just lost a little love one ...

T-T todays is another painful day for me ... my cat who have been living with me for 15 year have just pass on ... my grandma , mum , bro , sis , and me are feeling very upset ... i am like totally feeling so upset ... earlier on i cubbled her as she breathes her last few breath before passing on ... before she passo n she vomited and look at me for the last time before she was gone from the waorld and gone to the far plane to meet my father and grand fathers ... i will really really miss her alot ... i will sure miss her gentle coat of fur and adorable face ... i feel so so so upset ... i cant believe she just pass on ... hoping she would live longer so she could have a more joyious life when time to come ... but who knows her life end today 22th July 2008 ... at 12. 15 pm 09 secs ... i could see that my grandma was really hoping she was alife cos when i went to answer a phone call ... she actually go and touch her and called out her names hoping she would meow for her the last time ... but my cat din ... as i see my grandma walking towards the kitchen will a sarrowful face ... i was kinda upset too but having to control myself from not crying afraid that she would cry too i held on and dare not cry afraid she would also cry ... i really cannot believe that my healthy little fat cat would die so soon ... i witness her last moments of living ... as she struggles to draw every of her single breath ... and soon she started to stiffen up and vomited and just stop breathing ... and it was the last time she drew her breath and look me in the eyes ... i am like why must she die so early ... why i just cant believe it ... hiaz .... guess today is a bad day for me ... hiazz ... now i am totally out of mood for everything ... from eating to sleeping to watch tv ... i feel totally very very down ... but thanx to my baba who tried to comfort me and cheer me up thanx ... love u mummy and dear ... and all my friends ... and thanx to the staffs of Paradise Pet Shop located at 232 Whitley Rd Mt Pleasant Animal Hospital Singapore 297824 for sponsoring the other half of my cats cremation when we are having some financial difficulties and also alice who was kind enought to console me even thought i am just someone over the phone who is feeling really down thanx alot alice ... thanx alot for the sponsorship ... and if i were much more well to do i will sure repay for u good deeds ... thanx a million ... when i am free i will sure take a trip down to thank the people there and also buy alice lunch ... thanx ...