tolerated to the max ... but someone just push the red button...

all i wanted to do was to keep quiet hoping for that someone to really think of what he did was wrong and apologize. But this person din ... and he did the worst thing ever ... he posted about me on his blog ... and well well welll guess what ? what he type is all what i did but he never type what he did ? cute huh ? his posting was a one sided one and he still have the cheek to ask me to read ? wonderful ... so lets talk about things here .... lets beginning on msn ?

i have afew msn account y ? becos i have alot of friends ... and it just so happen that u are in 3 of them ? i have afew msn account to separate the str8s and the gays .. and i dont wanna mix them up thats all ? lets put it this way ... when one account is at it maximum and i cant add people in any more ... how ? of cos i create a new one right ? i am not sooo heartless as to delete people off my msn ... it is sooo simple if u think i am just creating it for the sake to hide my identity sorry i am not...

next let talk about what we chat on msn ?

On msn i ask what was his name ? and he told me a name ? (in the beginning i take it as a real name and i trusted him ? but soon i find out about his real name ... and he din even initiate to tell me that the name he told me was not his real name) ... it is ok .... we continued the chatting .... and when i ask him to meet ? he say i was a sex manic ??? and i din even mention saying to come my house ... i said lets meet for supper and slack and if it is too late u can stay over if u wanna ... ( see his power of assuming ? ) nvm .... i tolerated cos i believe it is not nice to just shelve them just becos they like to assume things as it is a nature of a human ... so i continued to believe it is alreight but i told him i dont like people to any how assume things ... come on who would like it ?

i admit i knew him from IRC ...but this guy just got worst as mins past after i met him .... we chat on msn and soon i decided to meet him .. so i ask him over to slack chat and know more about each other... he ask me if i stay alone ... and i told him i have my own room ... and i din say i was staying alone ? and i did tell him i was staying with my granny and tenant but they will not be bothered about it. So i met him ...

On our first meeting .... he saw me and i know he was shock cos i i do not look like how i appeared in my pic ... but it is a fact ? come on which person will style their hair just becos of supper and slack further more i just came home from a long day or work ? u will but i will not i am not soooo attention seeking .... but it is ok ... i dont wanna say much ... subsequently we ended up at my place and got into alittle romance chat alitttle and soon we talk about what we wanted from each other ... all i said was care, love and concern .... now guys let me ask u a question ... CONCERN means what ? Look after one and other and help each other right ? but guess what ? his concern is DIG ON UR PAST RELATIONSHIP ... I TOLD MYSELF SAID IT IS OK TO TELL HIM SINCE THERE IS NOTHING TO HIDE ABOUT? BUT THE PART THAT REALLY FLARE ME UP WAS HE FORCEFULLY WANTED TO KNOW THE NAMES OF MY EX AND OTHER INFORMATION ? U WAN PEOPLE TO RESPECT UR PRIVACY BUT U KEEP FORCING ME TO TELL U THE NAME OF MY EX IS IT CALL AS RESPECTING OR OTHERS PRIVACY ?

GUYS KINDLY TELL ME YES OR NO ?
to me it is NO ...now how about another issue a more recent one ...

Last week when we met ... he told me that he wanna go to lady gaga night with his close buddy name "B" i said ok ... since u are going on a Saturday night so i said we meet on friday ... he said ok .... afew days later he called me and said "hubby i am going to "b's" house on friday night ... and when i told him din we agree on meeting that night ? u know what was his reply ? u got tell me meh ?? ( NOW GUYS ... IF U WERE ME HOW WLL U FEEL ? WILL U GET ANGRY ? DO I HAVE THE RIGHT TO EVEN GET ANGRY ?) WHEN EVER I CALL HIM ... HE WILL JUST TALK FOR THE SAKE OF TALKING AND WHEN WE SAY BYE BYE , HE WILL JUST HANG UP WHEN I TELL HIM GOOD NIGHT AND SWEET DREAMS ?? WHEN I TALK TO HIM THINGS ... U CAN HEAR THAT IS IS NOT EVEN PAYING ANY ATTENTION TO WHAT I AM SAYING .... LIKE FOR EXAMPLE THE ISSUE WHERE I TOLD HIM TO MEET ON FRI HE DIN EVEN HEAR IT AT ALL .... SO NOW GUYS TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? SERIOUSLY TELL ME AM I IN THE WRONG ? AND SHOULD HE BE SAYING SORRY IF HE EVEN OVER LOOK IT ?

Now adays he is even more classy .... with all this issue it is obvious that who is in the wrong ... but sad to say ... he dont wanna admit IT and tell me what i wan from him ? isn't it obvious ? and worst he say i am jealous of him to be with "b" LOL ? Wow ? pretty obvious situation but he just point the mistakes at me ? Coool huh ? Now he is just point all the mistake at me and feels that is is sooo perfect ? But seriosly after thinking the issue for so many times i dont feel that i am in any wrong ..... and worst ... i tolerated his non sense again and again and he just take it for granted .... i gave in soooo many times and he say what ? I SHOULD UNDERSTAND HIM ? WOW ?

THE OTHER ISSUE I WANNA COMMENT AND I WILL BOLD IT ... I SMS HIM GOOD MORNINGS AND ALL WE SMS CHAT ? AND IN A DAY WE CAN SMS CHAT FOR LIKE MAYBE 10 PLUS TO 20 SMSES ?HE TOLD ME IT WAS EXPENSIVE I SAID OK ... AND TRY TO REDUCE I SAID OK ... SUBSUQUENTLY WE REDUCE TO 10 PLUS SMS AND HE SAID SMS HIM WHEN IT IS IMPORTANT ONLY ? IF U GUYS WERE TO BE IN MY SHOE ... HOW WILL U FEEL ? FIRSTLY I WILL THINK WHAT AM I TO U ? IT IS OK NVM I TOOK IT JUST AS A "BAD JOKE AND SUCK THINGS UP" I DIN WANNA SAY ANYTHING MUCH ...

Soon he had to attend a training i said ok ... first day of his training i was worried he cant wake up and i sms him ... worried and anxious about things i sms him afew times and finally he replied ... he told me he was late ... and i ask than cant u tell me u are already up ? he told me what ? aiya i was preparing mah no time to reply u ? ( i got angry but i controlled ) and that was the last sms i got from him till later part f the day ... after smsing him soo many times ... and i din even see a word sorry and he told me this ... aiya i doing important things mah and was not free ... i was like WTF WHAT U DOING IS IMPORTANTANT AND U ARE BUSY ... CANT U JUST TELL ME SMS ME LATER ? RATHER THAN LETTING ME GET WORRIED OF WHAT HAPPENED TO U ? ( GUYS TELL ME WHAT DID I DO WRONG ?? )

guys after reading all that has happen ? stunning right that there are such people in this world ? and till now all the facts is pointing that he is in the wrong ? and he still have the cheek to tell me that " TILL NOW U ARE THE ONLY GUY THAT I HAVE TREATED U THE BEST ???????? " WHAT IS HE IMPLYING ?? TELLING PEOPLE THAT U HAVE BEEN ILL TREASTING UR EXs ? LIKE WHAT U HAVE BEEN DOING TO ME ? AND WHAT EVER U DO WRONG I MUST ACCEPT AND THINK IT IS OK ? WOW SORRY MAN BUT I AM NOT LIKE THAT .. WHEN U ARE WRONG I EXPECT U TO LEARN FROM IT SAY SORRY AND NEVER REPEAT IT .... BUT I GUES U CANT DO IT ... U ARE TOO SPOILED ... AND THINK TOOO HIGHLY OF URSELF ... IF U STILL WANNA THINK THAT U ARE IN NO WRONG GO AHEAD .... NOW GUYS PLS COMMENT ON WHO IS IN THE WRONG I REALLY GAVE UP TALKING TO HIM FACTS ... AND ANSWERING TO HIS STUPID QUESTION OF " WHAT U WAN ME TO DO THAN U WILL BE SATISFIED ? " REALLY ALL THE ISSUE ABOVE IT IS PRETTY OBVIOUS RIGHT ? MUST I ELABORATE MORE ? AND TILL TODAY I STILL REMEMBER WHAT HE TOLD ME " U ARE A VERY HARD TO SATISFY GUY ?" WOW ... ASKING ONLY FOR CARE CONCERN AND LOVE VERY HARD MEH ? OR RATHER ARE U JUST FEELING THAT U ARE AT THE LOSING END AND JUST TRYING TO COVER UR LOSES ? I REALLY WONDER ... I AM RTIRED AND I AM OFF TO BED .... WHEN U ARE READY TO APOLOGIZE TELL ME BAH ... NITESSS

14 Days Together and still going stronger

Today is the 14th day we have been together. I feel excited and happy. Till today my baby and i have been as sweet as ever. Cant stop from thinking of each other every single moment .He maybe a playful and naughty little boyfriend of mine. But still he is the cuties and the sweetest. MUACKS !! Though my baby maybe stubborn but still i love him alot. At times when he knows that he is in the wrong, he will apologize and not give me ill attitudes that i dislike. He is alway treating me so sweet . i am so happy that i have him as a boyfriend. Last week , we went to catch the 3D movie called Caroline( i forgot how to spell it but i think is this way) it was a fantastic show and we both enjoyed it. While watching the show, we just simply cant resist the temptation of holding hands. We held to each other hands from the start of the movie to the end of the movie and definitely love was in the air. What i love about my boyfriend is the pureness in him and cheerful attitude he has and the best thing is you could see that he is real sincere about relationshi and not getting into the relationship just for the sake of one word and that word is non other than SEX. It is kinda hard to find such a boyfriend now. Now a days, the definition of boyfriend is no longer someone you love, care and share every single happy or sad moments together but rather the definition of a boyfriend now a days is all about sex and more sex. Dont you guys agree ?

A very special occasion to remember is the day 25th October 2009,
Moon and stars was shining brightly on that lovely night sky,
On that night was when we first met,
Shy and excited when i first saw you when we both met.

I fell in love with you at first sight.

Looking at you quietly and being nervous was inevitable.
Overcoming my nervousness and shyness.
Violating the law of nature was already bad.
Entering into a forbidden relationship was even worst.

Yet i still decide to be with you.
Overcoming my fear and nervousness with only 1 intention.
Ultimately wishing to be with you.

For once i targeted and intended to make things work.
Overcoming all odds.
Remaining calm.
Eager to know more about you.
Venting all my interest and concentration totally on you.
Eagerly gathered my confidence and bravery at that moment.
Related my feeling to you.

And the final result was, letting me have a lovely Boyfriend like you. I am so lucky. Therefore 25th October 2009 will be the day, where i will forever remember. MUACKS ! I Love You Baby !

Sorry my dear blog readers , i rarely have time to update my blog now .... NS sux and i cant comment on it. But still i will try to update for you guys to read.

LOVE YOU MUMMY AND BABY !!! MUACKS !!

4th Day with my Mister Right

Hahaha today is the 4th day we are together and it felt greater than ever. We just cant stop thinking of each other and we are looking forward to meet each other tomorrow hahaha !!!

So nice that i can finally get to settle down with someone as perfect as him. But still we still have alot of work to do to drive our relationship deeper.

Oh well we can say that things now are working fine and we both accepted who we are and what we both are and it is a good starting point for the both of us. Further more a relationship dont just work one way rather more of a 2 way thing and from how things are going now. It is going 2 way without any traffic jams. We both aim to develope this relationship more and be together with each other for as long as we can. Thought it may sound as thought it is impossible. But we believe if we both try hard. It will be the way we wanted.

The date that i will remember will be 25 Oct 09. It is the date we first met after chatting to each other for a long long time and on that day we got together and decided to be together. So BABY that date will be a special day for both of us.

It is a pleasure to have u as my bf and i am really lucky to have someone like u to be with me. Thanx for caring and loving me so much and i promise i will love u back as much. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS ONE.

Thanx for reading my blog.
Wish me luck.
I will try to update my blog as frequent as i can hehe !!!
Love u mummy and my little Hubby ~~

YAY ~~ MY MR RIGHT HAD APPEAR~~

HEHE SORRY GUYS I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TO UPDATE HERE ~~ BUT I AM REALLY HAPPY THAT MY MR RIGHT HAVE APPEAR ... AND TODAY IS HAS BEEEN 3 DAYS THAT WE ARE TOGETHER HEHEE ~~~ WILL KEEP U GUYS UPDATED ABOUT US HEHE !!! WISH ME GOOD LUCK ~~ LOVE U MY BABY AND MUMMY ~~~

lifes getting pretty lonely ..

Good day to all my reader ( if there is any), it has been sometime since i have updated my blog. Sorry i cant update it as frequent as i did last time because of my Ns which is taking up alot of my time and also i have been think realyl deeply about things.

Now a days my life is getting really bored. Tried to find someone to settle down but is either not his type or not my type. Otherwise will be just wanna be together just for "sex-sual" pleasure and next moment you will see him going missing. I guess it is like that in the gay circle. To find one that love for who you are and what you are is like searching for a needle in the hay stack.

All i want is someone sweet and really do care for each other and not someone who just wants sex and than disappear. Yes i know everyone need to have sex. But do they need to do it in such extend till they start a relationship just for that ? i dont think so right ? last few times i have dated some people. i told them i am not into just sex, what i want is to find someone who will care for me and who i can care for. One of them after dating me afew times gave up on me. why ? he ask me to have sex with him afew times. but at the end i refused to and end up he just disappear.
the other ? also the same.

I know sex is important and it also shows how much we love one person. But dont u think if everytime we meet and do it. Dont it mean it is like so meaning less?

I agree i would like to have that everytime to express my love. Bu when i think things throught again and again. why sex ? i dont see my mum and dad having sex everyday ? but why us gays ?

All i expect is have a bf, love each other look after each other. Maybe once in a while have sex that is like agreeable . But not like everytime we meet and we have to have sex . sometimes i m really tired about life . really dunno how and why.

Anyway i just really hope to find someone i really love and settle down with. Someone who can make me melt for him and also he melting for me. I dont want a guy who just wanna come and find me have sex chat to me have dinner and next moment going off and i really find it meaningless.

i like a bf who like to travel and who will to come pick me and go out together sometimes. But usually for the start. I will prefer him to travel because i believe if he really love or like you alot he will take the initiative to start.

But from what i can see majority who wanna meet me will fail this round. they will usually say why dont you come over ? And time after time even if i tell them i hate going to town. They will still ask me to go to town ? Funny huh ? i am the type of person who will not anyhow go to peoples place. Usually after we have date for like for a weeks or when we are together for sometime and i feel comfortable. i will go and find him when he ask me to.
Seriously speaking i dont mind to travel. But for the start, i would like him to come over stay at my place a couple oftimes and than i will also go over to stay at his place. But not forgetting that staying at his place may not be a very bright idea.

i know you guys will think why. Let me tell you why. For some of us , our parents may know that we are gay. For my case, my mum do know that i am so it is like less drama around. Secondly if i go stay over and his parents dunno that his son is a gay and suddenly we are hugging and kissing and they enter his room. Imagine the mess i am in and worst he is in. More drama will happen. lets put it this way i am a person who dont mike alot of drama and mess so i would rather my bf to stay at my place occasionally rather than staying over at his occasionally.

Oh well. I dunno. Further more, usually people get the impression that i dont like to go out. Seriously i like to go out. But if you ask me to go out to places i have never gone before i will be really reluctant to go. therefore here comes the part where i prefer him to meet me at places i know a little about and familiar with so that i will not feel uneasy thats all.

Oh well i guess thats all i wanna write about today. Kinda bored .. but cant fall asleep haha.. guess i will just go and game and atch tv. Love you guys and i love you mummy. Muacks !

Saddening day ..

Today was a normal yet quiet day. Reach home late. wanted to go get a keyboard as my old one was kinda spoil. Proceeded to get one .. and who knows i over spent and someone who care for me alot got upset worring that i dont or never save for a rainy day.
this is how my new keyboard looks like >

I apologized to that person and he was upset.. i know i was too much to over spent thought. i felt terrible and i dont wan the same thing to happen again from now on.Therefore from now on i will control the way i spend again and must not repeat my mistake ... i guess i must really reflect on what i did ... guess i have to take what happen yesterday as a lesson learn ... and i am really sorry for what i have done...

But come to think of it, i was unlucky too as all my things are beginning to spoil ... and one shot alot of my things is spoilling at the same time ... hiaz ...

but anyway, this coming 21st is that someone's birthday and i am thinking of getting something for that person, something i can afford thought . i thought of getting for that person a pen which that person will be able to use everyday. What do u think guys ? Pen or other things ? Give me some idea ok ? pls pls pls thanx alot hehehe ~~

Ok now is really late and i have to wake up at 530 AM ... i guess i better be off to bed already ... Nites all ~~~ love u guy and i love u mummy ~~

Chat box

Harlo all, how have u guys been. Recently i have found this very interesting little thingy and i have decided to put it on my blog. Hehehe, it acts like a msn and many people can chat there together . Cool right.Hope u guys will use it more frequent ~~ ^^ love u guys ~~