time to move on with a tired life....

hi to all my bloggy reader, haha sorry that i have no time to pose new stuff cos i am really busy with work and now adays my health is getting from bad to worsdt. especially my knee ... hiaz, i am not a sporty person but my knee is already CMI (short for for cannot make it). oh well guess it is fated hahaha. well 1 month 1 week have pass working at my new working place. well it is kinda nice and time flies but still i am really tired cos there is alot of back stabbers in my company especially there is afew snakes around who will try to push all the faults to me. but at least all i know is, if i do my things properly, there is no way people will do thing to get me into trouble. but at least i am proud that those invoice i did, non of the company call back to complain >.<

hiaz, now a days i am so tired, dont even have time to relax and update my bloggy. i manage to fnd a time now cos i just showered and letting my hair dry hehe, furthermore was on M.C and i have slept alot hehe so ya can sleep lesser hehehe.anyway working life is kinda tought and also study is kinda tought tooo just that the toughtness is in a different way hehehe. i really hope my life would be nice and peaceful but soon my path in life has come to a cliff that i dont wish to go ahead but have bbeen force to fall into the cliff. NS ... it is a word that i head alot where the government treat us "citizen" unhumanly and treat us like dogs . i always ask myself what have the government do for us that we must serve the country ? have they feed us ? look after us ? and when we need help have the goverment do so ? i am always asking such questions myself and also to some friends and all the same ... we counld not find the answer and the reason to serve ns... i think it is really a waste of time ... and also it is kinda unfair ... and further more going to ns is something i really dont like ... why should i go ? tell me 10 gooooood reason why i must go ? why must we be "own" by "someone" and be treated as mere "chess pieces" on a "chessboard"? and why must we be "dogs" to "someone" when they are not even providing us with proper "foods" ? why must we be "chess pieces" to people who dont even appear infont of us and let us do all the "fine clean jobs" ? all they know to do when we "dogs die" is give our parents "gifts" but they cant be even bothered to care bout the feelings of our parents. but i really cant understand why dont they be in our shoe ? and think ? why cant it be a self volenteery thingy but a compulsory ? if they feel that not making it compulsory alot of people will not join than they have to think of a way to make it attractive enought so that people will join and not make people to join with force... furthermore "a person can bring the horse to the river but it can never make it drink the water" at the end of the day, they dont train loyal "dogs" but only make more hatred, and further more that "some people" should think why alot of people is leaving singapore, for me i will leave singapore too cos i dont wan my next generation to suffer too. anyway now adays people say going ns is like a charlet. but mind me, people thinks it is a charlet is because they see only whats there when they are there but not things that are there when they are not there. they say the "dog training center" is serving very good food, ya of cos when the parents around of cos there is nice food but a couple of days later u see what kinda food u get. and also u notice one thing ? why does the "dog training center" dont allow camera phone ? cos they scare that some "dogs" will take video of what is happen inside and than put on the net and let people see what is happening inside. cos there is somethings, that only "dogs" inside the "dog training center" will see, will feel, will suffer but outside people cant. i personally feel that that " somebody" should do something about it. cos i personally feel that. if someone is to force someone to do something, the result of that something will not be nice but infact it will arouse something to happen.

like that day, it was deepavali (forgot how to spell). i went to my godma place with my mum, my god pa and my other godma, not long after we arrive my other godma's husbands friends(a old pair of couple) came and tried to mix with my god pa and they started to talk about all kinda things, than they started to about ns. i just act as thought nothing happen. but the part i really cannot stand is that old cocks wife. she said this " ai ya ns now a days is like going chalet. they serve such good breakfast. they pay 4 dollars for breakfast, 8 dollar for lunch and 8 dollar for dinner. they so goodlife. " at that point in time i wanted to rebark her. but i just kept my cool and walk away. i wanted to rebark her this. "aunty, u gal or boy ? u young or old ? u been to ns ? no right ? so STFU and dont talk big ! cos in the first place u dont have the bloody dick and secondly u are a farking old ah ma so shut up and dont talk big." i was like so bloody pissed that i wanted to spit on her. old ladies like her should die faster since they only know how to talk and no action, i guess she is the type "kong liao lan pa song" than when her own son go in she will call and call and ask how are u got kenna ill treat or not those type. she is the type who say for the sake of saying without feeling bout the others feeling. i reallly really wanna spit on her lor !!! roar should have did that... *regret that i din do it* tsk tsk tsk but old people like them will never understand us. before going in i already feel so stress. imagine when u are in it u will feel even more stress. and some of us really cannot take it till we get depression and some will even try to end thier own life. i already cannt take it and i really dont like such things. further more, i have really told myself i wanna enjoy my life for the next few month and let thing be as it is. but i am telling u all one thing i am not going to be let treated as a dog. if things really is not right i will tell them off. be it u are a stupid "dog trainer" or "dog training center manager" i will still not care. cos i believe every human have his or her own right. but i feel that it is really unfair for us. why must there be conscription ? tell me y ? i dont understand it lor if u really wanna have a army, than make it in a way that u will go and attract the citizen of the country to join and the best part in doing that is that u will have a loyal group of "dogs" that u can play with and toy around with. i am a person who dont like to be own by "someone" who have no blood relation with me and further more what have that "someone" did for use ? other than HELPING us spent our money ? u tell me ? anyway am really tired so am going to head for bed ^.^ any comments just shout it at my shout box ^.^ so take care all ^.^