my old camp i said good byes to my sgt and platoon commander, if i go back i sure wanna et my platoon sgt number hahaha

Oh well it is getting really late, so i guess i will head to bed and rest tooo tired and my eye are shutting itself , so good night all and love u guys . MUmmy i love u the most~~~ muacks ~~~ love u mummy and a happy mothers day ~

PINK DOT EVENT

THOUGH THERE IS NOTHING MUCH I CAN DO, THEREFORE I WILL ONLY HELP TO SPREAD ABOUT THE PINK DOT EVENT WHICH IS GOING TO HAPPEN SOON~ FOR PEOPLE OUT THERE BE IT YOU ARE STAIGHT , GAY , LESBIAN OR BI SEXUAL , PLS SUPPORT , THIS EVENT I NOT A PROTEST NOR A PARADE IT IS JUST A SIMPLE CALL OUT TO OPEN MINDED SINGAPOREANS OUT THERE, TO TELL PEOPLE LIKE US THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE IN THE SOCIETY WHO ACCEPT US FOR WHO WE ARE AND WHAT WE ARE ...SO PLEASE DO GO THERE AND SUPPORT ~~

Venue: The field at Hong Lim Park
Date & Time: May 16 (Sat), 4.30pm
What to wear: Pink (caps, hats, glasses, sunglasses and accessories are recommended)

SORRY GUYS THATS ALL I COULD DO ~~~ JY

ahhhhhhhh almost ot admitted to IMH~~~

Omg... people told me going ns is going to be physically stressed up and also total lost of freedom .... i agree with the lost of freedom part but omg the physiclly stressed up part is kinda true but the worst is the part where we get metally tortured ~~~~ omg ~~~~~ go in on the24 april (friday ) than on the 27 April (monday ) after medical review knna oot .... once the oot thing started ii was the start of mental stress .... omg completely doing nothing ... sit there .... initially we wereallowed to read new papers and soon after "someone" said wha u trerat here as a holiday resort is it and soon we were like statue and staring at each other doing nohing ..... i am like so sick .... and further more the weather thre was causing my asthma to get from bad to worst ..... anyway when i say the mo he said i needed to get a appointment to see the asthma doctor and lucky i went to see and i found out that it was kinda serious ...

hiaz well going to ns has it pros and con ....... the pros are as followed ~~~

Pros :
1 ) see all kinds of people
2 ) have alot of free stuff
3 ) free food
4 ) lots of free things
5 ) cheap hair cut
6 ) make new friends
7 ) learn that going into tekong is a stressful things for straight guys but a "paradise" for us LoL
8 ) nice scenes~~~~
( hahhaa my bunk is like a resort to me cos i can see air planes landing and taking off from my bed )

the cos are as followed ~~~

Cons :
1 ) waste alot of time
2 ) kenna treated like not a human
3 ) hear alot of vulgarities
4 ) no freedoms
5 ) always get confused by who to listen to ...
6 ) alot of idiots who like to spoil markets and keep trying to chao keng ...
7 ) lose contact with main land
8 ) book out only reach main land will totally bcome mountain tortise

Lol anyway, when we were in there we were told that we are not allowed to say anything negative or blog anything negative about SAF so i guess what i siad is not considered as negative and it will not spoil SAF name i guess ( as the reputation of SAF out there is kinda bad liao ). Any way when i was in there for 1 week , i notice i have very nice superiors and there were alot of nice people around ^.^ lucky me ~~~ anyway ns is kinda fun in some way and also bad in some ways , but who cares, my moto is to remember the happiness and forget the unhappiness, but for me when i go in i suffered alot cos the effort i spent to control for my asthma have totally gone down to the drain due to the weather there, i spent 2 years controlling it and at the end of the day it got worst after i got enlisted for 3 days, so i guess i have to start from scratch again ....

anyway iwas really shock when i attended my appointment on the 4th of may at a government hospital, i collected my medicines for 2 month and it cost me SGD 600 plus ~~~~ omg lucky i was on the plan by the goverment where my medicine was all on 50 % off the original cost and on top of that it is paid by my "BOSS" via the universal credit card (11 b ) lol ! anyway,when i was in tekong, i as lucky to have the best OC , PC , storeman m clerk and DIs~~~ hahaha from what i list you should know the whole company dont really like who huh hahaha ~~~~~ but anyway, i wish all my buddies and all my company line people all the best an jia you in all what u guys do and have a grand POC haha guys jy ~~~ as for me i guess i will be down pes ~~~ and than i will not be going back for recourse i hope cos of my medical lol !!!!!!!!!! but the thing that i will never forget in tekong will be my company line , my PCs ~~ OC ~~ DIs ~~ OOTS buddies ~~ storeman ~~ clerk ~~ company buddies ~~ and of cos my bunk mates hahaha ~~~

Anyway , i will miss all my buddies and my company line people ~~~ i wish everyone in my company line ~~~ good luck ~~~ all thebest ~~~ may the goddess of war Athena , a greek goddess well known for her strong character and wisdom, be with u so u can conquer every hardship u face with wisdom and confidence. but of cos when the goddness of war is there her best companion the goddessof victory , nike will be there too ... so my buddies jy ~~~ !