hmmm ....

hi everyone,

It has been quite some time ever since i updated my bloggy. Since i am on holiday now i thought might as well i will update alittle. Life have changed ever since i have left the SAF. After 2 years of hard "slavery" i am not trying to adept to the life of a human being. It is tough to adept to the change .. but who cares ... i am adepting to it one way or another... oh well since i hve not update my blog so long i though for this time round i would just post something short =D

cya guys around =)

See the end of my NS days.

A couple of days ago , some one messaged me on my msn and told me " hey dude, you have not update your blog for so long when you gonna update?" i was like laughing all the way because i almost forgot about my blog. Anyway apologies for not updating my blog. Firstly i am in NS and i am rarely have time for myself or my family there for i am really sorry.

But the good news is since my ns is ending soon and i will be going back to studies. I will more time to attend to this blog which i have neglected for so long. I will try my best to update and blog on interesting things that i come across if possible. But knowing me i never like to go town area or so. But still i believe there will be interesting thing lying all over for my to blog about though.

Oh well today is the 10th day of the Lunar New Year. Things till so far for me have been a little pitchy but i guess at the end of the day things will be fine. I am kinda a little pissed off with somethings though.

Recently there are this few guys who like to sms me non sense. One would tell me that he is interested in me , wants me to be his bf and so on. But i felt that his motive were not so innocent. But oh welll i guess just play along would be fun. *Giggle* But i guess this is what gay relation ship is all about. But anyway, Just to hint to that guy, i am seeing someone i really like and we are doing quite fine for now. Hahaha =x

The other guy, keep smsing me saying he is how depressed how upset with some therapy making him look ugly and destroying his body. But when i look at his picture. Everything looks fine to me. I told him everything was fine and he said that i was just trying to make him feel better. And when i said i am serious he said my eye is failing and at the same time he Farked me. WTH you are in a bad mood, i am tell you the facts and you F me. What kinda logic is that ? Lend you a listening ear , share my thoughts and at the end i get farked ?

Hiaz. I dont really get it but sometimes i find people too superficial and at the end they get themselves into trouble. All i can say. Each of us is born with pro and cons. Non of us is perfect. Be happy with what you have and you will be happy forever. Thats all i can say. Oh well. I have to go. I have to bring my granny to my relative place and after that rush for a dinner at chevron. I will try to update my bloggy soon so cya my fellow readers =)

IDiOtIC GuY !

OH MY God ... Early morning and someone is trying to get on my nerve ... guess what ? this guy by the name of RXXX told someone that i SLEEP AROUND ALOT ! and HE FACK ME BEFORE ! and when i confronted him he told me i am sorry i told him it was typo ! and i was joking only ? WOW ?

U see, such people do exist for the sake LEISURE he will just simply tell tall tales about others that would defame one and when someone confront him for what he have utter, he will just say sorry !!! i was just joking and I have told that person it was typo or rather "type wrong stuff to him" or " talking to another friend" ?AND AFTER THAT HE KEPT APOLOGIZING. IF u guys were to be in my shoe will u guy believe on what he say ? COME ON LA OK ? STUPID PEOPLE ALSO KNOW WHAT U SAID IS JUST A LIE zzz ...

HE CONTINUED TO APOLOGIZE AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS I even ask him what will u feel if i have done the same thing to u. HE say he will feel baD.. he is not wstupid and he knows how it feels to be in the situation but he did not think of what will happen after he did it ... DUMB right ? He know how to do it to people ... but he never think for people ?

Come on if u guys are in my shoe and this happen to u. Will u even forgive him and keep him as a friend to allow him to even back stab u more ? And this situation is just the same as when u go into a shop and u broke something u have to pay for it. Once damage is done nothing can be done. U can repair but the flaws is always there .

Now guys let me ask u this questions.

- If u were me will u forgive him ?

- Will u wanna have this type of friend ?

- Is he even a friend in a first placE ?

PS - "twink18 (R---) and edward(G---) " - thanx ah ... twink18 ( R - - - ) sorry but i dont think i will forgive u ... take care and enjoy ur life ... i dont need friends like U who fabricate informations and back stab.

Extra information - he stays in novena and his msn is - Ra--_martin--- @ hotmail . com

20th day of happiness~~

it has been for awhile since i have updated my blog, with NS taking up majority of my time. i can hardly even sit infront of my com and slack and think of what to write on my blog. But since i have a little extra time today. I thought why not post something on my blog.

Today it marks the 20th day of me and my bf together once it passes 12.01 am. We were attached to on the 01 Jan 10 at 12.01 am. Though i am in NS, and he is working we still try to make out time for each other. I am so happy that i have known him.

We began as normal friends and we din even meet before. we chat on line and over the phone. But have never met until afew months later. Oh our first meeting, i was really nervous and excited at the same time. While i waited for him at the bus stop near my place, while my heart was beating so fast that it was as though it was going to pop out.

Things went well on our first meeting and soon it was our second meeting, we went to jurong point on new years eve and after that he came over my place to stay over and spent the new year together. When the clock strike 12 and it was new year ... i ask him will he agree to be my bf.... and he actually agreed. I was so happy at that point in time.

Time pass ... and we are almost together for 3 weeks... i am so happy that he have agreed on becoming on my bf. He was so sweet to even accompany me for my medical appointment.

Guess i have found my Mr Right after so much time have pass. Hope it would be my first longest relationship and my last one. MUACKS love you my dear .

tolerated to the max ... but someone just push the red button...

all i wanted to do was to keep quiet hoping for that someone to really think of what he did was wrong and apologize. But this person din ... and he did the worst thing ever ... he posted about me on his blog ... and well well welll guess what ? what he type is all what i did but he never type what he did ? cute huh ? his posting was a one sided one and he still have the cheek to ask me to read ? wonderful ... so lets talk about things here .... lets beginning on msn ?

i have afew msn account y ? becos i have alot of friends ... and it just so happen that u are in 3 of them ? i have afew msn account to separate the str8s and the gays .. and i dont wanna mix them up thats all ? lets put it this way ... when one account is at it maximum and i cant add people in any more ... how ? of cos i create a new one right ? i am not sooo heartless as to delete people off my msn ... it is sooo simple if u think i am just creating it for the sake to hide my identity sorry i am not...

next let talk about what we chat on msn ?

On msn i ask what was his name ? and he told me a name ? (in the beginning i take it as a real name and i trusted him ? but soon i find out about his real name ... and he din even initiate to tell me that the name he told me was not his real name) ... it is ok .... we continued the chatting .... and when i ask him to meet ? he say i was a sex manic ??? and i din even mention saying to come my house ... i said lets meet for supper and slack and if it is too late u can stay over if u wanna ... ( see his power of assuming ? ) nvm .... i tolerated cos i believe it is not nice to just shelve them just becos they like to assume things as it is a nature of a human ... so i continued to believe it is alreight but i told him i dont like people to any how assume things ... come on who would like it ?

i admit i knew him from IRC ...but this guy just got worst as mins past after i met him .... we chat on msn and soon i decided to meet him .. so i ask him over to slack chat and know more about each other... he ask me if i stay alone ... and i told him i have my own room ... and i din say i was staying alone ? and i did tell him i was staying with my granny and tenant but they will not be bothered about it. So i met him ...

On our first meeting .... he saw me and i know he was shock cos i i do not look like how i appeared in my pic ... but it is a fact ? come on which person will style their hair just becos of supper and slack further more i just came home from a long day or work ? u will but i will not i am not soooo attention seeking .... but it is ok ... i dont wanna say much ... subsequently we ended up at my place and got into alittle romance chat alitttle and soon we talk about what we wanted from each other ... all i said was care, love and concern .... now guys let me ask u a question ... CONCERN means what ? Look after one and other and help each other right ? but guess what ? his concern is DIG ON UR PAST RELATIONSHIP ... I TOLD MYSELF SAID IT IS OK TO TELL HIM SINCE THERE IS NOTHING TO HIDE ABOUT? BUT THE PART THAT REALLY FLARE ME UP WAS HE FORCEFULLY WANTED TO KNOW THE NAMES OF MY EX AND OTHER INFORMATION ? U WAN PEOPLE TO RESPECT UR PRIVACY BUT U KEEP FORCING ME TO TELL U THE NAME OF MY EX IS IT CALL AS RESPECTING OR OTHERS PRIVACY ?

GUYS KINDLY TELL ME YES OR NO ?
to me it is NO ...now how about another issue a more recent one ...

Last week when we met ... he told me that he wanna go to lady gaga night with his close buddy name "B" i said ok ... since u are going on a Saturday night so i said we meet on friday ... he said ok .... afew days later he called me and said "hubby i am going to "b's" house on friday night ... and when i told him din we agree on meeting that night ? u know what was his reply ? u got tell me meh ?? ( NOW GUYS ... IF U WERE ME HOW WLL U FEEL ? WILL U GET ANGRY ? DO I HAVE THE RIGHT TO EVEN GET ANGRY ?) WHEN EVER I CALL HIM ... HE WILL JUST TALK FOR THE SAKE OF TALKING AND WHEN WE SAY BYE BYE , HE WILL JUST HANG UP WHEN I TELL HIM GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS ?? WHEN I TALK TO HIM THINGS ... U CAN HEAR THAT IS IS NOT EVEN PAYING ANY ATTENTION TO WHAT I AM SAYING .... LIKE FOR EXAMPLE THE ISSUE WHERE I TOLD HIM TO MEET ON FRI HE DIN EVEN HEAR IT AT ALL .... SO NOW GUYS TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? SERIOUSLY TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? AND SHOULD HE BE SAYING SORRY IF HE EVEN OVER LOOK IT ?

Now adays he is even more classy .... with all this issue it is obvious that who is in the wrong ... but sad to say ... he dont wanna admit IT and tell me what i wan from him ? isn't it obvious ? and worst he say i am jealous of him to be with "b" LOL ? Wow ? pretty obvious situation but he just point the mistakes at me ? Coool huh ? Now he is just point all the mistake at me and feels that is is sooo perfect ? But seriosly after thinking the issue for so many times i dont feel that i am in any wrong ..... and worst ... i tolerated his non sense again and again and he just take it for granted .... i gave in soooo many times and he say what ? I SHOULD UNDERSTAND HIM ? WOW ?

THE OTHER ISSUE I WANNA COMMENT AND I WILL BOLD IT ... I SMS HIM GOOD MORNINGS AND ALL WE SMS CHAT ? AND IN A DAY WE CAN SMS CHAT FOR LIKE MAYBE 10 PLUS TO 20 SMSES ?HE TOLD ME IT WAS EXPENSIVE I SAID OK ... AND TRY TO REDUCE I SAID OK ... SUBSUQUENTLY WE REDUCE TO 10 PLUS SMS AND HE SAID SMS HIM WHEN IT IS IMPORTANT ONLY ? IF U GUYS WERE TO BE IN MY SHOE ... HOW WILL U FEEL ? FIRSTLY I WILL THINK WHAT AM I TO U ? IT IS OK NVM I TOOK IT JUST AS A "BAD JOKE AND SUCK THINGS UP" I DIN WANNA SAY ANYTHING MUCH ...

Soon he had to attend a training i said ok ... first day of his training i was worried he cant wake up and i sms him ... worried and anxious about things i sms him afew times and finally he replied ... he told me he was late ... and i ask than cant u tell me u are already up ? he told me what ? aiya i was preparing mah no time to reply u ? ( i got angry but i controlled ) and that was the last sms i got from him till later part f the day ... after smsing him soo many times ... and i din even see a word sorry and he told me this ... aiya i doing important things mah and was not free ... i was like WTF WHAT U DOING IS IMPORTANTANT AND U ARE BUSY ... CANT U JUST TELL ME SMS ME LATER ? RATHER THAN LETTING ME GET WORRIED OF WHAT HAPPENED TO U ? ( GUYS TELL ME WHAT DID I DO WRONG ?? )

guys after reading all that has happen ? stunning right that there are such people in this world ? and till now all the facts is pointing that he is in the wrong ? and he still have the cheek to tell me that " TILL NOW U ARE THE ONLY GUY THAT I HAVE TREATED U THE BEST ???????? " WHAT IS HE IMPLYING ?? TELLING PEOPLE THAT U HAVE BEEN ILL TREASTING UR EXs ? LIKE WHAT U HAVE BEEN DOING TO ME ? AND WHAT EVER U DO WRONG I MUST ACCEPT AND THINK IT IS OK ? WOW SORRY MAN BUT I AM NOT LIKE THAT .. WHEN U ARE WRONG I EXPECT U TO LEARN FROM IT SAY SORRY AND NEVER REPEAT IT .... BUT I GUES U CANT DO IT ... U ARE TOO SPOILED ... AND THINK TOOO HIGHLY OF URSELF ... IF U STILL WANNA THINK THAT U ARE IN NO WRONG GO AHEAD .... NOW GUYS PLS COMMENT ON WHO IS IN THE WRONG I REALLY GAVE UP TALKING TO HIM FACTS ... AND ANSWERING TO HIS STUPID QUESTION OF " WHAT U WAN ME TO DO THAN U WILL BE SATISFIED ? " REALLY ALL THE ISSUE ABOVE IT IS PRETTY OBVIOUS RIGHT ? MUST I ELABORATE MORE ? AND TILL TODAY I STILL REMEMBER WHAT HE TOLD ME " U ARE A VERY HARD TO SATISFY GUY ?" WOW ... ASKING ONLY FOR CARE CONCERN AND LOVE VERY HARD MEH ? OR RATHER ARE U JUST FEELING THAT U ARE AT THE LOSING END AND JUST TRYING TO COVER UR LOSES ? I REALLY WONDER ... I AM RTIRED AND I AM OFF TO BED .... WHEN U ARE READY TO APOLOGIZE TELL ME BAH ... NITESSS

14 Days Together and still going stronger

Today is the 14th day we have been together. I feel excited and happy. Till today my baby and i have been as sweet as ever. Cant stop from thinking of each other every single moment .He maybe a playful and naughty little boyfriend of mine. But still he is the cuties and the sweetest. MUACKS !! Though my baby maybe stubborn but still i love him alot. At times when he knows that he is in the wrong, he will apologize and not give me ill attitudes that i dislike. He is alway treating me so sweet . i am so happy that i have him as a boyfriend. Last week , we went to catch the 3D movie called Caroline( i forgot how to spell it but i think is this way) it was a fantastic show and we both enjoyed it. While watching the show, we just simply cant resist the temptation of holding hands. We held to each other hands from the start of the movie to the end of the movie and definitely love was in the air. What i love about my boyfriend is the pureness in him and cheerful attitude he has and the best thing is you could see that he is real sincere about relationshi and not getting into the relationship just for the sake of one word and that word is non other than SEX. It is kinda hard to find such a boyfriend now. Now a days, the definition of boyfriend is no longer someone you love, care and share every single happy or sad moments together but rather the definition of a boyfriend now a days is all about sex and more sex. Dont you guys agree ?

A very special occasion to remember is the day 25th October 2009,
Moon and stars was shining brightly on that lovely night sky,
On that night was when we first met,
Shy and excited when i first saw you when we both met.

I fell in love with you at first sight.

Looking at you quietly and being nervous was inevitable.
Overcoming my nervousness and shyness.
Violating the law of nature was already bad.
Entering into a forbidden relationship was even worst.

Yet i still decide to be with you.
Overcoming my fear and nervousness with only 1 intention.
Ultimately wishing to be with you.

For once i targeted and intended to make things work.
Overcoming all odds.
Remaining calm.
Eager to know more about you.
Venting all my interest and concentration totally on you.
Eagerly gathered my confidence and bravery at that moment.
Related my feeling to you.

And the final result was, letting me have a lovely Boyfriend like you. I am so lucky. Therefore 25th October 2009 will be the day, where i will forever remember. MUACKS ! I Love You Baby !

Sorry my dear blog readers , i rarely have time to update my blog now .... NS sux and i cant comment on it. But still i will try to update for you guys to read.

LOVE YOU MUMMY AND BABY !!! MUACKS !!

4th Day with my Mister Right

Hahaha today is the 4th day we are together and it felt greater than ever. We just cant stop thinking of each other and we are looking forward to meet each other tomorrow hahaha !!!

So nice that i can finally get to settle down with someone as perfect as him. But still we still have alot of work to do to drive our relationship deeper.

Oh well we can say that things now are working fine and we both accepted who we are and what we both are and it is a good starting point for the both of us. Further more a relationship dont just work one way rather more of a 2 way thing and from how things are going now. It is going 2 way without any traffic jams. We both aim to develope this relationship more and be together with each other for as long as we can. Thought it may sound as thought it is impossible. But we believe if we both try hard. It will be the way we wanted.

The date that i will remember will be 25 Oct 09. It is the date we first met after chatting to each other for a long long time and on that day we got together and decided to be together. So BABY that date will be a special day for both of us.

It is a pleasure to have u as my bf and i am really lucky to have someone like u to be with me. Thanx for caring and loving me so much and i promise i will love u back as much. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS ONE.

Thanx for reading my blog.
Wish me luck.
I will try to update my blog as frequent as i can hehe !!!
Love u mummy and my little Hubby ~~