Someone use to tell me this that everyone's life is like a piece of plain paper where u will have to draw and colour it. i do agree with it, but some how , not always the piece of plain paper can be beautifully coloured as some colours cant be match with each other. Same thing are applied when it comes to friendship too. There are some who are just really out to make friends, some is out to prey on others, some are out to be jealous of others because of who they are and what they are, some literally is out to just create chaos and of cos some is just out to be a puppet master who trys to make people into their puppet.
Some how, now adays i notice, when friends always get really close, alot of us will think that we know alot about them, but seriously, i dont think so. but the best part is, some of them u do really know them inside out and yet they still try to deny the fact and try to make themself a very mysterious person, trying to change themself or should i say reform themself into someone else so as to let people never know about their true personality. Some are just literally stubborn, so what can we do, just suck thumb and see how that silly person continue to be a full fledge fool.
There are times where i always have a thought in my mind such as "why do i have friends who are like that ?" and i do question myself further,
1) heavens will ?
2) Just my bloody luck ?
3) testing my patience ?
4) or just a puddle of water which have to pass by ?
i keep asking and asking myself, and today i kinda found out the answer by myself, like i always say in this world there are different kinda people, thats why this world is form. There are always people who go against each other and there are some where they can never be friends ? and in some cases there are some where they do become friends and slowly conflicts starts to happen.
Showing them concern and care is just like a waste of time after the person keep trying to make u agitated and unhappy, but i just let him continue his nonsense, sad to say, the tolerance for such attitude is wearing off, and the best part was he told me to search my soul and think of my attitude and he just cut off the phone, but lets put it this way who should be the one ? that person should know where his stands are as compared to mine. He maybe a bussiness man but in my eyes he is just a over grown person with no realistic attitude. A attitude which minority maybe able to endure but not to the majority. One who dont face reality, running away from reality , grabbing to what he wants but never accept what people see or say, even when we tell him that it is not just piece of rock is piece but it is a piece of unrefine jade. he will still stand on his points and say it is just a piece of rock.
Thats why now a days, i cant really be bothered with him, and feel like i should slowly fade aways and not contact him any further, talking to him without the slightest interest was a volunteering action without even me noticing. Now a days when we speak even the smallest issue we can get into a arguement, so to me whats the use of maintaining a friendship which is already a plate of rotten food. i strive not to give and try to maintain the friendship but my effort is not very effective, and worst he say that i always wanna win and never think of him. but did he do the same thing which he said ? but giving him the benefit of doubt i still take it as thought he was joking but still it is abit too much.
But looking at how things goes naturally for a rabbit and chicken , a rabbit can never be friend with a chicken, as the character of the both clashes. it is just like the water and the fire, where one will try to over rule the other and will never be good friends. one is the element of starting a life while the other is the element which leads to destruction.and without fail one will try to rule against the other naturally.
After thinking again and again over this issue and what have happen in the past few days, even after he and me have been friend for 1 year plus or even more, i believe and thinks that it is time. I guess since he dont wanna face the fact that our friendship is not working very well, and now a days we are starting to get distances as "brothers" i guess it is time. it is not a issue of who is the one who is in the wrong and who is in the right cos each of us have our point of view of the situation. when there is a argument each of use tend to be more unreasonable furthermore now a days the situation got worst. so thats is why i said it is just that our character dont match and cant be friends. since now a days u like to agitate me and want to make thing slimy for us. go ahead. my heart is already dead. as i have told u before, i am not a nice person , i am a guy with a dead heart who can just give and take and forget about everything just like that. and even when u are begging me on ur knees, i will not turn back on my decision and will still stick to my decision. i am a very cold hearted person cos i was trained to be like this since young. So dont say i take for granted for whatever things i have in life. But u should be the one who should not take advantage of the things in life. the quality of life u have as compared to mine u should know who is the more fortunate one. so dont say that i am the one taking things for granted.
So on this memorable date 26th May 2009 with this posting on my blog, i have decided that i think we should not waste anymore time, u take ur path in life and i will take mine, wish u all the best with ur soon to be boyfriend. Enjoy urself and dont get hurt, think twice as hard when u do something. It is time where we should part and never contact each other anymore. Becos i feel that it is better for us to lead our own life and dont make things so complicated anymore. Dont bother to contact me anymore, i feel there is no reason to keep in contact. so good byw my good friend. i wish u happiness and health.
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