time comes and goes and yet so bored ~~~~

hello all ^^ i guess u all must be asking why is my title time comes and goes and yet so bored . anyway, the reason i used such a title is because i feel that time is passing by so fast ~~~ and it seems to be sipping throught bit by bit as i type this posting. but oh well time cannot be stop. everyone will have to reach 50 some day thought hehhe . so i guess i will still leave on to my moto ^^ happy also one day, sad also one day, cry also one day, so might as well be happy and smile all the way ^^. thought it is easy to say, but it ishard to do such a thing but i have try haha and well it worked ^^

anyway, afew days ago, i quarreled with my mum and now we are fine ^^ and she is like more and more concern about me ^^ thought we quarreled and din wanna speak to each other we still at the end smsed each other and chat ^^ hahaha like what people say, all mothers are the same thought they are angry with us but at the end they still love us and have a softy spot for us and we are the same too hehehe at the end will still give in to them. but anyway, my mum is my only parent left so i guess it is only right to listen to her, be with her, surpport her and spent time with her ^^ further mor, my mum now knows that i am a gay she accepted it thought she told me that she is sad cos i am a gay and she tells me to try to change and of cos i will try to change but still i tried so many time and i cant ^^ but still, i some how still prefer guys over girls, i feel that to be with a guy is better than to be with a gal cos, just somehow guys are sometimes sweeter and also will help each other more cos it is a guys natural character to be stronger and supportive ^^ and a guy who i love supporting me and me supporting a guy i love is what i really wish for ^^

anyway now i am working now, and in my offce i am the only guy in my department and they think that i am a nomal guy hehehe, and i really hope they dont ask me this, where is ur girlfriend, cos if they ask i really dunno what to say, am i going to say oh i am a gay and i only like guys or am i just going to tell another lie. but lets put it this way, if i tell people i am a gay, they will start to avoid me and pinpoint me and if i tell them a lie i have to tell many lie to cover a lie hiazz... which i really dont wanna. but it seems that i have no choice but to tell a lie and cover it with many other lies which it is going to mak it into a big fat lump of lies.but well, i guess the big fat lump of lie is better rthan to tell the truth, cos i dont wanna let my mum to be a laughting stock and also not to disgrace her. further more we are working in the same company so i guess it is best that it is kept a secret about my sexuality. but i just wonder, if one day my working colleague finds out that i am a gay, what will happen ... will my working life be worst ? or will be the same peaceful and full of laughter ? hiazz but i guess it is best that i keep it a secret even till the day i leave my company. Oh well guess it is tme for me to hit the hay. kinda late ler and also my hair is already dried so i guess i wll go sleep bah ^^ so nites all and have a good night sleep ^^ will try to update my bloggy asap ~~~ cos working so lesser time to update my blog hahha ^^ OYASUMI NAHSAI ~~~~ good night, sweet dreams and sleep tight ^^ bye bye ~~~~