Today i am actually kinda moody, it seems like bad thing do come one after another, one of it is ns , than my health got worst. when i thought my life started to spice up alittle cos i found my love one, it started to crumble right before my very eye. Guess destiny for my love life with the guy i like have never been able to substain for long.
Let me share with u my little story that happen to me twice.
I met this guy on a certain chat room, we became friends and met. When we met, we felt that we can be together and slowly we developed it into a relationship, but soon, he was ask to go to malaysia cos his sister found out about him being a gay but not knowing about us being together, and started to brain wash him , though he is a malay mix chinese but he dont abit seems to be a malay to me. In my eye he was an ideal boyfriend to me, sweet , loving and caring. Thought he is in malaysia, he attemp to sms and even tried to call me everyday. It was very expensive but he din mind and he continued to contact me. Finally, he tried to fixed his internet and it succeedm And soon when ever he is free and when his sister is not home he will logo n his msn and try to chat to me and we will like chat and laught at all silly things that he and me can think off. Otherwise i will come up with stuns to make him stun for a moment and after that he will laugh.
Sad to say, soon his sister found out about us being together. His sister told his parents about it. Now, everything seems to be a mess for him in his life. While for me, i am all but just waiting and waiting. Hoping that it was just a mere dream that would be gone when i open my eye. But sad to say it is not a dream but it is reality. Now i guess his parent are already getting on him and already starting to ban him even to step out of his house and also cutting off all forms of contact for him till he get enlisted to ns. Hahaha, guess it is the way it is suppose to be for me in life. Hahaha last time my ex and now my latest date. Hahaha sometimes in life certain jokes are really painful. Lost of a love one, get looked down by people, get bullied, worry about my own health and now time and time again failure to a fruitful relationship. Maybe it is fated for me that nothing is sweet. Even when i was young i have a sad, lonely and bitter childhood. And now when i am already in my twenties it is still the same. I cant really imagine what will happen in the years to come. Hope everything will be fine.
So i guess like what he suggested, maybe it is time to let go and continue with each of our life. But to me i still stick to my moto :
" What we are is who we are, Who we are is what we are. Be it u try to be another person or not. We are born to be like this and this is fate. Destiny has already been arrange for us therefore we cant do anything but to be the follower of the path that have been paved for us"
To the person who i maybe talking about. Take care of urself, thought we may be together for just a short period of time. I guess it is like what u say, time to let things off the dangling string and continue with our life. But when things settle down i hope u will still contact me and still be friends. And for the last time . Take Care and Farewell ^.^ Though i maybe a normal person and not a person of wisdom and knowledge but i hope u guys who are reading this posting will understand to those out there who have the same situation as me and also help them ^.^ So i guess it is all for now ^.^ Bye Bye
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