Like have been as bored as ever. Time have passed and i have serve 2 months plus of ns ... It sux to a certain extend but i have gave some really nice Boss and upper studies ^^
But since time have passed i notice i have quite a comfortable life and i really like to continue to work with my current bosses and upper studies haha.
Anyway, this monday, LOL i was being send home cos i had a fever of 37.7 lol .. i was send to the medical center and they screen my temperature lol it was 38.2 LOL and i was send home with a 1 week MC haha !!!!!!! funny huh ? but i guess it is to prevent the soread if H1N1 if u have it LOL .. but sad to say i dont have IT hahaha !!! i have fever but no flu so i cant be having it unless u tell me it is possible that i dont have Flu and still can get the SWINE FLU than why is it called as a stupid flu siak !
But anyway i am now trying to count down to my ord LOL which is 1 year and 10 months more LOL still a long way more to go LOL.
Hiaz i am really bored and i dunno what to talk about T^T
anyway yesterday i quarreled with someone regarding the importance of looks. Is it really that important or till a certain extend ? or rather the personalities of one is more important ?
We had a long arguement regarding this matter. But my stand is still, Looks is not the most important thing in this world. Becos no matter how good looking are u but u have a lousy personality no one will still like you. It is as good as a extremely nice vase that can even be use to hold flowers for display. Or rather when u go for a interview, with just ur looks the "boss" will hire u just becos of u looks or ur qualifications and ur experience ?
but oh well i hope u guys who read my blog will comment about it ^^ thanx so pls do leave comments on the shout box ^^ muacks love u guys and i love u mummy !!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Sad, Unhappiness, Moodless. Tried failed and now doubt ... whats next ? Ill treatment ?
Hiaz, i was actually kinda upset today by what had happen in camp. First, i was ill for a period of time and totally was weak and sick. Thanx to my close friend, when ever i needed him, he will accompany me to the polyclinic to see a doctor and if i am alone and really cant travel i will go to the nearest private clinic to see a doctor. But to my horror, my camp thinks that i am "faking to be ill". I was like omg and so on. But so be it . At the end i really got tired of things and when my last visit to the polyclinic i ask the doctor to prescribe me with Anti Biotics since my flu was like more than 2 weeks and it has cause me unable to sleep. So finally, the following monday i was so so much better though the Flu like symtoms was there i still "forced" myself out of bed and headed to my camp.
Once when i was back in camp i saw my officers and majority of them was kinda nice. I literally felled in loved with my officers and i thought it is ok i will try my best. And try my very best at what ever task i am given. But to my horror. This was what they told me. " From today onwards u are only allowed to report sick at Tuas or Changi otherwise Only Government Structured Hospitals"> Come on man i am staying at bukit Gombak ... the nearest hospital is like 30 mins ride aways from my house ... Isnt that abit too much ? I told myself nvm ... One of my officers is so nice that he now offered to give me a ride to work everyday. I was so happy and all of my officers are nice except for a few, the few is like really few, i was so touched by my few caring officers that even thought this 2 weeks i have force myself to report to work even when i am feeling unwell . But in office i just tried to put on a smile and also acted cheerful as though nothing was happening. I tried my best to tolerate any discomfort, even when there was a few occation when i was feeling very dizzy that i almost fainted i still kept quiet and work with what ever task i was given. I still kept quiet.
But today, i have tolerated more than enough. Even after they give me some very UNREASONABLE guide lines to follow AND i just followed it and kept quiet. The UNREASONABLE guide line was to report sick at only SAF medical center which was located at Tuas or Changi otherwise only Government Stuctured Hospital. Iwas fine with it i give and take. But to my horror, today they said this to me.
" Since u have not been back to the office for a period of time, it is only fair that u be the duty clerk. (i was still fine about it) The task of a duty clerk was to open the office by 8am ,man the office during lunch, draw news papers and open mail box. I was still ok. ( Since i am able to reach the office by 8 am if my officers gave me a ride). but there was a few problems :
1 ) i can never reach the office by 8 am if i were to travel on my own sdince the entire ride from my home to my work place is like more than 2 hours ride.But i told my Chief Clerk that i may not be able to reach the office by 8 if i were to travel by myself by mrt. So i told her if that was the case i can only reach at about 830 am or slightly later she said ok.
2 ) Next was manning the office, Well this part i was ok with it thought since manning of he office was nothing much. All i have to do was to look after the office when my officers was having lunch.So i was still pretty fince with it.
3 ) The other problem i was really quite angry was, when they told me this, they said that i have another option, which was if i was playing PUNK , and i just admit that i was playing PUNK. All those unreasonable guide lines and so call PRIVILEGE will be reinstated and i will have to go though what ever punishment needed. AND I WAS LIKE !@#$%^&* WTH PEOPLE IS LIKE SUFFERING ALL THE WAY AT HOME AND U THINK I AM JUST PLAYING PUNK ?!?!?!??!?
> do u think this was fair to me ?
4 ) the was the last and the final problem that also really pissed me off was that " I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS EXTRA DUTIES TILL ALL THE FURTHER INVESTIGATION IS COMPLETED AND HAVE COME TO A END" meaning ? if the investigation goes on for 1 year i do 1 year extra duties ?
> So at the end they mean is to literally make me suffer, giving my stress which i am already very very stressed and also treatening me to say that if i wanna stop all this UNFAIR TREATMENT I MUST ACTUALLY ADMIT ???? WHEN I DID NOY EVEN LIKE FAKE ?
After all this happened, it was a nice day for me but after lunch, when all this was told to me. My day was totally spoiled, destroyed and ruined. I was totally moody all the way. I controlled my emotion. I almost cired at my upper studies cubicle. But i din i endured all of it till i reached home. I cried for literally 2 hours. I tried my best and this is how i get treated. I EVEN LITERALLY ENDURED WHAT EVER DISCOMFORT JUST TO GO BACK TO CAMP COS I REALLY LOVED MY NEW UNIT.
WHY JUST NORMAL HEALTHY PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND US PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAKER IN OUR HEALTH ? JUST BECOS WE KEEP GETTING SICK THAN U JUST TREAT US AS SOME PUNKSTER OR FAKER ? HOW THEY WAN US TO PROOF TO THEM ? LET THEM INVESTIGATE ? THAN AFTER THAT WHEN WE ARE REALLY SICK I NEED TO TRAVEL BACK TO CHANGI REPORT SICK, BUT SOME HOW DURING HALF WAY OF THE TRIP TO CHANGI I KICKED THE BUCKET ??
I am like OMG all the way u know ? I know it is by law for us Singaporean guys to serve National Service. But we are human also u know ? We are born in Singapore as human being NOT SLAVE and further more i dont think i owe ANYONE ANTHING ONLY THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE TROUBLE TO TEACH CARE AND LOVE ME, ENDURED THE PAIN AND LOSE LOTS OF BLOOD TO BORN ME and that person is no one but my mum. What is there for me to repay to the country ? They are not even helping us in anything. Thye just implement the structures and used our money to start the thing moving thats all. I am fine with NS but come on at least treat us like some HUMAN not dog or animal. But what ever it is. I am just gonna keep cool and keep quiet. BUT I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE CONTINUING ... I JUST REALLY HOPE NOW TO BE WITH MY FATHER ... BUT I ALSO CANT BEAR TO LEAVE MY MOTHER .... I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED .... AND UPSET ... AND THE QUESTION THAT IS STILL LINGRING IN MY HEAD NOW ... IS IT JUST BECOS IT IS A WHAT EVER POLICY AND MAKING IT A COMPULSORY ISSUE AND THEY CAN JUST IMPLY AS AND WHAT THEY LIKE COS THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE ? EVEN WHEN IT IS UNREASONABLE ? FURTHER MORE WITH THE H1N1 THING. IMAGINE IF I AM H1 N1 POSITIVE AND I AM STILL DO NOT KNOW AND I TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TILL I REACH CHANGI THAN I KNOW I AM POSITIVE WITH IT. HOW MANY PERSON AM I GOING TO GET INVOLVED ? THOUSANDS ?
AM I THE ONLY ONE OR ARE THERE PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEM OUT THERE ? BUT BEING SILENCED ??
Once when i was back in camp i saw my officers and majority of them was kinda nice. I literally felled in loved with my officers and i thought it is ok i will try my best. And try my very best at what ever task i am given. But to my horror. This was what they told me. " From today onwards u are only allowed to report sick at Tuas or Changi otherwise Only Government Structured Hospitals"> Come on man i am staying at bukit Gombak ... the nearest hospital is like 30 mins ride aways from my house ... Isnt that abit too much ? I told myself nvm ... One of my officers is so nice that he now offered to give me a ride to work everyday. I was so happy and all of my officers are nice except for a few, the few is like really few, i was so touched by my few caring officers that even thought this 2 weeks i have force myself to report to work even when i am feeling unwell . But in office i just tried to put on a smile and also acted cheerful as though nothing was happening. I tried my best to tolerate any discomfort, even when there was a few occation when i was feeling very dizzy that i almost fainted i still kept quiet and work with what ever task i was given. I still kept quiet.
But today, i have tolerated more than enough. Even after they give me some very UNREASONABLE guide lines to follow AND i just followed it and kept quiet. The UNREASONABLE guide line was to report sick at only SAF medical center which was located at Tuas or Changi otherwise only Government Stuctured Hospital. Iwas fine with it i give and take. But to my horror, today they said this to me.
" Since u have not been back to the office for a period of time, it is only fair that u be the duty clerk. (i was still fine about it) The task of a duty clerk was to open the office by 8am ,man the office during lunch, draw news papers and open mail box. I was still ok. ( Since i am able to reach the office by 8 am if my officers gave me a ride). but there was a few problems :
1 ) i can never reach the office by 8 am if i were to travel on my own sdince the entire ride from my home to my work place is like more than 2 hours ride.But i told my Chief Clerk that i may not be able to reach the office by 8 if i were to travel by myself by mrt. So i told her if that was the case i can only reach at about 830 am or slightly later she said ok.
2 ) Next was manning the office, Well this part i was ok with it thought since manning of he office was nothing much. All i have to do was to look after the office when my officers was having lunch.So i was still pretty fince with it.
3 ) The other problem i was really quite angry was, when they told me this, they said that i have another option, which was if i was playing PUNK , and i just admit that i was playing PUNK. All those unreasonable guide lines and so call PRIVILEGE will be reinstated and i will have to go though what ever punishment needed. AND I WAS LIKE !@#$%^&* WTH PEOPLE IS LIKE SUFFERING ALL THE WAY AT HOME AND U THINK I AM JUST PLAYING PUNK ?!?!?!??!?
> do u think this was fair to me ?
4 ) the was the last and the final problem that also really pissed me off was that " I HAVE TO DO ALL THIS EXTRA DUTIES TILL ALL THE FURTHER INVESTIGATION IS COMPLETED AND HAVE COME TO A END" meaning ? if the investigation goes on for 1 year i do 1 year extra duties ?
> So at the end they mean is to literally make me suffer, giving my stress which i am already very very stressed and also treatening me to say that if i wanna stop all this UNFAIR TREATMENT I MUST ACTUALLY ADMIT ???? WHEN I DID NOY EVEN LIKE FAKE ?
After all this happened, it was a nice day for me but after lunch, when all this was told to me. My day was totally spoiled, destroyed and ruined. I was totally moody all the way. I controlled my emotion. I almost cired at my upper studies cubicle. But i din i endured all of it till i reached home. I cried for literally 2 hours. I tried my best and this is how i get treated. I EVEN LITERALLY ENDURED WHAT EVER DISCOMFORT JUST TO GO BACK TO CAMP COS I REALLY LOVED MY NEW UNIT.
WHY JUST NORMAL HEALTHY PEOPLE CANT UNDERSTAND US PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAKER IN OUR HEALTH ? JUST BECOS WE KEEP GETTING SICK THAN U JUST TREAT US AS SOME PUNKSTER OR FAKER ? HOW THEY WAN US TO PROOF TO THEM ? LET THEM INVESTIGATE ? THAN AFTER THAT WHEN WE ARE REALLY SICK I NEED TO TRAVEL BACK TO CHANGI REPORT SICK, BUT SOME HOW DURING HALF WAY OF THE TRIP TO CHANGI I KICKED THE BUCKET ??
I am like OMG all the way u know ? I know it is by law for us Singaporean guys to serve National Service. But we are human also u know ? We are born in Singapore as human being NOT SLAVE and further more i dont think i owe ANYONE ANTHING ONLY THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE TROUBLE TO TEACH CARE AND LOVE ME, ENDURED THE PAIN AND LOSE LOTS OF BLOOD TO BORN ME and that person is no one but my mum. What is there for me to repay to the country ? They are not even helping us in anything. Thye just implement the structures and used our money to start the thing moving thats all. I am fine with NS but come on at least treat us like some HUMAN not dog or animal. But what ever it is. I am just gonna keep cool and keep quiet. BUT I REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE CONTINUING ... I JUST REALLY HOPE NOW TO BE WITH MY FATHER ... BUT I ALSO CANT BEAR TO LEAVE MY MOTHER .... I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED .... AND UPSET ... AND THE QUESTION THAT IS STILL LINGRING IN MY HEAD NOW ... IS IT JUST BECOS IT IS A WHAT EVER POLICY AND MAKING IT A COMPULSORY ISSUE AND THEY CAN JUST IMPLY AS AND WHAT THEY LIKE COS THEY ARE WHO THEY ARE ? EVEN WHEN IT IS UNREASONABLE ? FURTHER MORE WITH THE H1N1 THING. IMAGINE IF I AM H1 N1 POSITIVE AND I AM STILL DO NOT KNOW AND I TRAVEL ALL THE WAY TILL I REACH CHANGI THAN I KNOW I AM POSITIVE WITH IT. HOW MANY PERSON AM I GOING TO GET INVOLVED ? THOUSANDS ?
AM I THE ONLY ONE OR ARE THERE PEOPLE WITH THE SAME PROBLEM OUT THERE ? BUT BEING SILENCED ??
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