have choosen the path and told the truth ...

Hi all , well i guess u might have guess what i have dont from what my title of this posting have posted. Well i have told my mum that i am not straingh , thought ithought she would be extreme upset, angry with me and also upset with me she din. All she said was " my darling, try ur best and change, do it for mummy seek." I was like so upset when she said that to me, i was expecting that she would be angry and would yell at me but she din, after telling her for the next few dayds she kept smsing me asking where am i, what i was doing and also have i eaten. So most of the time i will reply her said that i am at home and i am looking for things to do, well all of it is true. But it came to the question if i have eaten i told her that i have no appitide and all she said was darling, u must eat and dont be troubled by what u have told me yesterday. I was like totally so upset and depressed that i literally wanted to breakdown. but ever since my mum know that i am not so straight and also different from my brothers, she was more patient and also gave me more attention, but because of this i am even more upset, but at least one of my greatest problem have been solve but there is more to come. Like for example how am i suppose to tell her i have boyfriends before and also what if i am attach how to tell her ? Thats the part i am kinda troubled with actually, but oh well i will have to use the policy i used to say boat till peir will automatically turn straight.

But anyway till today it have been like 5 to 6 days. My mum is still the same she will sms me and ask me where am i. But i notice the new question that recently pop out after i told her bout my sexuality orientation, and the question is "who are u with ?". But well as time passs sooner or later if i ever get attach again i have to intro my other half to my mum too and i hope she will accept it, further more now she have just accepted that i am a gay, it is already ahuge blow to her. I dont think she can handle it if i told her i have boyfriends. And what if when i tell her i haver boyfriends and she ask how many boyfriends i have before how am i suppose to tell her ? She will be fainting i guess. So for now i think the wisest choice for me now is to keep quiet and lay low and see what will happen. Hope that she will not ask such questions so that i will not have to tell her all about it. Thought i have once told her before that being gay is genectically in built in use. It has been decided that we are gay or not the day we were born. So there is no way we can decide for ourself for that and all we could do is to just act straight and not allow anyone to know we are what we are but only allowing some of our close friend know that we are and our family members know will do. Excluding brothers, sisters and grandparents. Oh well i guess that would be all the things i wanna say bah but i will try to make another posting tomorrow ^^. thanx for reading my bloggy ^^ thanx ~~~ thanx to all my reader love u guys. PLEASE to ake full use of the shout box. leave ur comment there and make some noise hahaha LOVE U GUYS ^^